amnotreal
Student
- Oct 20, 2019
- 137
i am afraid to order sn because my spouse usually gets the mail and opens things in order to make it easier to carry to the house. i know painful methods I could do. I really can't cope with stress and with current events with covid and living in california with fire everyplace and so much more I just need to figure out a way out a permanent way out of this life. my home is very small and hiding stuff is difficult. i have a small amount of Amitriptyline and next month can get what seems like kinda a lot of ketamine prescribed as nasal spray but it takes so much to od. i have other prescription stuff. the thought of waking up in a psych ward and of my husbands anger of i attempt and don''t succeed is just i don't want to risk failure but sn is hard to get in this living situation too.