Nolan96

Nolan96

Mage
Feb 12, 2022
506
I don't have many regrets. I look back and don't see much I could have done differently. I'm more often surprised things didn't end up worse and think that by luck or reason I somehow avoided the worst offramps that my fate had to offer.

There are things from the past I'm still so attached to, things most people would move on and stop caring about so quickly, some of them considered by many to be so petty that I'm embarrassed to even admit I care so much about them, but I attained them as much as I ever could have. It all feels futile now, both because they're less attainable now than ever and because it increasingly seems meaningless in the grand scheme of things, but I'm still a bit proud of myself for trying so hard and never fully letting go.

I feel like a ghost who doesn't know anymore what resolution my spirit needs in order to move on.
 
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Weebster

Weebster

Everyone is alone. Everyone is empty.
Mar 11, 2022
1,683
It seems in the end that having gotten what you want in life and having no regrets is really no different from having countless regrets. After death a male porn star is on par with an incel. Both know nothing of having been alive.
 
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Tortured_empath

Tortured_empath

Arcanist
Apr 7, 2019
463
Logically it would just make sense to move foward but Ican't let go of what I shouldn't have done so I think I understand.
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
20,711
Well I have many regrets, but I also know that if given the chance again then I probably still would have fumbled on many of the major mistakes in my life again because they seemed like the better option at the time whether it was due to my own paranoia and/or laziness. I guess in that sense the regrets don't matter but somehow knowing that doesn't make them hurt any less like people keep telling me that's supposed to do…
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
37,172
I do believe that regret can torture us, and it can be painful thinking that we could have done things differently. The way I see it though our lives do not matter at the end of the day and all our problems will die with us. Everything is temporary. Life is very pointless after all.
 
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motel rooms

motel rooms

Survivor of incest. Gay. Please don't PM me.
Apr 13, 2021
7,086
I don't have many regrets. I look back and don't see much I could have done differently. I'm more often surprised things didn't end up worse and think that by luck or reason I somehow avoided the worst offramps that my fate had to offer.

I feel like a ghost who doesn't know anymore what resolution my spirit needs in order to move on.

Waking to these sounds again
I wonder how I'll sleep
Passing out is taking off into the stubborn deep
I'd like to meet a human who makes it all seem clear
To work out all these cycles and why I'm standing here
I'm falling over and over again now
Calling over and over again now

Running through my life right now
I don't regret a thing
The things I do just make me laugh and make me wanna drink
I'd like to meet a madman who makes it all seem sane
To work out all these troubles and what there is to gain
I'm falling over and over again now
Calling over and over again now...



(I'm sorry, I can't seem to shut up :shy: )
 
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OldDrummer

Arcanist
Feb 4, 2022
435
Regrets? I've had a few, but then again, too few to mention.

But seriously. At my age I feel like I played a good game with the relatively weak hand I was given.

Sure I could have been a better friend, lover, father, husband, but hindsight is always 20/20 and at least I learnt from my mistakes.

At the end of the day, I think that I gave it my best shot with what ever knowledge I had at the time.
 
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Disappointered

Disappointered

Enlightened
Sep 21, 2020
1,284
I guess the best outlook to have is that they don't matter as once you're dead you and your memories won't exist.

Of course, like all losers I nevertheless have many. Since they're the product of my disempowerment I don't regret them with the full sense of having badly exercised my free will but they still feel like regrets. Most revolve around weakness and cowardice that either led to bad character or more commonly, abject failure at rising to a challenge. I have serious regrets about not being able to provide assistance to the most important human in my life due to my weakness and inferiorities. But one of the biggest regrets I have is also that I forged intense emotions with another human - even if they included some artifice - that ended up being spoiled and consequently disavowed, repudiated by the other human. Since then the memories and associated emotions hover in my broken timeline like an unnatural internal appendage. They required a connection with another human in order to exist and yet they further accentuate the loneliness of my history and haunt me in a way that regular feelings of loneliness would not be able to achieve. I never expected that. For some reason I didn't even consider it. It's in the past but still bothers me now and then, when I'm not feeling bad about bringing my only friend into my downward spiral. I wish they could be my friend without being contaminated by my various diseases.
 
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come to dust

Arcanist
Oct 28, 2019
454
Biggest regret is not killing myself earlier. But I'm cowardly
 
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Tristan

Tristan

Don’t cry for me, I’m already dead.
Mar 21, 2022
252
I regret not telling enough people to shut up.
 
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