Discussion Are you happy?

[unusally alive]

I know it seems counter-intuitive but I myself wouldn't really say that im sad or have a bad life. Idk how to explain it really, it's neither bad nor good, it just is and I don't want it to be anymore.

 

[AdamOndiAhman]

no

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I'm on a suicide forum, actively planning my ctb. How could I be happy?¿ I haven't experienced any real happiness in better than 30 years.

 

[lomorbu]

I don't think anyone's happy. I think some are satisfied but I'm definitely not

 

[FuneralCry]

Never and I don't even believe in the idea of happiness in the first place rather the idea of such is a delusion to me that just invalidates how undesirable and hopeless existence truly is. Under no circumstances would I ever wish to suffer in this existence, simply being conscious and aware is both tiring and dreadful to me, I find it an abomination to exist especially as there are no disadvantages to never existing at all with nobody able to be harmed by the absence of existence.

It'll always be terrible to exist in this reality where chance so sensessly determines everything where there is no limit as to how unbearable existing can get, I'd only be glad to cease existing, all I wish for is the peace of eternal nothingness where all is finally forgotten about, existing truly is nothing more than meaningless suffering.

 

[Agon321]

I'm planning CTB, so of course I'm the happiest person on the planet ;).
But seriously, I can enjoy life, but my brain is against me and the bad moments outweigh it.
Additionally, my views make me not look positively at the future.

So I wouldn't call myself a happy person.

 

[lkjhgfdsa1]

no

 

[Leiden]

Um...no. obviously not.

 

[baller]

nah and i dont reckon other people actually are. I know there is 'always a reason to smile' but the same goes for sad shit and humans are inclined to focus on bad stuff. It seems like theres always something to feel bad about, people who are happy are just ignoring it.

 

[Hotsackage]

I don't know and prolly maybe not want to kno

 

[F@#$]

Fuck no,I'm miserable.

 

[feelinggloomy]

The other day I realized I was last happy in 1998 and there as a moment in 1998 when mi life turned to crap and never turned back.

 

[Ichigo]

Things could DEFINITELY be a lot better. I wish i had a car for one thing.... Its hard to get around otherwise

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Uh, no, I'm not happy. Why would I be? There isn't really much in life that makes me happy or anything that I want to do

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I'm not happy with my personal situation but I'm happy that some things are still good. My basic life isn't bad either but it's not how I would like it to be. Everything ist on a very low level.

 

[Defenestration]

Je sais que cela semble contre-intuitif, mais moi-même, je ne dirais pas vraiment que je suis triste ou que j'ai une mauvaise vie. Je ne sais pas vraiment comment l'expliquer, ce n'est ni mauvais ni bon, c'est juste le cas et je ne veux plus que ça le soit.

Same

 

[yxmux]

Happy with dying, yeah…

 

[lost_ange2211]

Happy? No, it feels like my mental sickness devoured the better parts of me and I'm left with the shattered, broken, lost parts of me.

 

[ARW3N]

No, the sooner I die the better. The problem is death is not coming fast enough for me.

 

[AmberianDawn]

No, but I try to appreciate the nice and small things about this absurdity. Thinking about big things led me to more unhappiness than inherent

 

[LaVieEnRose]

No my life is sheer misery. I have never experienced a happy life.

 

[tezw]

Absolutely god damn miserable, I wished I could be the happy person I used to be, i despise seeing happy people too, I know that is selfish but I wished I could find contentment, I guess most of us are miserable on some level, it is why I joined the community to find likeminded people and maybe find some happiness here

 

[Moniker]

I'm not happy, but I've been worse, I guess. I'm in sort of a neutral mood - about as happy as I can be.

 

[divinemistress36]

My therapist says nobody is happy

 

[Kurai]

no, just faking it all

 

[HereTomorrow]

I think I'm actually happy but my mind can't percieve it. I can laugh, smile, go for a walk, talk to people, and overall look happy, but I'm not. I'm frustrated at myself for not mentally feeling happy. I'm so numb from all the pain I've been through I can't feel any emotions that aren't in the extremes, such as a traumatic event or a very exciting event suddenly emerging out of the blue.

I'm trying to be happy, but I feel like I'm masking the appearance of such all the time.

 

[untothedepths]

Based on my post history.......yeah.

 

[deadbody]

It's hard to tell. Sometimes yes, sometimes no. Mostly of the time no. My happiness is too short for me to enjoy it.

 

[JustA_LittlePerson]

I know it seems counter-intuitive but I myself wouldn't really say that im sad or have a bad life. Idk how to explain it really, it's neither bad nor good, it just is and I don't want it to be anymore.

I've actually never been happier, believe it or not. I decided to ctb a while ago and back then I was miserable, but now I'm fairly normal.

 

[Roadrunner]

Definitely NO