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There are 2 methods I'm highly considering, and it feels mind-boggling exhausting switching between the two of them. Anyone else?
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Out of curiosity, why nicotine and not some other poison?Yeah I had this between jumping and nicotine. I like the idea of a scenic view before death (jumping) but at the same time death in the comfort of my own home seems more preferable (nicotine.)
I ended up settling on the latter but it took a lot more research and thought into the little, mundane aspects, like how much it'd cost or the time it'd take to pull it off, the chances of it working, the pain, etc.
I mention nicotine to the point I'm basically shilling it at this point on this forum and I wouldn't be surprised if someone thinks I'm from Big Vape so I'll try and keep it short and sweet.Out of curiosity, why nicotine and not some other poison?
Yooo same two methods! SN has been way easier for me but CO just sounds better... SN has less likelihood of causing permanent damage but I just feel a little put off by it lmao.Yessss. I keep bouncing back between SN & CO. I have thought about both. Idk. I like the idea of CO better but SN seems like so much less work. However, I have already put in so much work & money into CO.
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To me, CO seems like better odds of success & sooo much more peaceful and quicker. However. It took like 3 hours for me to set everything up when I have done my runs. I don't want to do all of that work as my last moments.Yooo same two methods! SN has been way easier for me but CO just sounds better... SN has less likelihood of causing permanent damage but I just feel a little put off by it lmao.
Oh wow, this makes TOTAL sense! I was actually considering SN myself but I hate the idea of nausea, vomiting, etc. This is really interesting to me and I'm kind of curious as to why it didn't appear in the PPH!I mention nicotine to the point I'm basically shilling it at this point on this forum and I wouldn't be surprised if someone thinks I'm from Big Vape so I'll try and keep it short and sweet.
Nicotine's benefits are that it is:
Overall there are more benefits to getting this than something like NaNO2, the more typical substance used, which I personally think has been romanticised by this forum. I constantly see people solely talk about NaNO2 but it's not the only substance available, and it probably isn't even the best one, it's just that people seem to think the process is entirely peaceful, when for many, that couldn't be further from the truth - even nicotine might be more comfortable and painless than it since you're knocked unconscious fairly quickly after the symptoms set in depending on how much you take.
- super cheap (Under £50 for a lethal dose, alongside antiemetics as well.)
- not restricted as much (72mg/ml 250ml solutions are easy to find online, do not require a license or any sort of permissions to purchase, and are in general less suspicious compared to something like NaNO2 which is relatively difficult to find, usually requires business addresses/permissions, and is quite suspicious due to its infamy in suicide attempts)
- largely painless during CTB (all reports I've read don't seem to show pain, more so agitation and confusion, before cardiac arrest inevitably occurs)
- is very reliable so long as you don't throw up (4g+ is almost guaranteed to be a lethal dose, and that's an easy amount to surpass)
I would personally prefer an opiod-benzo double overdose, but both of those are fairly expensive, and while I do have some access to both of those, the supplies are limited enough that I would be unlikely to succeed, and it would just disadvantage the person or people who owns/own that medicine. This method would be more than peaceful though, it'd be absolute bliss
Then I guess there are things like the exit mask or hanging or jumping or even the night-night method but I don't like methods that require constant physical effort to overcome SI. Ingestion of deadly poisons requires less of your own participation in your own death than holding the mask to your face, or tying the noose and trying to break your neck.
For me it's more of a pain to find somewhere to pull off the CO method. If done with charcoal, it involves finding somewhere to light it first and in the situation I'm in it's hard to find time alone where I can just go and hang out with like a fire and then not arouse suspicion after putting charcoals inside of some location with me. I like the idea of a generator though, but again, I don't know when / how I would find the time to pull that off.To me, CO seems like better odds of success & sooo much more peaceful and quicker. However. It took like 3 hours for me to set everything up when I have done my runs. I don't want to do all of that work as my last moments.
But if I have the energy, I will.
Otherwise I think the likelyhood is I'll do SN
How do you do yuor runs for CO, do you live in a house by yourself, then i t is easy. otherwise it depends, in an apartment its tough, you cant do it in the building, the cr is the way, but people wouild see you putting hot charcoal in your caar.To me, CO seems like better odds of success & sooo much more peaceful and quicker. However. It took like 3 hours for me to set everything up when I have done my runs. I don't want to do all of that work as my last moments.
But if I have the energy, I will.
Otherwise I think the likelyhood is I'll do SN
Fenced backyard in the ghetto. I also am not using a car.How do you do yuor runs for CO, do you live in a house by yourself, then i t is easy. otherwise it depends, in an apartment its tough, you cant do it in the building, the cr is the way, but people wouild see you putting hot charcoal in your caar.
YesThere are 2 methods I'm highly considering, and it feels mind-boggling exhausting switching between the two of them. Anyone else?
I only have one method of suicide I can do which is shallow water blackout but it seems easy to fuck up.Almost every suicide method is unavailable to me, I live with my parents so i can't purchase charcoal or SN without arousing suspicion.