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bullfrog61

Member
Jan 17, 2025
9
I don't really have anything to live for. There's only 2 reasons I haven't CTB'd yet, fear of failing and being a vegetable and fear of what comes after. It's hard for me to imagine literally not being conscious. Funny enough, there's actually a line in Shakespeare's Hamlet about this, "For in that sleep of death, what dreams may come?"
What do you think happens after you die? How do you feel about it?
 
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ma0

How did I get here?
Dec 20, 2024
232
I've made peace with the idea that after you die, there's nothing. It's not like I'll be able to wish to go back after I CTB, I'll have no conscious. I'll just be an unthinking nothing in the endless abyss of nothing.

Nothing, nothing, nothing. How nice it must be.

Still, I completely understand your fear. You've only known thoughts and awareness for so long it can be scary to think about a reality where that isn't the case.
 
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coffeebeany

Student
Jul 12, 2024
149
It ll be probably like before I or we all were born. There was nothing. That's what I believe although if I m being honest I do wish I could be with my partner and friends. But I know this is not how this works.
 
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mirisasofia09

Member
Jan 14, 2025
9
No, I'm not afraid. My life is a hell here. Nothing can be worse. I always hope for the mercy of a god. If there is one and if he exists i Hope he will have mercy on me who can no longer stand what happened to me and the people who made me suffer. If a reincarnation ever exists I hope to never have to see the souls who made me suffer and Who helped them again.
 
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ringo99

Arcanist
Apr 18, 2023
431
Why should I when heaven and hell don't exist? They're just fantasies made up by twisted, old and corrupt people in power to control the masses
 
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human909

human909

I just want peace
Dec 30, 2024
283
I think it's just nothingness, absolutely nothing. no feelings. no vision. just gone out of this world in peace. I can't imagine how peaceful this would finally be.
 
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TheHolySword

TheHolySword

empty heart
Nov 22, 2024
734
I stopped being scared of death, it doesn't matter what comes after. There is no meaning to life, there is no purpose in death. It comes for us all so I will meet it with open arms. It is beyond nothing, beyond emptiness, beyond peace.
 
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ShatteredSerenity

I talk to God, but the sky is empty.
Nov 24, 2024
362
After I die I believe most likely I'll simply cease to exist, with a smaller chance of heaven/hell, reincarnation, or other form of afterlife. I'm not particularly scared of those options except hell, and I don't think it's likely I'd end up there since I haven't been a bad person.

What does scare the shit out of me is failing and ended up disabled and 1000x worse off than I am now. I may not be too worried about hell in the afterlife, but experiencing hell on Earth is a very real threat. I already feel like bipolar has made my life a living hell, I definitely don't want it to get even worse.
 
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Hotsackage

Enlightened
Mar 11, 2019
1,053
"I was dead for billions of years before I was born, and I suffered slightly no inconvenience from it". Mark twain. Something along those lines
 
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needthebus

needthebus

Victim of Sexual Violence, Invisible and Abandoned
Apr 29, 2024
499
i doubt anything exists after death, but am not sure death is possible.

i am not sure hell exists, but if it does, i don't believe humans can choose things, i think things just happen, and people use words like "choice" to describe chemical changes in the brain that are too complex for people to understand. But would some deity create humans only to send them to hell? I don't know the answer to it, but believe if that's my destiny, there's no stopping it, so why be concerned?

as a gay person, i've heard many times that according to religions i am going to hell anyway, so it seems like if religions are real then i'm going there one way or another. but i'm not a believer

as a former figure skater, i've learned you can only try your best and then just accept the results, and sometimes you win and sometimes you don't. i'm scared only slightly, but in a helpless way, because whatever will happen will happen
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
39,836
No, I only fear this torturous, hellish existence where there is no limit as to how much one can be tortured, it terrifies me how a human can be conscious in this existence for so long just to die in agony from old age, to me existence is the most harmful abomination that just causes endless amounts of cruelty and suffering torturing existing beings so immensely, this existence just feels like a mistake to me and it's something I'd never wish for, rather I wish I never existed at all. I'd always prefer to not exist but really only never existing at all is true perfection to me, I just believe death to be eternal non-existence with no more pain, no more suffering and to permanently not exist is all I hope for, it's the only relief for me, I just wish for this existence I saw as causing nothing but suffering to finally be all forgotten about, for me non-existence is all that feels positive, being permanently unable to suffer is all I see as desirable, I just want to never exist ever again.
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
2,876
I'll never be scared of what happens after i die. to me it's the greatest gift non-existence forever .

non-existence forever is the only guarantee of never suffering extremely.

Non-existence takes me away from being a slave , a prisoner , from this impositiion and out of danger of suffering extreme torture , it takes me out of danger forever ,.

non-existence forever solves every problem instantly and forever, no pain no suffering no problems no bad memories ever.

there is pain so bad that one minute of it makes everything else meaningless. Everything else is meaningless anyway . Only evolution and culture society other humans movies tv media etc programmed it into a human's brain that all these things are meaningful , fun important

i think yeah the brain is born with atomic ability to feel pleasure and pain but a lot of these addictions are learned . anyway either born with or learned pleasurable crap doesn't compare to the most extreme torture and are meaningless anyway.

there is no reason for any god or computer programmer to create a mouse a human brain that is able to suffer unending constant unbearable pain. like i said evolution and culture programmed into humans that any of this torture garbage has any meaning at all it doesn't.
 
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J&L383

Warlock
Jul 18, 2023
748
What does scare the shit out of me is failing and ended up disabled and 1000x worse off than I am now. I may not be too worried about hell in the afterlife, but experiencing hell on Earth is a very real threat. I already feel like bipolar has made my life a living hell, I definitely don't want it to get even worse.
Exactly. As long as I get to the other side (nothing, or whatever it is) I'll be happy. Somewhat fearful of the dying process if it's a "natural" death. Less so with a self-directed approach. And then living the present has its own fear. 🥺
 
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mango000

wants to sleep forever
Nov 12, 2024
39
I don't really have anything to live for. There's only 2 reasons I haven't CTB'd yet, fear of failing and being a vegetable and fear of what comes after. It's hard for me to imagine literally not being conscious. Funny enough, there's actually a line in Shakespeare's Hamlet about this, "For in that sleep of death, what dreams may come?"
What do you think happens after you die? How do you feel about it?
its my belief that we've all already experienced what its like after you die. its the same as what it was like before you were born, nothing. ive already experienced it, so it doesnt scare me. im looking forward to my endless sleep
 
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Overwhelmed52

Experienced
Dec 3, 2024
248
I'm more afraid of CBTing being painful for the method not working. If people could die just by wishing they were dead, I would have died a long time ago.
 
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Aloneandinpain

Experienced
Dec 25, 2023
262
I kind of barely exist much right now as it is, will kind of be the same but just existing slightly less and resting more,
 
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smallsupernova

Member
Jan 17, 2025
6
Not really
I don't believe there is anything after this life, only emptiness and peace
 
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danny10

Student
Jan 8, 2025
129
I'll just cease to exist, there is the big nothing after I die. My sister committed suicide 3 years ago so if there is something after death, at least I can be with her again. It kinda gives me peace of mind.
 
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Richard Langford

An ordinary older guy.
Jan 10, 2025
379
There's a few of us who've had very pointed experiences or occurrences in our lives that indicate there's something more going on than we can comprehend or understand. I've had several.

It would be difficult to put these down to chance as the odds on suchlike happening would be astromically colosal - certainly the 2nd and 3rd that were connected. It's actually easier to believe there's something else at play. These experiences do give you cause to think about a potential afterlife.

I know its not a popular viewpoint on here.
 
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bullfrog61

Member
Jan 17, 2025
9
There's a few of us who've had very pointed experiences or occurrences in our lives that indicate there's something more going on than we can comprehend or understand. I've had several.

It would be difficult to put these down to chance as the odds on suchlike happening would be astromically colosal - certainly the 2nd and 3rd that were connected. It's actually easier to believe there's something else at play. These experiences do give you cause to think about a potential afterlife.

I know its not a popular viewpoint on here.
What experiences have you had?
 
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Richard Langford

An ordinary older guy.
Jan 10, 2025
379
What experiences have you had?
Three. One involving a former GF and one my late mother in hospital. If you do a search re afterlife or suchlike you'll find them. My point is all these experiences if you're attributing them to luck or coincidences would involve astromical odds. You wouldn't believe that either they are so pointed and bizarre (we're not talking Bader Mienhoff syndrome here). So the only other reasonable explanation is something else going on we don't comprehend. Others on here have had similar occurrences in their lives. As I said not a popular viewpoint on here.
 
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Prism

💔
Jul 15, 2024
66
Even though I think oblivion is the most likely outcome, I'd be lying if I said the possibility of other options, such as hell or reincarnation into a worse life, didn't make me nervous. Even nonexistence itself does, as irrational as it is. I'm honestly kinda jealous of people who are at peace with it all.
 
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avoid_slow_death

Ready to embrace the peaceful bliss of the void.
Feb 4, 2020
1,340
Not at all. I firmly believe that once we go, that's it. No afterlife, no roaming the cosmos as conscious energy, (although I love that thought and hope I am wrong and that's what will happen,) no nothing. Just the sweet, peaceful bliss of eternal non-concious slumber. Sweet, sweet rest finally.
It is beyond nothing, beyond emptiness, beyond peace.
Absolutely LOVE this line. It's poetically beautiful.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
10,455
I'm hoping there's nothing. That doesn't scare me as such. Just feels a bit weird. The prospect of heaven, hell or reincarnation do scare me and (sadly,) I can't entirely rule them out. I feel like they're going to be there anyway though, regardless of whether I CTB or not. I fully suspect I've done enough to piss God off (if there is one,) even before CTB so- on that front, I reckon I'm already on the naughty list.

I'm actually far more scared about the process of death/ suicide itself and the need to get it overwith successfully first attempt.
 
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WatchmeBurn

Member
Apr 26, 2023
17
I am very confident there's nothing. I'm more afraid of DYING than being dead, e.g., the pain and the fear of it. That and the emotional impact it'll have on my loved ones.

If I could just choose to be dead in an instant + my loved ones having never known I ever existed, then I'd do it right now.
 

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