Anyone remembers past toxic stuff like it happened yesterday?

[Life sucks]

Hi,
Does anyone remembers the toxic incidents and abuse others done to you like it happened yesterday? I still remember many things through my whole life even if its 10+ years, I can remember clearly the abuse and how shitty other humans are.

I still remembers clearly the corporate abuse and shit that happened years ago and it looks like it happened yesterday.

Its strange how people say one should forget because it happened long time ago, and be astonished when I tell them I clearly remember the abuse and hate the offenders to this day.

Toxic pieces of shit leave their bruises on us. I wish I was never existed with these creatures.

 

[Life sucks]

I remember and be angry on this past incidents. I don't know why I even remember them and remember the shitty life and people.

 

[throwaway777]

https://www.depressioncomix.com/posts/412/ ));

 

[Mr2005]

Me. I remember these things like they were yesterday. My theory on why is because we think about it every day which keeps it so fresh in our minds. When we think back it feels like yesterday because it was when we last thought about it. Other memories of lesser importance fade and if my memory 's jogged about something long forgotten then I really feel the passage of time even if it's more recent than what feels like yesterday. I'm sorry others did you wrong, in my case it's me whose at fault

 

[Miss clefable]

Yes I can I have photographic memory

 

[Nem]

I think it depends on how we are feeling. If we're feeling good then won't think of toxic situations, I have those feelings now and also regrets on the past which got me in this situation. Holy crap are things ever bad right now, I'm barely hanging on...

 

[Schopenhauer]

My brain makes a point of having me remember all the bad stuff that happened to me, the embarrassments, and also the people I've wronged. Whoever designed humans is a bastard.

 

[Going Home]

It's hard to forget when people isolate and gaslight you then remind you how screwed up you are. It's really hard to forget when they say its in God's hands now because I can't fix you, or whatever.
Feels just like it happened yesterday.

 

[undertherainbow]

Yes, I remember all of it, right down to smells and physical feeling. It drives me crazy. I sometimes pick out a color that I see and try to spell it backwards to clear my mind.

 

[Circles]

It's hard to forget the smell of blood and tears.

 

[undertherainbow]

It's hard to forget the smell of blood and tears.

I smell blood way too often. Why do you smell blood if you don't mind me asking?

 

[Circles]

I smell blood way too often. Why do you smell blood if you don't mind me asking?

Got into a car crash with my friend. He was driving and a semi truck swerved in our lane and literally crushed him to death. Still tremor from the shock. The smell of iron, salt and burnt metal will never leave. There are other incidents but that one will haunt me until I kill myself.

 

[undertherainbow]

Got into a car crash with my friend. He was driving and a semi truck swerved in our lane and literally crushed him to death. Still tremor from the shock. The smell of iron, salt and burnt metal will never leave. There are other incidents but that one will haunt me until I kill myself.

I'm sorry. I understand <3

 

[Circles]

I'm sorry. I understand <3

It's alright man I appreciate the kind words. The only thing about it is he was the closest of a 'friend' I ever had with another human being and even at that we were just as distant. I hate myself for not telling him thank you for being the only friend I had. Good times never last.

 

[millefeui]

I try not to, but it doesn't always work, of course...

 

[wiIIow]

for how shitty my memory is otherwise, I do remember insane details about traumatic events. Can't remember anything else surrounding those events, or the memories I do still have feel like they're not my own. My whole timeline and sequence of events is so fucked up. But the things I don't want to remember - smells, sounds, microscopic insignificant details - I will never be able to forget.

 

[BaconCheeseburger]

School and uni are as vivid in my mind as ever. Uni makes sense because I graduated 2 years ago, but school was even longer back yet it still finds ways to drag me down.

 

[Living_Ghost]

I am tortured with thoughts and memories all day every day. Most of my present thoughts are about suicide methods.

 

[Tragoedia Vitae]

It would be fantastic if I could actually forget all the things which have happened to me. Unfortunately, I can't. That's because my mind simply won't allow me to forget. Sad and painful memories constantly haunt me in the form of intrusive thoughts which never fail to blight even my happier days. People who can actually forget---oh, how I envy them!

If only I couldn't think! Then I wouldn't remember. But I can, and I do. My mind is gradually becoming fossilized from all this obsessive remembrance, and I loathe every minute of it. My mind is no longer my own---why keep on living then?

 

[Taylored]

I remember every single little detail from years back even if It was brief conversation I remember It. It's absolute torture.

 

[ParamitePie]

Surprisingly, not really. It's all pretty vague, except for really unconnected incidents, like the one time a classmate burst into tears and said I was bullying him, despite the fact I had never talked to him, or about him to anyone. There was also that one time a skinhead chased me across a busy street with a rusty syringe he picked up on the sidewalk when I was walking home from school. I still have no idea what that was about. Or that one time a homeless man threatened to attack me with a box cutter for not having cigarettes on me. Or that one time some girl tried to get her boyfriend to beat me up while I was walking home. A whole load of strange incidents, but none of them really contributed to my mental state.

 

[Miro]

I remember a lot of it and, occasionally, I newly remember something else.

 

[Lra888]

Hi,
Does anyone remembers the toxic incidents and abuse others done to you like it happened yesterday? I still remember many things through my whole life even if its 10+ years, I can remember clearly the abuse and how shitty other humans are.

I still remembers clearly the corporate abuse and shit that happened years ago and it looks like it happened yesterday.

Its strange how people say one should forget because it happened long time ago, and be astonished when I tell them I clearly remember the abuse and hate the offenders to this day.

Toxic pieces of shit leave their bruises on us. I wish I was never existed with these creatures.

Yes. Especialy if the incidents and their aftermath still effect me.

 

[Trashcan]

Sometimes. I've mostly suppressed painful memories. But sometimes I think back to embarrassing moments and cringe. It has kept me up at night a few times.

But most of my thoughts are revolves around suicide. I think a lot about my method, preparation, making sure I don't get found in time, et . And then I also think a lot about other people who died, and envy the ones who were lucky enough to die young.