_Minsk
death: the cure for life
- Dec 9, 2019
- 1,109
im kinda obsessed with it and it drives me nuts, but i don't want to give up on it. if something doesn't go that way, i want to restart or redo stuff, including this life
Used to be. Maybe I still am subconsciously.
Ultimately it's a waste of time.
Ultimately it's a waste of time.
Superdeterminist
Enlightened
- Apr 5, 2020
- 1,877
I obsess over it and sometimes it seems like it's the driving force behind all of my misery. Some people are content with flaws and different people are content with different amounts of it. But why do we have to suffer any flaws at all? That's what I really want to know.
Brick In The Wall
2M Or Not 2B.
- Oct 30, 2019
- 25,158
With any of my hobbies I'm very much obsessed with it. With anything else not so much.
Deleted member 18655
Enlightened
- Jun 4, 2020
- 1,422
Yes. But I'm an all-or-nothing person. With everything: work, projects, my routine, my body/diet. Either I aim for perfection and work until it happens (which it never does) or I give up on everything and get in a slump. The best analogy is my eating; it represents how I approach everything in life - like an anorexic or a bulimic. There is no in-between. 
Yes. But I'm an all-or-nothing person. With everything: work, projects, my routine, my body/diet. Either I aim for perfection and work until it happens (which it never does) or I give up on everything and get in a slump. The best analogy is my eating; it represents how I approach everything in life - like an anorexic or a bulimic. There is no in-between.
Same here. This is part of my personality disorder. It's called "splitting" aka black or white thinking, all or nothing, etc.
This kind of thinking has fucked my life up greatly and is part of why I am here.
Deleted member 18655
Enlightened
- Jun 4, 2020
- 1,422
It's hell, isn't it?
Splitting. That's funny - I was diagnosed with DID and my fragments are very distinct. I think, for me, it's a reaction to sh*t I was put through as a young child. I can't find a middle ground on anything. It makes for a very lonely life, bouncing around so much and not staying put, accepting life as it is. I'm writing this with my Running Shoes on. I'm running for the bus this time though.
Zyntkalla
Welcome to hell on Earth
- Aug 28, 2020
- 85
