Discussion Are you surprised you haven't CTB already?

[tomz323]

Are we gluttons for punishment? If so why? I guess I'm hoping it just gets better, I see no light at the end of the tunnel though.

 

[Emabovary]

Didnt, because didnt know how to do it painlessly. And i still had hope, now no hope i jist need to earn money to rent a flat a buy helium so i can die in peace.

 

[throwaway123]

In the past I would have said it's because I have no painless methods but now I don't care anymore. I will end it before the end of this year.

 

[bacardirum]

Unfortunately no, when I do it it will be final, there will be no mistakes or pussyfooting about.

 

[Xaphous]

I can't help but continually go from I'm not doing it to I'm definitely doing it while life is stagnant and I lose every year of my life. It fucking sucks.

 

[bacardirum]

I can't help but continually go from I'm not doing it to I'm definitely doing it while life is stagnant and I lose every year of my life. It fucking sucks.

You are not ready, and the good thing is, you are giving yourself opportunity for change, I think you are doing the right thing.

 

[Xaphous]

You are not ready, and the good thing is, you are giving yourself opportunity for change, I think you are doing the right thing.

haha there is no opportunity for change, I'm practically housebound my entire life as a hikikomori. Stagnation is not opportunity for change. If i was living the life I wanted I wouldn't be suicidal. I only put it off because I don't want to potentially spiritually degrade because of taking my life.

 

[Escaper Boy]

I'm glad I found this site before I take the final leap. I guess it's a good thing I haven't ctb already. I feel fortunate to have the knowledge and means to exit without too much pain, thanks for this site. "Reaching this far" also means I got the opportunity to prepare my final leap as best as possible.

I'm not surprised for not ctb yet. I'm grateful.

 

[clover___]

I wish I'd done it much earlier. So much abuse.

 

[Soul]

I chose "yes" but only because I've always known I'd commit suicide and never anticipated living this long. My mother was 22 when she killed herself, so every year over that has been a surprise.

 

[DyingWitsie]

Im not surprised just a little disappointed. I overdosed on painkillers two days ago but ended up vomitting. Although i did not ctb im glad i did not become a vegetable because i can always try again.

 

[Beejaay95]

Im not surprised just a little disappointed. I overdosed on painkillers two days ago but ended up vomitting. Although i did not ctb im glad i did not become a vegetable because i can always try again.

Hey man I'm from South Africa and just joined in today do you mind if we chat

 

[Roger]

In a way, yes. It's the only answer, and I know it has to come, but with me it's always mañana, bukra, maybe a miracle will happen.
But it won't, and I will, I have to.

 

[seekingoblivion]

I'm a coward through and through. I'm not surprised I'm still alive