Discussion Anyone felt like they never belonged anywhere ?

[WonderingSoul]

Like everywhere you went you felt like you weren't supposed to be there ? I used to get this feeling a lot when I was at school and my parents house. Everyone treated me like an alien. When I tried to join some clubs in high school and college, I couldn't make any friends and I'd always end up lonely. Same can be said with some of the social media I use, though I was able to make a couple of online friends. Might be very weird to say, but this site is the only place that I could call 'home'.

 

[Macrista]

I joined very recently but I'm starting to feel the same thing you are. Thanks for sharing <3

 

[Yaffle]

Yes. Since school I've never been the centre of attention guy.

I have a handful of people I consider friends unlike some people with scores/hundreds of friends.

But I don't have a single person who I could/would confide my suicidal thoughts in.

 

[Kit1]

I really don't think I belong anywhere. There is a network at work which has been the closest where I feel like there are people like me and the next place is this forum.

 

[ringo99]

Been feeling that way for the last 20 years

 

[NocturnILL]

Absolutely, Ive always felt very out of place and like an extra on set of the wrong movie. When do feel like I "belong" I notice it doesn't last very long because something will trigger me into seeing I'm just trying adapt and don't have a real place. If that makes sense…
Idk maybe it's just me and the way I am, insecurities, social anxiety or combination of it all and more. Either way it sucks and I feel you OP

 

[catmom23]

Like everywhere you went you felt like you weren't supposed to be there ? I used to get this feeling a lot when I was at school and my parents house. Everyone treated me like an alien. When I tried to join some clubs in high school and college, I couldn't make any friends and I'd always end up lonely. Same can be said with some of the social media I use, though I was able to make a couple of online friends. Might be very weird to say, but this site is the only place that I could call 'home'.

I relate to you a lot.

 

[FuneralCry]

Yes absolutely. I'm not meant for existing in every way possible, all that's ever comforted me and felt right is the thought of eternally ceasing to exist. It's so cruel how suicide isn't seen as a valid option despite this reality, I hate how people are expected to continue suffering no matter what.

 

[WAITING TO DIE]

I've always felt like an alien in this world, as though I don't belong here.
I've had a feeling that there is something very wrong with this world from an early age.

 

[tiger b]

Yep, most definitely.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Yeah, I feel like I don't belong anywhere.. well aside from here

 

[DeadEndRoad]

Yeah, but it's less of a "feeling" and more of just being a general outcast. I grew up differently than most people in first world countries. I was always that dirty homeless kid that nobody wanted to be around. To most people above the poverty line, I am nothing but a leech sucking up their hard-earned tax dollars. All because I need food stamps if I want to eat, otherwise I have to go back to stealing. Even here, my request to join was denied multiple times. The fact that I couldn't even get accepted by a community based around the one thing I think about everyday, did nothing but solidify my belief. So it's not that I FEEL like I don't belong, I just don't belong.

 

[traumer]

yup. many times i felt like i have no chance to keep being in some friend groups or some communities because i get tired of human attention soooo quickly and i feel like i have to dissociate for months and years. i can act perfectly when i do but then i lose all my self esteem so all my effort of building it becomes nothing and i suddenly go back to beginning for no reason

 

[SilentSadness]

I definitely feel out of place and never feel that I belong.

 

[Raindancer]

Absolutely pretty much everywhere anymore. Even places I thought would be perfect places for me. I was at a party a few weeks ago and literally as I looked around I physically felt completely apart from everything and every one.

 

[ShatteredSoul]

Oh yes. I felt this as a child. Does anyone know why we feel this way? I have PTSD now too so I also feel very disconnected from others. I can barely look anyone in the eye either. I just want to go home but home isn't here.

 

[kilowatt]

I mean, yeah. The only time I was actually comfortable with the people around me was 8th grade. But that one factor of happiness didn't top all of the shitty things going on in my life, so that sucked. That was probably the only memorable time of my life.
Never ever after that I have actually fitted in. Nowhere. Not in any way. Not for the shortest time. Entered 2 different chapters of my life since then (highschool and then college) and I still was the weird quiet kid with no actual friends.

 

[angelcircuit]

Yeah, I understand. I have always felt that way everywhere I want, even in places I thought I would fit in. I don't feel like I belong in this forum, either

 

[plan c]

I've been so detached from this life ever since I got that mental deviation. Being unable to live the life like most others, I have little reason to belong anywhere. The Flying Dutchman never makes port, just like me being out of sorts with this world.

 

[donewithlife1]

Like everywhere you went you felt like you weren't supposed to be there ? I used to get this feeling a lot when I was at school and my parents house. Everyone treated me like an alien. When I tried to join some clubs in high school and college, I couldn't make any friends and I'd always end up lonely. Same can be said with some of the social media I use, though I was able to make a couple of online friends. Might be very weird to say, but this site is the only place that I could call 'home'.

All the time!

 

[WonderingSoul]

Yeah, I understand. I have always felt that way everywhere I want, even in places I thought I would fit in. I don't feel like I belong in this forum, either

I'm really sorry. This forum should be welcoming to anyone who wants to join.

 

[leloyon]

Yep. Not once have I ever felt like I've belonged there or that I've been connected to people. It all just alludes me. Here, any other forum, any other website with any other people, always just an outsider looking in, or an intruder that people barely tolerate. Even when I've had "friends", I can always tell that they don't really care. Everyone else gets just a little bit more and I get just a little bit less. I have to be the one putting in the effort, and then I notice literally anyone else being treated that little bit more nicer, them initiating the interactions with other people, while I get treated just a little bit colder than everyone else, and they talk to me a little bit less, and that's even when I'm the one always starting stuff, initiating the interactions. It feels so petty because it seems so small but once you see it you can't unsee it.
Such is life when you're born an outsider. People are naturally repulsed by me. They instinctively know I'm not one of them. Even if they pretend to be like me, identify with the same things I do, have the same interests, they're just posers, they know there's a difference subconsciously because they're not really like me and people like me are meant to be shunned by people like them.

 

[Manfrotto99]

I'm 54 and never ever recall feeling I belonged anywhere in this world. If I did it was only for a fleeting moment. I've just never experiened any of the things that "normal" people experience and achieve in life, or the things that society expects and portrays as "normal" and healthy, I've tried but always failed. When I was younger I tried to embrace being different and finding others of like interest, but even that was a dismel failure. Eventually I just gave in and accepted that despite the basic human need to fit it, I was a perpetual loner and fated to be on my own.

 

[bigfishlittlefish]

Like everywhere you went you felt like you weren't supposed to be there ? I used to get this feeling a lot when I was at school and my parents house. Everyone treated me like an alien. When I tried to join some clubs in high school and college, I couldn't make any friends and I'd always end up lonely. Same can be said with some of the social media I use, though I was able to make a couple of online friends. Might be very weird to say, but this site is the only place that I could call 'home'.

Yes. I'm autistic but was undiagnosed for over 35 years. I've never fitted in anywhere and even as a small child, I had an awareness that I never would, that I'd never have a 'normal' life - one with friends, family, a stable home, someone who thinks you're awesome enough to want to spend the rest of their life with you. By around age 7 I knew I'd never fit into this world.