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jakethesnake

Member
Apr 20, 2023
17
I am not sure which is better. Leaving a note or not.

What about you?
 
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InTheAbyss

Student
Jul 30, 2024
113
I wrote one last year. It's buried in a pile of papers now somewhere. I don't know if I'll dig it out, write another one, or not bother.
 
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GodzillasBiggestFan

GodzillasBiggestFan

Godzilla's Lonely Bestie
Jan 12, 2026
229
for me it feels wrong not too. i have written them before most of my attempts. i really wish there was a way i could ask people though whether or not they'd want to have a note because i dont know it might make them more sad or not but there is no way i could ask them that without making them very suspicious.
 
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pinkluvr

pinkluvr

New Member
Feb 22, 2026
3
I know I definitely want to leave a note but not sure if I want to have a letter for each person or just one big letter for everyone to read
i really wish there was a way i could ask people though whether or not they'd want to have a note because i dont know it might make them more sad or not
Real asf I've been thinking about this too. I want to cause as little sadness possible but there's no way of really knowing what'd be better
 
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ohdeergod

ohdeergod

haunted
Mar 19, 2025
9
i don't think so, not even to my loved ones. i have always been a private person though.
 
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SummerTrip

SummerTrip

aiygiwgwyaiydiwdwy
Feb 23, 2026
58
Don't have any immediate family or friends but still leaving a note to someone who'll find the body and will arrange the cremation. It's not as much about feelings as about instructions on what to do and not do, and explanations to some things.

Although it's not my situation, I believe if you have anyone who truly loves you, you have to write a note. Give them this at the very least.
 
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saikou

saikou

もう疲れた
Feb 8, 2026
31
i thought about it, but i genuinely have nothing to say
 
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Give Up The Ghost

Give Up The Ghost

All Apologies
Jan 13, 2025
7
I attempted to take my life 12 years ago . I left a note that simply said "fuck you all". No one ended up seeing it and my attempt failed. I don't regret writing it though. That's how I felt towards all the people I knew back then. Nowadays I have a few fantastic friends who I would at least leave a heartfelt dm to, if not stay alive for.

The psychology of leaving a note at all is interesting. We want to leave this life, but we feel we have something left to say, some justification or way of making those we leave behind understand. I kinda wish I'd just say these things to those people bow while I'm alive. Tell the people I love that I love them. Tell the people I hate to fuck off.

If I'm dying, it doesn't matter. Everything that happens after I'm gone is like everything that happened before I was born. Nothing to do with me. So from that perspective I don't care for leaving a note. However, there's an emotional pull I feel towards it, and maybe that's some part of me that wants to live, and say what I wanna say
 
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jakethesnake

Member
Apr 20, 2023
17
for me it feels wrong not too. i have written them before most of my attempts. i really wish there was a way i could ask people though whether or not they'd want to have a note because i dont know it might make them more sad or not but there is no way i could ask them that without making them very suspicious.
I wonder about that. I think if a family member of mine CTB I wouldn't want a note. Maybe it's just me.
 
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GodzillasBiggestFan

GodzillasBiggestFan

Godzilla's Lonely Bestie
Jan 12, 2026
229
I wonder about that. I think if a family member of mine CTB I wouldn't want a note. Maybe it's just me.
i think i would want a note but who knows because everyone is different and there's no way for me to know how my friends or family would feel about that. i guess i could write it anyway and they can just choose to not read it if they want but i dont know.
 
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vanillabug333

vanillabug333

I had a marvelous time ruining everything
Feb 10, 2026
33
probably not, I don't think the people in my life deserve any closure with the way they've treated me
 
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cbtvvxxvvv

cbtvvxxvvv

can you come and murder me :3
Mar 4, 2026
43
i think it depends on the situation. in certain relation/friendships it can definitely cause a tiny bit of closure and not leave them guessing or oblivious.

ive also heard that sometimes notes can make it worse and the targeted party may spiral deeper.

it all depends on the people that you would or wouldn't leave one too. if they mean a lot to you and you want to tell them it isn't their fault or they couldn't have done anything, that could help! but if everyone in life was horrible to you or you were isolated for many many years i can def see the benefit of not leaving one.
 
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fatpigiee

fatpigiee

Member
Feb 14, 2026
15
No, I'm planning on withdrawing myself and isolating my selffrom everyone for a while till they get used to me not being here anymore before iam gone ,I want them to forget about me
if i want to say/do something to them i want to do it waayy before
Like gifts for example, i want to gift my family and loved ones before i go Especially since money won't be so important anymore.
 
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_wishforwings

_wishforwings

Forever is such an unpleasant word.
Feb 4, 2026
28
I did write one but I could see my mom not reading it for a long time afterwards, or maybe not want to read it at all. But in my opinion it is better to play it safe and have one in the hopes it helps lessen the burden than to not have one.

I wrote ones to individual people in my life but I'm really only close with like 4 people. and half are family. Mostly just told people it wasn't their fault.
 
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bugbugbug

Member
Mar 2, 2026
39
I'm trying to work on scheduled videos to send to people, I don't want anyone to suffer that might possibly care (though the list is short and idk if they'll even care) but we'll see if I actually do it
 
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_sinner_

Member
Jul 25, 2025
5
Thought about it, but don't know who in my life would actually care/feel closure from it, or what I would say. Other than letting them know I don't blame them for anything I'd do.

If I were to I'd probably want to do individual ones - one for my sisters even though only my youngest would be able to read/understand it, and an online friend. Just to tell them not to blame themselves and I never stopped loving/caring about them. Though maybe it's pointless, or hurtful. I don't know
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,438
I would to explain that all I want is peace from the evil, torture and suffering of existing where there is no limit as to how much one can be tortured, for me ceasing to exist is the positive solution to find peace from suffering, for me ceasing to exist is the way of finding peace from this dreadful, torturous existence that was always a mistake in the first place, it's so horrific to me how the torture of existing can continue for decades longer just for one to face the terrible, extreme agony of old age.
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Visionary
May 10, 2025
2,816
my society is vile abomination,
people have treated me like garbage my entire life,
that human scum does not deserve a note
 
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meddle

meddle

Student
Jan 11, 2024
180
its better to leave a note. it gives at least some closure on why you did this. but if you dont want to leave any, you can not leave any, thats your choise
 
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