Are y’all planning on saying your “goodbyes” before you CTB?

[tidal1]

Honestly, I feel enough of a coward as is for wanting to ctb despite my family spending all these resources on me for my mental health that I wouldn't even know what to say other than I'm sorry, but that's so lame and can't begin to make up for all the pain I will cause them.

As for friends, I really don't have any at the moment. Most of the ones I used to have I haven't spoken to in years so to get any kind of communication from me would just be weird.

Overall, just curious about what other people intend to do.

 

[ADeadBunny]

Personally I'm not doing anything other than leaving behind the journal that I write in periodically and the notes on my phone. I don't owe anyone an explaination as to why and I don't owe anyone a goodbye. I can only hope the others in my life feel the same way.

I want to make sure that I'm on good standing with the people I love before I go, but other than that I don't have anything planned. I don't imagine I'll be missed terribly much as I'm a stone cold bummer due to my crippling depression. People don't tend to miss that. I just want to make sure that the people I care about aren't pissed at me before I go.

Whatever you decide I hope you're able to find comfort and peace.

 

[ripberman]

Be kind to yourself—there's nothing cowardly about wishing for peace after extreme, prolonged suffering.

I will probably leave notes for a few family members and close friends. I want to express gratitude for the goodness they brought to my life, and to assure them that my death was inevitable.

Acquaintances and distant friends will not be receiving anything—I don't see the point in explaining myself to people who won't care about my absence.

 

[AgainChrisis]

I have partially written good bye letters to wife and daughter.

 

[tunnelV]

There really isn't anyone to say goodbye to besides my dog. I mean the man I live with makes video games a priority. I was even sick and he didn't even check up on me. I haven't spoken to him for days now. He has asked me if I wanted anything at the store through text messages. I told him no thanks. I'm severely depressed. I can hear him laughing loudly on his games it makes me cringe. Today is my last day at work until next week. I think I am going to a hotel with my dog to give myself some space from this apartment. He still drops me off at work and the 20 minute ride we don't speak. It's awkward. No saying bye to a hollow shell. Plus I've only held on so long because of my dog not any human beings. That's just the facts. I truly don't think I've ever met anyone with real empathy. I wish I could afford to move away from all people permanently.

 

[Kalista]

I have a bunch of audio recordings expressing my thoughts and feelings towards the person I care about. Although, I want to hear her voice one more time, she'd only get pissed off at me if I try to contact her again. So I'll leave her recordings instead and a last transfer of money just before I do it.

 

[my_sundown]

I think about this a lot. I feel like one of these days I'm just going to carry out my plan and it very well could be spontaneous. I hate this place (life).

 

[FuneralGrey]

I hear you on how hard it can be to think of something to say that expresses your feelings adequately. It's tough.
Personally, I'll probably send a delayed email to one or two people. Most people in my life already know where I stand in regards to suicide, so we've had our chances to express how we feel as best as we can.

 

[NeedAnEscape]

I can relate to the pain of a continued urge to CTB, despite having a loving family that tries to help. I have thought long and hard about my final words to my loved ones. I plan to leave behind notes to everyone who mattered. I'll keep them locked in a box with instructions on how to unlock it revealed only after I CTB. This is such an unbearable pain to live with.

 

[Seered Doom]

Contrary to popular sentiment, I would not announce my departure in a goodbye note to any personal people, it'll just be a goodbye post on here, some last convos with people I genuinely care about (without telling them what I'm gonna do ofc) and make it seem like normal before I go. I don't want anyone worrying about me nor interfering with my wishes.

 

[Leavesfromthevine]

I'm definitely posting a goodbye thread on here. This place has been one of the only places I've ever felt comfortable and truly myself. I'm not sure what I'll put in my thread but I'm definitely going to have one.

Real life I won't write a goodbye note I'll probably just message a "friend" who knows the plan and tell him it's time. Everyone that knows me on a personal level knows my thoughts behind my suicide and why I plan on doing it and I don't feel a note would add anything they don't already know.

 

[FuneralCry]

I personally wouldn't see it as the best idea being open about plans to die and actually saying farewell in my opinion. It could very likely just cause other people to try and interfere as after all I believe most people sadly refuse to accept the decision to die and believe that suffering should be prolonged even if the individual wishes to be gone.

 

[hermestrimegistus]

I'm gonna say goodbye without actually saying it. I don't want to cause any guilt or pain

 

[GlutenFreeCat]

Nope

 

[melancholia_melodia]

Maybe. I would probably leave a note to instruct my relatives and acquaintances on what to do with my stuff when I'm gone. I would also reveal all my feelings and thoughts, comfort my loved ones and give anyone who reads my note some final life advice before I put the pen down. That would be my farewell.

 

[ropearoundatree]

-no.

 

[hi-okbye]

i'm making a goodbye thread here. and i was considering writing goodbye notes as well. not too sure though. still have to think about what i would write.

 

[my_sundown]

This resonates with me, like - I also don't have the energy to write anything anymore. I wish you all the best. Feeling terrible.

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

Nope. I pretty much feel that no one would even give 2 shits after I'm gone. If they actually cared about me, they wouldn't be taken advantage of me left and right. No one deserves a goodbye from me.

 

[bridgegirl]

No. There's nothing I could really say, and no real point to doing so, I don't think. It isn't that I don't have things to say - oh, I do - but I don't want to give myself away by saying something too cryptic and getting the cops called on me. No involuntary holds for me, thank you.

Also, I just feel that anything I might say would be inadequate and only serve to confuse whoever was left behind anyway.

 

[Abyssal]

I'm already pretty transparent about my date on here, not so much in real life. I don't know if I'll just document it or say and real goodbyes on here. We will see when the time comes.

 

[兎の耳]

No. I've been told I was being dramatic or told I wasn't trying hard enough that they'll all just find out when it's over.

I'll have some emails set on a dead man's switch to go out a few days after I'm done.

 

[restorekarma2024]

I want to tell the people closest to me and spend more time with them before i decide to go, most people in my life wont know anything until im gone but there's a very small group of people who i can open up to and they probably won't be shocked

 

[Gonnerr]

No goodbye because i will only get pro lifers comments , so i will only leave a note saying;

Tired of life. Goodbye.

 

[no-name9859472882]

Might do a goodbye thread a few days before the event but will probably spend a day woth each of my family members and friends on a one on one hangout before I go just to make peace wirh them all without giving away my intention

 

[kettlevinbarq]

I plan on writing letters to all my family and close friends. I've compiled a list of my login details for everything so if my husband needs to access my stuff he can. I've prepared instructions on how to take care of my pets.

 

[_RustyLeaf321]

Honestly, I feel enough of a coward as is for wanting to ctb despite my family spending all these resources on me for my mental health that I wouldn't even know what to say other than I'm sorry, but that's so lame and can't begin to make up for all the pain I will cause them.

As for friends, I really don't have any at the moment. Most of the ones I used to have I haven't spoken to in years so to get any kind of communication from me would just be weird.

Overall, just curious about what other people intend to do.

My plan is to send a personal letter to my father and my friends,thanking them,etc. The day i ctb,so it'll arrive about 4-5 days later at their houses. Wich also means that when i'll havd send them in the mail box,i'll not be able to backup and if i fail it will just be sad

Sorry for my bad english btw

 

[CloudyNightSky]

I think I want to. For my friends and sister, but it's so exhausting. Idk I can't get myself to start writing.

 

[Yuna is My Waifu]

I might write a note or something but i can't tell them what I'm going to do, it would be too painful plus they would try to stop me.