As I've been getting closer to the date when I'm going to ctb I've been feeling more and more nervous. It's not a worry about anything in particular, there's just this knot in my stomach that won't untie itself no matter what. My heart feels like it's racing when I'm just laying there in bed. I know there's no reason to worry, even if I fail there'll be more chances down the line but that feeling refuses to go away. I did not expect this, I'd heard people feel relief and happiness and stuff when they have a way out. Does/has anyone else feel/felt like this?
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