Discussion anyone gave up on suicide?

[Death is my goal]

did anyone gave up on suicide after realizing how difficult it is?

i did, been on this site for more than a year solely trying to ctb but options are too limited, even popular methods like SN i can't get my hands on due to customs.

right now I'm just living without a purpose.

 

[betternever2havbeen]

I feel worse than ever and don't even have a source for SN anymore to calm my anxiety. I suppose that's what the pro-lifers want, we can suffer as much as we like as long as we have no peaceful options to leave.

It's my own fault cos I had sources before and I didn't go for it (didn't realise IC was gonna get busted) then after that I was worried about welfare checks. Now I don't even care about that but looks like SN will get confiscated at UK customs every time. I've not given up I'm just in limbo and my mental state is getting worse because I feel so trapped.

 

[this_is_it]

i just posted a vent about this earlier, i feel the exact same. i dont want to live but i dont want to risk fucking up my life forever

 

[Deleted member 65988]

Not by a long shot as I still have my sn and will get more.

I suppose that's what the pro-lifers want, we can suffer as much as we like as long as we have no peaceful options to leave.

I think the goal with that is to leave you with no options left to ctb or at least, ones you would never personally consider so you are stuck where you are with no one to really help you.

 

[Sylveon]

The only option I have is the train method, but since I'm too much of a coward to pull through, I'm just rotting away, so I can relate.

 

[breezeboy]

Do you mind if I ask what you've considered method wise?

 

[carnivalforone]

agreed im so deathly terrified of brain damage and the consequences of a failed attempt

 

[Leavesfromthevine]

Not at all. I've gotten frustrated by trying to learn everything to find my best method but I'm determined to ctb. If all my preferred methods fail I'll find a way no matter what. I'm tired of life, it's my only option I'm giving myself.

 

[Pg.964]

I'm trying really hard not to do it but the fact that guns are so easy to get in my country is extremely tempting. I also am just rotting away I'm not sure what's keeping me here anymore

 

[FuneralCry]

I certainly feel so trapped in this existence, in my case I'm stuck here because all the methods are either inaccessible or risky. It's so disgusting how this society is so anti-suicide with humans wishing to prolong suffering no matter what, it really would be such a relief if Nembutal became accessible.