Anyones ctb plans disrupted by covid?

[StateOfMind]

This.

 

[Nelos]

The only thing interrupting it is my own cowardice.

 

[Ready2GoNow]

The only thing interrupting it is my own cowardice.

Same. Wish I had the guts to just hang myself right now. Instead I'm prolonging my suffering waiting for SN to arrive.

 

[L I F E T O L O S E]

wanted to have covid and die

 

[YellowSneakers]

Covid has actually helped me keep going these past few months. I was diagnosed with a progressive neurological disorder shortly before lockdowns were implemented.
The thought of being trapped & left behind by my disability was slightly eased by the fact that the world came to a screeching halt.
That everything is slowly opening back up has made my feelings of uselessness resurface.

 

[Ghost2211]

Covid has probably helped keep me going since the kids are home for 7 months non stop now. I don't have as much time to be alone and focus on what makes me sad.

 

[ItsOverIsntIt]

Not really, honestly covid made me want to ctb way more than I did before. Its ruining everything and I just want it to be gone. I live in the US and I hate it so much over here. everyone fucking sucks

 

[KiraComplex]

wanted to have covid and die

dying from it is difficult, unless youre 80 or have extreme (and i mean EXTREME) respiratory issues, youll recover. and itll be *painful*

 

[Nelos]

dying from it is difficult, unless youre 80 or have extreme (and i mean EXTREME) respiratory issues, youll recover. and itll be *painful*

Yeah having it supposedly is extremely painful.

 

[throwaway123]

The only thing interrupting it is my own cowardice.

I can relate to that so hard.

 

[Lawliet]

I just think about less people being able to mourn for me at my funeral and that kind of sucks

 

[DyingAlf]

Yes

 

[RC90]

I've been caught on my last 2 suicide attempts cause I decided to say goodbye to some close friends. I'll never do that again.

 

[PJFord]

COVID has helped actually. It gave me an excuse to leave a job that was zapping my energy and spirit. It's allowed me to pack up my apartment and downsize stuff with no suspicion since friends aren't coming over. The sadness, anxiety and confusion everyone is feeling has helped me hide my own emotions. The only bummer is I wanted to travel to a few favorite spots like Puerto Vallerta, NYC, Hawaii, one last time, but that won't happen.

 

[Deleted member 1768]

This.

Big time.

 

[melancholy_lily]

Not really, honestly covid made me want to ctb way more than I did before. Its ruining everything and I just want it to be gone. I live in the US and I hate it so much over here. everyone fucking sucks

Same. I never made actual ctb plans until the government shutdown, everything about this year is horrible covid is just one of them. As an American I don't see good things in our future and I want out.

 

[LonelyNick]

It's ruining my life, a simple surgery that would make my pain end has been pushed in a year. They expect me to be in pain and suffering for a full year!!?!