Are you yet bored of your distractions?

[Ambivalent1]

I'm at the point of rereading books and rewatching things. So meaningless

 

[darkwater]

The only distraction that still works for me is eating. "Oh tomorrow I could eat pizza stay one more day" so I shimmy from day to day.

 

[CloudyNight]

MMA wrestling all the full combat sports don't like talking so I like punching why self harm when I can harm others (with pads on and rules I'm not completely insane) but in all honesty it's really good way to vent and probably the only reason I'm still here it's now not a distraction but now just a part of my life

 

[unplug]

Same boat. Running out of copes.

 

[Danyyyyy]

I try to stay distracted alot like at school, or my own room especially. It's getting difficult playing same games, even doing new things seems boring after you've seen a vid of it, like ok i dont need to do it anymore :P But yeah I cant keep the wheel rolling :(

 

[SilentSadness]

There could be nothing to truly distract me from the horror of living. When life isn't torture, it is boring to no end.

 

[Ambivalent1]

There could be nothing to truly distract me from the horror of living. When life isn't torture, it is boring to no end.

Do you secretly like your torture? I wonder if people have a masochistic streak built in in order to live this life.

 

[FuneralCry]

To me personally there could never be anything appealing about having to exist at all, existing is completely useless and futile, it's an unnecessary burden that is not for me in any way. I never even feel distracted from the fact that existence isn't worth enduring, I'm wishing to sleep forever pretty much every waking moment.

 

[SilentSadness]

Do you secretly like your torture? I wonder if people have a masochistic streak built in in order to live this life.

Obviously not. Torture is horrific.

 

[Caramelized]

Honestly yes, and I think that out of all the symptoms of depression I've experienced. Ahendonia has been the most heartbreaking for me. Growing up I used to draw every single day, I'd be so excited. I loved playing video games and watching anime...I have to force myself to do all of those things now. I haven't drawn anything in months. I never would've thought that I'd end up viewing life this way or that life would be like this. I never thought I'd lose drawing, I fought to keep it for so long, but I just don't care anymore. Depression won. It's gone (Ewww now I'm crying, this will always be a sore spot for me lol).

 

[WorthlessTrash]

I quit my hobby that distracted me a year ago. I am trying to get the motivation to get back into it, but i just cannot.

 

[Ambivalent1]

To me personally there could never be anything appealing about having to exist at all, existing is completely useless and futile, it's an unnecessary burden that is not for me in any way. I never even feel distracted from the fact that existence isn't worth enduring, I'm wishing to sleep forever pretty much every waking moment.

So what do you do all day?

Obviously not. Torture is horrific.

Unless the person is masochistic. Maybe that's our purpose - to learn to love the pain and ask boldly for more.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Yeah, sometimes. With you- is it a general lack of interest, or, a suspicion that anything new you look at won't be all that great? If you are just re-watching/ re-reading stuff now? Do you have subscription services like Netflix? I quite often have stuff on in the background- while I'm working. So, it doesn't matter so much if it isn't great, and between the two, they just about distract me a fair bit of the time.

 

[FuneralCry]

So what do you do all day?

It's pretty obvious that recently a lot of my time has been spent posting on this site and of course I have to sleep at some point.

 

[foreverfalling]

Yes nothing seems to work anymore. I just refresh youtube but nothing is interesting enough to watch. I scroll through forums but it's just the same stuff over and over again. I don't see the point in posting anything because it doesn't make a difference. Other copes are expensive, too much effort, or unreliable. Just dead inside...

 

[unnormal9]

Yes, I have grown tired of reading years ago. Every waking moment I am researching and planning my suicide.

 

[Dayrain]

I have to force myself to do all of those things now.

I know exactly what you mean. When your hobbies/distractions or your feelings towards them become like an actual work/job...

 

[Tortured_empath]

Oh most definitely

 

[Sweet Tart]

MMA wrestling all the full combat sports don't like talking so I like punching why self harm when I can harm others (with pads on and rules I'm not completely insane) but in all honesty it's really good way to vent and probably the only reason I'm still here it's now not a distraction but now just a part of my life

This sounds awesome and I admire you for doing it. I'm too self conscious about my body and have social anxiety, so I've never dared. I love watching kung fu tho and thought about taking a martial arts class in the past but didn't go thru with it.