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Susannah

Susannah

Mage
Jul 2, 2018
530
Do any of you have something good in your life that makes you feel less sad? Moments, people or hobbies, anything?
Mine are:
1.My son
2.Music
3.Boxing
4. Tai Chi (boring to practice, but good moments).
 
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jaemus12

jaemus12

Earth’s Parasite
May 11, 2018
562
I guess I do.
1. I have a close family.
2. Drawing & coloring.
3. Random writing
4. McDonalds or pizza

I feel really guilty to be enjoying things nowadays though. I feel guilty around my family because I am a waste of time and resources. I feel guilty when I draw, write or relax because I feel like shouldn't be here and I should stop wasting time.

McDonalds or pizza always hit the spot though.
 
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Wantingpeace

Wantingpeace

Wizard
Aug 16, 2018
672
I live in beautiful place in nice apartment with good family just in tortured hell that these things don't make difference. I can get a little something from coffee and food but still.
 
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+ + + +

Member
May 30, 2018
48
A friend, and that's all.
 
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C

CRM

Idiot
Jul 13, 2018
190
I'd probably be long dead without video games and the internet to numb myself with.
 
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throwaway123

throwaway123

Hell0
Aug 5, 2018
1,446
No, unfortunately not.
 
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AutreTemps

Member
Oct 2, 2018
11
Listening to music (David Maxim Micic, Starsystems, Plini, Pink Floyd, Alcest, Architects, Sylosis, Mark Knofler, John Butler... For those who wants to discover great stuff (: ) and writing some (my goal was to release an EP and i'm not so far of finishing it but i have no motivation now and it will stay unreleased for ever as i'm gonna ctb) are a big part of my life.
Also i have a bunch of friends and a family who loves me, and i don't think i ever lived some kind of abuse so honestly i don't have a lot to complain about
Still all these are not enough for me to appreciate life when i'm depressed, how ironic is that ahah
 
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VincentValentine

VincentValentine

Student
Sep 27, 2018
145
Do any of you have something good in your life that makes you feel less sad? Moments, people or hobbies, anything?
Mine are:
1.My son
2.Music
3.Boxing
4. Tai Chi (boring to practice, but good moments).

Mine are similar to yours. Music and MMA.
 
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DreamFreedom

DreamFreedom

Thane
Oct 3, 2018
68
My animal friends. They're basically the only thing I'd be upset about leaving behind. All of their individual personalities and quirks. They make me content just sitting outside with them, watching them fall asleep by my feet is the cutest. They have honestly brought me so much sunshine.
:happy:
 
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ctoan

ctoan

Arcanist
Sep 30, 2018
437
1. cocaine

2. weed

3. alcohol

4. kfc

5. nightsessions in the gym

5. my neighbor who brings me groceries for whatever reason
 
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popo

popo

Member
Jul 12, 2018
47
1. My family

2. Cool friends

3. PC and tech stuffs

4. My dream of being a teacher
 
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blueming

blueming

if we can stand outside the borders of time
Sep 21, 2018
253
Music <3
 
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Niko

Niko

Student
Oct 4, 2018
112
i'd say my family. I'm truly blessed to have them and i feel so guilty for being, or at least feeling like, a fuck up all the time. they deserve better, but i also know they'd be crushed if i were to disappear on them.
 
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ChaosDergon

ChaosDergon

Dreaming of my suicide
Sep 25, 2018
21
Basically just one good friend; he has stuck around since high school. He is one of the most non judgemental people I have ever known. And is the main person I worry about if I ever decide to finally ctb. He had close family members die by suicide, and I know I am also one of his few friends. He is quite the loner and lives in a fairly rural area. Only really get to talk online nowadays and occasionally play games when internet is not being a bitch. Other then him there is nothing particularly good; most everything else I have either neutral or negative feelings about. Which is probably why I consider ctb; its all just meh or shit.
 
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lostinthedream

lostinthedream

Warlock
Sep 2, 2018
754
Family... Food... This website and everyone drawn here.. music.. and access to the collective wisdom of humanity.. so yeah, I'm feeling a little better tonight..
 
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Virgo

Arcanist
Oct 3, 2018
497
Music
tv
youtube
food
video games
free-diving
advancements in technology.
 
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T

Time2Go?

Member
Oct 3, 2018
14
My granddaughter. She truly brings me joy. I am contemplating ctb right now, no firm decision made. She is one of the reasons. I know if someone knows a person who does, it makes it easier for them to do it. She just turned two, and I can't imagine her growing older and being in her teens and saying, "Life sucks! Grandma offed herself, I'm going to too."

Mattie
 
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G

GeorgeEastman

Arcanist
Sep 3, 2018
470
Watching sports, but the older I get the more I'm realizing what an idiotic distraction they are.

How pointless are sports? Almost as pointless as life. Sometimes I go to games and think of jumping off the stadium, but the wall's always too high or I'm afraid I might fall on a little kid or something.
 
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J

just tired

Member
Oct 4, 2018
13
Video games, music, movies, anime, youtube... time wasters
This glimmer of hope which is an online business I want to start
A few family members who care but I can't express myself to them
This bi-weekly movie meetup I go to which is my sole social outlet... but I didn't go tonight because I'm just too depressed
A few online places to go talk to people but they all just make me wish I had IRL friends...

I feel like all my positives come with caveats... but at least they're something
 
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I

itsallover

Arcanist
Jun 29, 2018
478
Just the fact that I'm not homeless and have my basic necessities. I lost interest in everything else. I used to enjoy sports movies music and even working a lot. It means a lot to feel like a productive member of society. Being on disability and just surviving absolutely sucks.
 
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S

Schopenhauer

Enlightened
Oct 3, 2018
1,133
My dogs, good food, books, video games. If I could isolate myself from the world, and still have this stuff, maybe I wouldn't have to kill myself.
 
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itsallover

Arcanist
Jun 29, 2018
478
Watching sports, but the older I get the more I'm realizing what an idiotic distraction they are.

How pointless are sports? Almost as pointless as life. Sometimes I go to games and think of jumping off the stadium, but the wall's always too high or I'm afraid I might fall on a little kid or something.
I had all this time on my hands so I went to a bunch of cheap games and now I don't even wanna watch it on tv cause I realized how monotonous it is. Only thing really interesting is the cagefighting cause they hype it up so much but I'm not paying ppv
 
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Fucking loving it

Fucking loving it

Specialist
Sep 3, 2018
378
My son
 
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samsays89

Student
Oct 4, 2018
139
My dog. The way she looks out the window with puppy eyes every time I leave for work or whatever might be the only thing holding me back.
 
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BaconCheeseburger

BaconCheeseburger

Comfort-eating
Aug 4, 2018
693
I regularly go to events organised on a website to help people make friends and meet new people, and I always have a good time at them. For a couple of hours I can just chat shit and not have to worry about what's going on with the rest of my life.
 
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tothemetalsickness

tothemetalsickness

World of Warcraft gamer
Oct 4, 2018
67
Music, World of Warcraft, family members, and cats.
 
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ignominia

ignominia

O Rose thou art sick.
Oct 6, 2018
93
My cats, art, Dostoevsky, Godard, Wagner, Saint John of the Cross, cinema, books, music. The same things that makes me wanna leave of this corrupted world
 
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