ClownMe
Don't Cry for Me, I'm Already Dead
- Apr 7, 2021
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Have any of you planned, or plan on mapping out what your last few days will look like? Im not going to ctb for at least a few years yet but im starting to think about how i want to spend my final days, the things i wanna do and what my last meal will be, etc etc.
Im thinking that im going to stay in a nice little hotel for about a week (which is where i will ultimately ctb once i come to the end of my stay there), this means that nobody that I know will find my body and I will have privacy and time to reflect. I was thinking that I would plan the hotel stay so that my stay culminated on New Year's Day, im an Australian and ive always loved watching the Sydney NYE fireworks on the TV, I guess it would also make my suicide feel less sad and more of a celebratory thing in a way, which is what I want it to be, death shouldnt be a sad thing in my opinion, its the moment that sets you free. For my last meal Im pretty sure i will go with hotcakes, a few hash browns and a hot chocolate from McDonald's (a favourite of mine) and some of the things I want to do days before my death are having sex with an escort/prostitute (assuming im still a virgin) and trying alcohol, which im too scared to do because my parents are both alcoholics, im trying to think of some others i could do. I really wanna do things that i wouldnt normally do in my last days on earth and experience aspects of life that i havent experienced before.
What about you guys?
Im thinking that im going to stay in a nice little hotel for about a week (which is where i will ultimately ctb once i come to the end of my stay there), this means that nobody that I know will find my body and I will have privacy and time to reflect. I was thinking that I would plan the hotel stay so that my stay culminated on New Year's Day, im an Australian and ive always loved watching the Sydney NYE fireworks on the TV, I guess it would also make my suicide feel less sad and more of a celebratory thing in a way, which is what I want it to be, death shouldnt be a sad thing in my opinion, its the moment that sets you free. For my last meal Im pretty sure i will go with hotcakes, a few hash browns and a hot chocolate from McDonald's (a favourite of mine) and some of the things I want to do days before my death are having sex with an escort/prostitute (assuming im still a virgin) and trying alcohol, which im too scared to do because my parents are both alcoholics, im trying to think of some others i could do. I really wanna do things that i wouldnt normally do in my last days on earth and experience aspects of life that i havent experienced before.
What about you guys?