Discussion Anyone wish like they had cancer?

[brxy7]

This is probably an ignorant post but regardless. It is pretty depressing cancer victims are usually those who wish they could have it cured the most. I have a huge line of people that had cancer in my family all of which wishes they could live. I would gladly take it upon myself from a person who instead would wish to live. It would be much more peaceful to die from a natural cause like that. I guess I'm posting this to hear your guys' thoughts.

 

[𝑪𝒉𝒐𝒄𝒐𝒉𝒐𝒍𝒊𝒄]

my deepest-loved grandmother had cancer. but she really didnt deserve that unfair fate! i actually wished i could take over her disease.

 

[ollo]

No

 

[whywere]

HELL NO!!! I had gall bladder cancer in 2014 and all the chemo afterwards and I would NEVER EVER wish it upon anyone ever.

Walter

 

[wondering&wandering]

I mean, it's very noble and kind of you to want to take on another's cancer, but cancer can be absolutely brutal. Like most any other sickness to your body, your body will try to fight to survive and the time in between your diagnosis and your death will be hard on you and those around you. I don't think it's a peaceful way to go out (both generally speaking and from what I've seen).

 

[divinemistress36]

Only if it's terminal cancer then I'd want it then i go get euthanasia. Sounds terrible I know but I'm totally hopeless

 

[rozeske]

NO. Euthanasia is not a thing where I am from and it would just mean a very slow and very agonizing death. I wish to have an easily accessible and fairly painless exit method but not cancer.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

It's okay. You're not the first person to have that thought and won't be the last.

 

[Gonnerr]

Yes , i want terminal cancer please , spending my money on a few trips than go away peacefully with assisted suicide.

 

[brxy7]

I mean, it's very noble and kind of you to want to take on another's cancer, but cancer can be absolutely brutal. Like most any other sickness to your body, your body will try to fight to survive and the time in between your diagnosis and your death will be hard on you and those around you. I don't think it's a peaceful way to go out (both generally speaking and from what I've seen).

It wouldn't be very hard on people around me. But for myself I understand it would be painful. Perhaps it's a bit of a personal thing. I would choose a painful death like that if it meant I didn't have to physically do it myself

 

[wondering&wandering]

It wouldn't be very hard on people around me.

I beg to differ. When someone dies slowly and painfully in front of you it 100% effects them. Life gets hard having to care for a dying person too. I mean, it's possible those around you are the most callous human beings on the planet, but I don't think that's the case (unless that's what you're saying). Death has a funny way of causing other people to contemplate their own mortality. It tends to be hard on people who surround the dying person.

But for myself I understand it would be painful. Perhaps it's a bit of a personal thing. I would choose a painful death like that if it meant I didn't have to physically do it myself

Well, to each their own. But I'm almost certain no one wants to live an agonizing last few months of their life just to escape from having to end it themselves. I mean, I suppose it depends on the cancer, but let's pretend you don't happen to get one that gives you a quick death.

 

[CemeteryPet]

100%.

To preface, I don't ever get sick. I haven't had the flu since I was little. Hell, I haven't even had a cold, my immune system is like no other. And so I live in sort of a bubble when it comes to diseases. I'm probably pretty delusional, just because I don't know better.

That said. I romanticize diseases. In my head, dying from a illness has a classic, poetic image to it. You lie in bed, only half conscious, knowingly sick, then just pass on. It's beautiful. In reality, people lie in bed looking hideous, maybe vomiting their lungs out and writhing in pain. I know that. I'm aware. And yet, I would love to go out that way. I wanna feel myself fading away, I wanna experience it over time. I want my body to rot away because I feel like it's what it deserves. I hate it.

Now cancer... It's probably the holy grail. People are afraid to even say the name of this disease out loud, they just call it "The Big C." I'd love it.

With THAT being said, I may actually have cancer. This may be my own wishful thinking, but for a while now I've been experiencing a list of unexplainable symptoms or symptoms I had originally related to something else. Never connected together until recently. There was a certain smoking gun that had led me to start doing my research, and the more I find out the more symptoms I dust off from the archive in my brain. Suddenly it all makes sense. It all falls into place. When new symptoms appear I hit research again and find that the type of cancer I'm suspecting is one of the possible causes and/or it's a possible symptom of cancer in general. Every time. And so, the more I find the smaller the chances become that it's all a big coincidence. That I have like a 100 different issues at once, none of them is cancer.

I can't help but assume that if I do end up having cancer, I did it to myself. I wanted it. I asked for it. The thought of it makes me smirk. I've finally achieved something in life!

So what now? Well, as I'm writing this I'm dealing with the most recent new symptom. Just started yesterday. Which, like I mentioned, turns out that alongside other non-cancer possibilities, only certain types of cancer might cause it. And on that very short list, of course, is the type of cancer I'm suspecting. So now I'm just waiting. Waiting to see if things become more clear. Better or worse. If more masses appear. More symptoms. I'm not gonna get tested, I have no desire to get treated anyway, then why bother. Besides, I'm afraid to find out that I'm not sick. While I'm curious, I don't wanna know if I have something that's NOT gonna kill me. Cancer would be my golden ticket outta here. I wouldn't have to take the risk of attempting to CTB. Not to mention no one would bat an eye. I can't wait.

So far whatever I'm experiencing is not so bad. As opposed to the common misconception, it's not always painful. It's the treatment (chemotherapy and surgery) that's a bitch. I don't understand why anyone would go through with it. You suffer only to prolong your life? Just to die eventually anyway? Never made sense to me. Anyway, I'm okay with some pain if it means ending my life. I'd take it. It's romantic!

 

[onetimereject]

Terminal cancer would mean that i'll have my rights to die, but euthanasia is not a thing here and i'll just be an even larger moneysink for my family.

So i guess it's a no for me, the cons largely overthrows the pros.

 

[leavingthesoultrap]

No dying like that is horrific

 

[nner]

That would be awesome for me. It would be nice for the family in order to accept better an overcomed illness than a suicide.
Anyway, if it's detected at early stages, it would be very difficult to explain that I wouldn't want any treatment. So I don't know.

 

[FuneralCry]

To me it's really understandable wishing for that, those with the knowledge that they will soon be free from this existence are fortunate to me. But still I only truly envy those who no longer exist as they lack the ability to suffer, I see it as a curse to exist.

 

[sserafim]

Yeah I wish I had cancer or another terminal illness so I could qualify for VAD. I'm manifesting for myself to get cancer but sadly I don't think that it's working…

 

[throneofdispair03]

I live in canada, so I think I can get accepted by MAID if I had an illness like that. So, I guess?

 

[Final_Choice]

Yes, but only because it's one of the very few deaths which I feel like the people close to me will understand and won't be as hurt compared to CTBing. I'm willing to go through more pain and get cancer if that's the case.