_Minsk

_Minsk

death: the cure for life
Dec 9, 2019
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im not sure if someone can relate but i've noticed that my mind switches to this weird obsessed with negative thinking mode..
im not sure what triggers it, it happens out of the blue, all of a sudden i can't even watch my favorite series or movies, there's always something which disturbs me then. my mind pops up with stuff i dont like, its weird, the best analogy to this i could give is like this; you start browsing and you just want to do your thing, but there is always popping up some annoying popups which in this case are some negative thoughts..
im not actively thinking but my mind seems to be on some sort of auto pilot. i would love to be able to ignore these thoughts but they hurt, like some stuff i want to forget about x3
the thing is, i try to meditate at times to have somewhat of a control over it but im fairly new to this, maybe i should meditate more frequently, i wonder if some can relate or even have some practical advice:)

since the last 2 years i try to be mindful about what thoughts i think, i try to reduce negative thinking since a few months now, but at times it feels like the only thing which gives me a kind of distraction:/

thanks for reading, hope this post isn't too confusing, i tried my best x3
 
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Nolye

Nolye

The hardest battles are fought in the mind.
May 3, 2020
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Absolutely, and it's so damn annoying. I already have so much trouble concentrating on... anything, really, but when this happens? Might as well just drop what I'm doing, because I'm getting nothing done anyway.

I'm happy meditation helps you. Have you also tried mindfulness exercises? I heard those can be helpful as well. I'm sorry I can't give you an actual advice, I'm still trying to figure it out myself, though it's not easy.

Oh, and I love your analogy between these thoughts and the pop-ups, by the way, it's spot on!
 
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May 18, 2020
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Yes definitely, it's awful up to the point that a couple of doctors have diagnosed me with OCD but purely obsessive thoughts not compulsions, I wonder if anyone else has the same thing? I'm always picturing the worst case scenario will occur, ruminating about "what if...". It's exhausting and sometimes I can't even focus on anything, can't even watch a movie or anything, when its that bad the only time when I'm able to find peace its when i'm In deep non rem sleep, cause even in my dreams the bad thoughts appear. It gives me panic attacks and severe anxiety. I've tried meditation and sleep hypnosis, its somewhat helpful sometimes, I understand perfectly what you are saying about how it only feels like a distraction, and nothing else cause the problem is still there, its beyond frustrating, to have to live with an enemy 24/7.
 
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mittensxx

mittensxx

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Nov 12, 2019
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Yes you're definitely not alone in that. I've tried to explain it to my therapist by saying that my brain is addicted to negative thoughts. I literally can't come up with a positive solution, ever.
I have tried meditation before and it sort of works but I usually can't be bothered to do it (or am not able to for example in work).
Sorry I couldn't be any help either, still trying to figure it out myself :/
 
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May 14, 2020
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Veo que no soy el único con esa forma de ser, trato de evitarlo, pero no puedo.
Veo que no soy el único con esa forma de ser, trato de evitarlo, pero no puedo.

I see that I'm not the only one with that way of being, I try to avoid it, but I can't.
 
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Cashewmilk

Cashewmilk

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Mar 10, 2020
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I'm not sure if I'm talking about the same thing, but I have something that's super irritating it's been happening to me since I was a kid and I thought it was normal. It's always a negative thought like something bloody, painful, disgusting, scary, etc. Sometimes it'll pop into my head, and I don't want to think about it anymore but it will just stay in my mind, it takes a lot of power to get rid of it, relaxation like moving onto a new subject and trying to forget, talking to others, etc. For example, anytime a documentary or a show talks about female genital mutilation or labiaplasty, I would always get that picture in my mind, of my genitals being sliced, it just wouldn't leave my mind and it was painful and I had to do something quickly to remove it from my mind (I've never gotten that done or had that done to me). Other things like vomit, or disgusting gross smelly things, if it pops into my head, it'll just stay there, no matter how much I want it to stop, my mind does the opposite! I don't know why, but it's so annoying because it just proves that I have no control over my own mind (and maybe humans just don't in general).

I'm not sure if that's what you meant...but there's another negative thought process, like more social and philosophical, I don't know but I'm always a negative, pessimistic person. I call myself a realist, and if something warrants a positive reaction I will give it. But most things in life are usually negative so I think that's okay. It only gets bad when you start harping on your looks or other people's looks, because that stuff is so pathetic and insignificant in the grand scheme of things.
 

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