Water-Lily
Enlightened
- Dec 26, 2020
- 1,182
I could just never seem to catch a fucking break
From child abuse by my mom and no pone protecting or belonging me cause my mom put on the perfect face, to be being abuse din every school year even in fucking college where I was sexually assaulted. And its like...I wish I lived in Belgium or Germany or somewhere where assisted suicide was available. Sometimes life is just....hard. especially when people can't relate
I live in the US and assisted suicide isnt available for mental health. Having an option to escape death I think would help so many people who are suffering. the only reason why I am here is because suicide is, to put bluntly, scary. I don't want to die. But I don't want to live either. If I attempt suicide and fail then I will live with long lasting scares on top of my own shit. If I succeed then that's it. but what is death like? What happens after death? Is there a heaven or hell? is there darkness? All we know is that when someone dies there is no coming back.
From child abuse by my mom and no pone protecting or belonging me cause my mom put on the perfect face, to be being abuse din every school year even in fucking college where I was sexually assaulted. And its like...I wish I lived in Belgium or Germany or somewhere where assisted suicide was available. Sometimes life is just....hard. especially when people can't relate
I live in the US and assisted suicide isnt available for mental health. Having an option to escape death I think would help so many people who are suffering. the only reason why I am here is because suicide is, to put bluntly, scary. I don't want to die. But I don't want to live either. If I attempt suicide and fail then I will live with long lasting scares on top of my own shit. If I succeed then that's it. but what is death like? What happens after death? Is there a heaven or hell? is there darkness? All we know is that when someone dies there is no coming back.