Venting Are there people in your life that make recovery so much harder?

[traingirl]

I am in the depths of severe depression trying to recover and my dad is nothing but a fucking asshole to me. He bitches when I ask him to take me to my psychiatrist. He bitches that I don't have a job. Motherfucker, I stood in our bathroom with a gun to my mouth just a few weeks ago. Fuck you. I am trying so hard to get better. And this motherfucker doesn't appreciate any of it. They say during antidepressant withdrawal to have a good support system. I don't have SHIT! I am apparently doing this all on my own with no support. He says "I want you off your meds". But then when I exhibit signs of going off my meds it's a fucking problem. Goddamn this is a lonely road when no one is in your corner. Every time he talks like that I start to think maybe I should've just killed myself. My dad is the reason I'm so fucked up anyways. You can't create the monster and then be mad at what you created lmao.

 

[Vlad Tepes]

My literally insane (as in: Mentally disturbed beyond words) parents. To be fair, they are also the only "people" in my "life".

 

[traingirl]

My literally insane (as in: Mentally disturbed beyond words) parents. To be fair, they are also the only "people" in my "life".

My dad is mentally ill too but he'll never admit it. He just disguises his depression by constantly working and drinking alcohol and then acts like he's better than me lmao. He's an asshole who only views me transactionally as in what can I do for him. If I'm too depressed to fix us dinner. I'm a failure. If I'm too depressed to clean the house. I'm a failure.

 

[NormallyNeurotic]

My mom and dad for different reasons.

My dad is the scum of the earth, lower than pond scum (if his morals were literal, he'd have sunk into the ground and reached Hell by now). My mom is a victim of his too, but also dysregulated to the point that our relationship is super toxic currently.