Venting Anyone here who only has online friends?

[30yenotoko]

Meeting new people irl seems to be impossible for me. The only friends I have are the ones I've met online and in the past decade I've been close to two people who I can call my best friends, but now that I'm nearing the date where I ctb I'm regretting not ever meeting my best friends irl. They're both from Japan and I can't really travel overseas right now and I haven't told them about my suicidal tendencies and the stuff I deal with, I feel like if I've ever told them they'd feel responsible for not helping me if I ever ctb. I don't think anything or anyone could change my mind about ctbing so telling them would just make things awkward.




Thanks for reading I just wanted to vent somewhere haha.

 

[Suicidebydeath]

Yes, me. I'm pretty isolated. I do still have contact with people from school/college/uni but it's online.

 

[S like suicide]

Friends?
What are they?lol
I do have people with i chat to online but i don't know if i can say they are really true friends

 

[PleaseTakeMeAway]

I have a small online friend group that I planned to meet, but I'd never make it I'm sure. We hardly talk that much anyways. I've got one friend online who I consistently talk to though I guess.

 

[KuriGohan&Kamehameha]

I only talk to 3 people, all online. Bf who is fed up with me, my best friend who doesn't respond most of the time, and one person from here. I have no other human connections, and despite trying my damnest, I never fit in anywhere. Even in online groups for autistic people, I'm too autistic for them.

 

[hamvil]

No friends anymore nor in real life nor online. I always tend to push away people because i have difficulties understanding what people means. I suck at non verbal clue and I do not get sarcasm or irony, the result is that I get angry and escalate things. In any case I am not terribly interesting as a person. I am rather dull with niche interests.

 

[Sakura94]

I have zero on or offline

 

[MelancholyMagic]

Bf who is fed up with me

If you want to share, did you meet the bf online? Or did you meet them in real life, but currently only talk online?

 

[hungry_ghost]

I am pretty much a full-blown recluse, so yes, any people I talk to are exclusively online right now.

In a way, I don't mind it, because the people I've talk to online have always been far more interesting than anyone I've met IRL.

It's obviously just a shame that distance is an inhibitor to real connection.

 

[WhatPowerIs]

Me. It's far easier than making friends IRL.

 

[onlyanimalsaregood]

I think right now I don't have any friend, online or irl :(

 

[achromatic]

I don't have any friends - I don't even chat with anyone online. I dunno why but talking/texting online is just as scary for me if not more -maybe it's because I can see and reflect on stupid shit I wrote. It's absolutly crazy how you can live life without a contact with a single person.

 

[outatime_85]

I was never able to build strong bonds with anyone; thus, no one in real life or online has ever considered me a friend.

So, I don't have any real-life or online friends.

That said, having lived without true contact from other people for a very long time, I have my moments where I yearn for it.

But I am coming to the realization that because I am unable to build bonds, it is something I will never experience.

So, I accept a life as a "Ronin" (adrift), unable to fit into or live in today's society.

 

[lofticries]

Bruh, I don't even have that.

I used to have one recently but I fucked all that up.

 

[Rocinante]

Brutal thread for me. Yes, all my friendships exist solely online. I have 5 frens, well 4 now due to my behavior.

 

[Life_and_Death]

yeah well thats what happens when you dont feel like you cant go out

 

[Lupgevif]

All my friends were "presential" before I changed courses and consequently cities, now we only talk online. Does that count?

 

[Message In A Bottle]

I have kinda sorta "friends" from highschool, but they are the kind of people that are only friends with you on a surface level. People like this either feel bad for you, and want to be friends with you to make themselves feel better, or use you for bragging rights. Befriending a loner brings in lots of popularity points because it gives the illusion to others that they are a kind welcoming person.

Other than that, the only other friends I've made are online.

 

[thereisthemist]

friends are made, they are made, and they are made

 

[HermitLonerGuy]

yes and i prefer it thay way, people IRL stress me out.

 

[WhatPowerIs]

I have kinda sorta "friends" from highschool, but they are the kind of people that are only friends with you on a surface level. People like this either feel bad for you, and want to be friends with you to make themselves feel better, or use you for bragging rights. Befriending a loner brings in lots of popularity points because it gives the illusion to others that they are a kind welcoming person.

Other than that, the only other friends I've made are online.

Yes this has also happened to me I believe, however they aren't good people and have made fun of me a lot. In fact, all they've ever done is scrutinize me so I'm not sure if I can count them as friends. One of the reasons I do not want to ctb is because I have online friends, but I'm not sure if having friends over a computer screen is the same as having them IRL, but it is better than nothing.

 

[Dark Moon]

Nope, I have no friends online or offline.

 

[LONE WOLF.]

No friends IRL or online, l choose to stay away from people as l have anger issues (PTSD) and have caused people enough problems!

 

[Unending]

I don't have friends irl or online. I mean, I have one but I see them maybe 2-3 times a year and never text or call. I'm sort of interested in having e-friends/acquaintances who I could chat with every now and then but irl friends just don't seem fulfilling to me. If anything, the stress of being around others makes me less confident in myself and next thing you know, I begin to second guess myself about everythinnnng.

 

[mateodolores]

I have friends online I guess, but we barely talk. I used to have friends irl, but I pushed them away out of fear and irritability.

 

[Raven2]

I dont have any friends in real life or online for that matter. Just dont have opportunities to meet people.

 

[Sannti]

Online - only one to which I write daily. Real friends - literally 0 for 10 years, and this is pretty close to half of my whole life

 

[Rairii]

no, i haven't had friends in a really long time.

I wish I had some but i'm not sure i'd be that great to be friends with, even if it were just online.