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Lena

Experienced
Sep 26, 2018
280
They say that cowards commit suicide, but
what about those that want to do it but are too scared to go through with it? Lol. That was me - I feel like real cowardly shit because of it.
 
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Trashcan

Trashcan

Trash
Aug 31, 2018
1,234
No
 
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Angst Filled Fuck Up

Angst Filled Fuck Up

Visionary
Sep 9, 2018
2,971
If you're failing at failing then you're a winner in my book. I'm running with that double negatives thing.
 
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Lady black

Lady black

35 male, central Europe, German speaking
Oct 22, 2018
1,192
I don´t think anybody is a coward that commits suicide. It´s not easy to do it. Survival instinct is big fat pig. And if you are not able to commit suicide you are also not a coward, you are just not ready yet.
 
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Lena

Experienced
Sep 26, 2018
280
I don´t think anybody is a coward that commits suicide. It´s not easy to do it. Survival instinct is big fat pig. And if you are not able to commit suicide you are also not a coward, you are just not ready yet.
I feel as if I am. I decided to try to start living but my self esteem is so low from wanting to give up.
 
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Trashcan

Trashcan

Trash
Aug 31, 2018
1,234

It just means you're human. It's fucking hard to overcome the survival instinct. Being a human doesn't mean you're a coward. The survival instinct is ingrained in us.
 
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Lady black

Lady black

35 male, central Europe, German speaking
Oct 22, 2018
1,192
I feel as if I am. I decided to try to start living but my self esteem is so low from wanting to give up.
You are not a coward. Your fears are just normal. You where nearly dead. Now you start a new life. You would not be a human if you would have no fears
 
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Lena

Experienced
Sep 26, 2018
280
You are not a coward. Your fears are just normal. You where nearly dead. Now you start a new life. You would not be a human if you would have no fears
Thank you. That is so sweet.
 
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Lady black

Lady black

35 male, central Europe, German speaking
Oct 22, 2018
1,192
I wish you good luck with yur new life, hope it will be a happy life soon
 
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VanHeineken

Experienced
Apr 10, 2018
270
No, we are making a honest choice. This world is a fucked up place, and I for one will not be a part of it. This world is evil and most people are assholes. I want to die and forever be gone.
 
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Rocky M

Rocky M

I'm A Monster
Jun 20, 2018
213
We are not cowards. We are doing the best we can with what little we have left, and that to me is wwith really matters. We call ourselves weak (I do it too, I won't try to act like I'm better because I'm not), but we're more brave than those who wouldn't even think about killing themselves. Considering suicide to me is bravery, because we are not afraid to explore a possible solution that unfortunately is not welcome in our twisted society
 
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project77

project77

Member
Sep 22, 2018
20
Yes, i feel like this lot of times. I knew I wanted to die after I finished the things most important for me. But I didnt do it, too much fear. A bit of time after I continued living, I began to feel really alienated. Like my time is up and Im not supposed to be here anymore. I still feel this way very often and Im disappointed about myself for not doing it and instead continue to suffer despite knowing it would happen.
 
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Revok

Revok

Member
Oct 6, 2018
69
People who think suicide is easy are just blissfully ignorant.
 
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08nomore

08nomore

Member
Sep 24, 2018
45
We are not cowards for wanting to ctb. On the other hand if we cant do it even though we keep thinking all day every day about it, then, yes, we are cowards.I know suicide is not an easy thing but lets face the truth, those who have the balls to do it are already dead. Many commits suicide everyday and yet we are still here.
 
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Philip

Specialist
Oct 23, 2018
318
They say that cowards commit suicide, but
what about those that want to do it but are too scared to go through with it? Lol. That was me - I feel like real cowardly shit because of it.
You are not a coward at all. I think fear is a hard thing to overcome
 
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violetskin96

Member
Oct 2, 2018
31
not being able to overcome survival instinct doesn't make you a coward, it makes you human. to continue living everyday with the intense pain and frustration of wanting to die is one of the hardest things i've ever done, in my opinion we are strong even if it's because we feel stuck with no other choice. most people don't wake up every morning and feel this way, they will never know what it's like to live with this constant painful burden.
 
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Final Escape

I’ve been here too long
Jul 8, 2018
4,348
I think people just get overwhelmed and say fuck this. It might be cowardly but at least it's a permanent solution.
 
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Mljonzy

Student
Aug 21, 2018
145
Normal people would never have anywhere near the amount of courage of someone that has killed themselves.
 
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Lra888

Lra888

Enlightened
Sep 30, 2018
1,140
No. It's such an overwhelming task. Plus you only need to do it once so best to prepare and do it right/ get mentally ready etc. That said I certainly wish I had more energy to act- a bit down on myself for that.
 
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BlackDragonof1989

BlackDragonof1989

Mage
Jul 12, 2018
526
I think it's hard to commit suicide and it's hard to go on living, it's just hard in different ways maybe, and as others have said, I also believe a lot who lack empathy about suicide and consider it cowardly have not faced the pain of wanting to die every day or at least have the pain stop, that is they are blissfully ignorant as stated earlier in this thread, or it's a knee-jerk emotional reaction, a byproduct of survival instinct, perhaps ironically enough? Meh I dunno but yeah it's certainly not cowardly to me. I remain much too frightened to suicide, at least yet.
 
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Kev

Kev

Student
Aug 18, 2018
124
I can see how wanting to not live could be considered cowardly in the same way that wanting to run away from a hungry bear is cowardly. It is simply the rational decision to avoid pain and suffering, but rational decisions are not exempt from being "cowardly". The actual act of suicide, however, takes a tremendous amount of courage. In the same analogy, it would be like being cornered by the bear and the only option to get away is by jumping off a cliff in which the bottom is shrouded by a heavy fog and you have no idea what lies behind it: it could be spiky rocks, it could be water, even if it is water you're not sure if the height is low enough to not cause damage -- it's simply an unknown and humans are naturally fearful of the unknown. Either way, you have to overcome some sort of fear: whether it's overcoming the fear of the unknown and jumping off the cliff or overcoming the fear of pain and suffering and continuing to stand your ground and take your chances with the bear. Suicidal depression is a fickle beast; it's like nothing you do feels right -- both options could be considered cowardly and courageous at the same time, and could be considered the ultimate example of being stuck between a rock and a hard place.
 
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ThereIsNoHope

ThereIsNoHope

Member
Aug 13, 2018
15
I think not,we transcend the human instinct
 
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dysfunctional

dysfunctional

Arcanist
Oct 26, 2018
459
Personally I feel like anyone that does it is not a coward. Having wanted to do it for months now, I realize how extreme of an act it is to overcome survival instinct and actually go through with it! I personally feel like a coward for alot of reasons: quitting an awesome job that I had, not working at the moment, not trying harder to come out of my depression, and really not feeling like I can go through with suicide even though I really want my life to end given my current situation.
 
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Lena

Experienced
Sep 26, 2018
280
Personally I feel like anyone that does it is not a coward. Having wanted to do it for months now, I realize how extreme of an act it is to overcome survival instinct and actually go through with it! I personally feel like a coward for alot of reasons: quitting an awesome job that I had, not working at the moment, not trying harder to come out of my depression, and really not feeling like I can go through with suicide even though I really want my life to end given my current situation.
I understand that all too well...
 
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jaemus12

jaemus12

Earth’s Parasite
May 11, 2018
562
Yes. I'm a coward for not being able to suicide.

Suicide is the hardest thing one can do. It's the end of the line. That's far from a "cowards way out"
 
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worldexploder

worldexploder

Visionary
Sep 19, 2018
2,821
I don't think it's cowderly to CTB or to be afraid of it. We got self preservation instincts we must overcome.

I never understood how people can call CTB a cowardly act. It's pretty damn brave if you ask me. I think people label those who want to die as cowards in order to appeal to their egos. Try to guilt trip them. Yeah that would never work for me.
 
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GeorgeEastman

Arcanist
Sep 3, 2018
470
I'm pissed off of how scared I seem to be of every damn thing. Except being dead.

But I don't feel intense pressure to end it myself at the moment. I wish I had a terminal illness. I think that gives me hope. Someday being able to tell people I have cancer. I've done what I can. Time to leave me alone and let me die.

I want to tell them that now. Hell, I actually do tell them that. But they still think I'm young and got years left to live. Shit.
 
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worldexploder

worldexploder

Visionary
Sep 19, 2018
2,821
I'm pissed off of how scared I seem to be of every damn thing. Except being dead.

But I don't feel intense pressure to end it myself at the moment. I wish I had a terminal illness. I think that gives me hope. Someday being able to tell people I have cancer. I've done what I can. Time to leave me alone and let me die.

I want to tell them that now. Hell, I actually do tell them that. But they still think I'm young and got years left to live. Shit.
I had similar thoughts about cancer. I think a diagnoses of that would encourage me to CTB sooner. To hell with chemo therapy.
 
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Arak

Enlightened
Sep 21, 2018
1,176
@Lena ,

Human nature. Often our greatest enemy.
 
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