Discussion Are you 100% sure you will CTB before natural death occurs? Poll

[HadItAll]

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[Darkover]

differently i'm hoping N comes back on the market soon, i have many physical health problems one being a brain injury to name just one, i'm really dead set on leaving just need to get my finances in order and stop buying weed and coke every week

 

[Shadowlord900]

What is considered a natural death? We're always doing one thing or another that contributes to wearing our body out. Does the naturality of those actions determine whether our death is natural or not?

Say even if you've only ever smoked once, that's still extra strain you've put on your lungs. Ever drank alcohol just once? Same thing with your liver.

 

[HopelessAngel]

It's a very high percentage, but no, I'm not 100% sure. I'm struggling with a lot of fear and guilt associated with the thought of ending my life. Those are emotions I still need some time to work through. When I do, I'm fairly confident I will take my life, but until I work through those emotions, everything is uncertain.

 

[D_Ana]

im not sure, im takin some pills to feel better and keep my head empty, so no more suicidal thoughs but still, if i just stop takin them the reality will hit me again, it depends, maybe i'll die in a car accident tomorrow

 

[sylver]

The more psych meds I'm on, the more comfortable I feel with the notion of taking my life. But on the other hand, they also make me very numb, which makes dealing with the hardships of life easier. I'm going on another med soon, let's hope it's the one that will convince me to take that last step.

 

[Hollowman]

The only way I can think of that I wouldn't do it is if I somehow ended up paralyzed from the neck down.

 

[Never Alive]

The only way I can think of that I wouldn't do it is if I somehow ended up paralyzed from the neck down.

Yeah that, thats why I want to know if I ever ctb, if I could be kept alive for centuries in austria. Hopefully not. I wonder if telling people or writing it down would make sure or how it works here. If anybody knows, I would very much appreciate it.

 

[Pluto]

'Natural death' can be an accident or illness, which could happen to anybody at any time.

On the other hand, there comes a time in old age when we lose the ability to make rational choices and society will see us slowly rot in a nursing home. I would definitely want to CTB before that happens even in the unlikely event that I overcome my current health issues and live to old age.

 

[GasMonkey]

Totally and absolutely.

 

[Veraz]

It depends, I guess. I bounce between being okay for a few months, and then being severely depressed for a while, and then back to being okay again. That being said, my depressive episodes have been steadily getting worse each year. They tend to be particularly bad on my birthdays specifically, because I hate getting older. I always end up comparing myself to other people my age and feeling like a failure.

I made a promise to myself a long time ago that if things didn't change by the time I turned 30, I would put an end to it all myself. I've got 3 years left to go until that day, and I still don't know if I will find the courage to do it when the time comes, or if I will still be alive and miserable in my 40's. God I hope not.

 

[suprswag]

I think so. Once my cats pass, or I find them a new home when I'm sure I'm ready, I'm likely going to ctb. I haven't yet decide on a method, though. Which is fine, because my cats are still young. I'll have about 10-16 years before they pass, tons of time to think.

It depends, I guess. I bounce between being okay for a few months, and then being severely depressed for a while, and then back to being okay again. That being said, my depressive episodes have been steadily getting worse each year. They tend to be particularly bad on my birthdays specifically, because I hate getting older. I always end up comparing myself to other people my age and feeling like a failure.

I made a promise to myself a long time ago that if things didn't change by the time I turned 30, I would put an end to it all myself. I've got 3 years left to go until that day, and I still don't know if I will find the courage to do it when the time comes, or I will still be alive and miserable in my 40's. God I hope not.

I have depressive episodes as well, but instead of them steadily getting worse, their rapidly getting worse. Each episode has been coming quicker than the next, and longer lasting than the last episode. I at least hope I'll be able to hold on another 10 years for my cats.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

We all will die anyway . It's not if you die but how you die and get to non-existence , through torture or asleep in 5 minutes with N under anesthesia N is anesthesia . hmm let me think . No don't have to think life is hell anyway and I never asked to be here I just want to not exist . life is hell but being old is 1000 times more hell. no way I'll be old. Yes I'll ctb there's no way I'm going let some torture like cancer , stroke , alsheimers , old age, lyme , tape worm , dementia , nursing homes 1000 other natural death tortures get my vertebrate self . No way , It's a painless quick death for me . I never wanted to be alive but they made assisted suicide illegal (Dr . kevorkian ) so I have to do myself to reach sweet non-existence . They are all waiting for torture not me.

Non-existence is the ultimate bliss the complete lack of pain , problems , torture , suffering , diseases old age threats 1000 other horrible things can't hurt me

 

[WorthlessTrash]

I cannot say with 100% certainty as SI is a bitch to overcome, BUT I hope to. Or at least I hope to die of natural causes very soon due to not taking care of myself.

 

[fuzzy-clown]

I feel obligated to stay around for my parents. That will take probably 20-30 years.
After that, it's likely that I'll CTB. But I can't be 100% sure what my life situation will be that far into the future.
Perhaps it's unlikely but it's possible I end up with a life partner who I can't check out early on.

 

[Lost in a Dream]

I'm mostly certain, but not 100% certain. If I can't manage to push myself to end my life, then sometime within the next couple of years, I'm probably going to die from a serious illness caused by neglecting my health anyway. I guess you could call it a natural death if I die from a heart condition or cancer, but not caring enough to take care of myself could probably still be considered a slow suicide. I'm not really sure what to call it, honestly.

When I feel ready to speed things up, I certainly will, but I don't know when that might be exactly. I'm also not sure when my health might take a shit either, but I don't think I want to wait around long enough to see how that happens.

 

[ThatStateOfMind]

I'm fairly young so I am not 100% certain. Life can change at any moment and I suppose if I can overcome everything, hopefully I can live a long and fulfilling life. If not, that's okay as well. Right now, though, I'm not 100% certain, and I'm wanting to give life a chance.

 

[Death is my goal]

i dont want to ctb but i have to and im willing to if i got the chance, although im not 100% sure if im ever gonna get the chance. hope i do.

 

[LocalAngel]

No, i'm not certain. I've never had covid, but i have 4 vulnerabilities to it. And it's very possible it will make my epilepsy worse via brain damage- so... honestly feel like i'm living on a ticking time bomb here. Ik a majority of ppl here won't get that, but. yeah.

 

[VioletNight]

I'm really not sure, I'd say ctb is the most likely way I'll die but I have people that depend on me which keeps me going, so I could be around for a long time. Since accidents/diseases happen I wouldn't be surprised if something else got me first.

 

[WaitingToGo]

I said yes. The biggest thing stopping me was worrying about my cats, but that's arranged now for when I go. I'm 65 physically healthy but the thought of another 20 years or so of this mental torture, grief, loneliness and depression fills me with dread. I can't even conceive of surviving the next month if I'm being honest

 

[neemva]

I am hundred percent sure that I'll CTB, before death...I tried doing it last year, but I failed due to lack of knowledge in performing steps, and I really don't want another failure

 

[outrider567]

Yes

 

[Octavia]

I feel like I would not be making it past 21, but then again I am often wrong about things.

 

[IJustWantToTalk]

No. I don't know how to rank it in percentages, but I would say I am much much more likely to CTB

 

[Cathy Ames]

I would say no. I intend to outlive my elderly cat, but my untreated health conditions (or something random) could take me out before then.

 

[stoopid]

I would love to, but because of reasons it's not time yet. Death is the only way out of the matrix.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

Nope. But probably.

 

[FuneralCry]

The thing is, it's really impossible to be 100% sure as after all, life is unpredictable and uncertain and death could come for us at any moment. Nobody can guarantee that they will die from ctb as even if someone was planning to end their existence soon, something could happen to make them die before that. So to answer the question, no.

 

[Unending]

I can't be 100 percent unless it happens and at that point I won't know the difference. Funny how I've been thinking about this everyday for the longest time but won't ever know the difference if I actually go for it and succeed.