Discussion anyone feeling tempted to go earlier?

[_Minsk]

i've expected to go in 3-5 months max but life has become even more hellish. i thought the last years have been bad but seems like there is no limit to pain and suffering, i feel very tempted to go this weekend already.... anyone feeling similar?

 

[Sinai Silence]

Very much so, its hard trying to stick around when its all I can think about. I've planned it for September but I would preferably go sooner rather than later.

What made you decide on 3-5 months? I know I couldnt wait that long.

 

[Living_Hurts_so_Much]

When I think about how much more shit I will have to go through the longer I wait, I just want to ctb and get the F&ck out of here.

 

[_Minsk]

Very much so, its hard trying to stick around when its all I can think about. I've planned it for September but I would preferably go sooner rather than later.

What made you decide on 3-5 months? I know I couldnt wait that long.

have planed to try an ayahuasca retreat before i can go with peace, knowing i tried everything. but it seems like too much work, i feel burned out and i would rather kms...

 

[Deleted member 18655]

Yes. I'm waiting for my stuff to come in the mail and, ever since ordering it, i've been anxious and more desperate than ever to go NOW. I don't want to wait! On the bright side, (if there has to be one) I'm planning out who to send emails to and I'm picturing my transition so, hopefully, it won't be as difficult.

But I'm getting depressed that I have to wait such an indefinite period of time

 

[Squiddy]

I really want to go, but am afraid of my family's reaction and friends. I wish something would take me out

 

[Rue89]

Yes I'm tempted to go earlier than planned, but on a much smaller scale, as in days not months.

 

[Deleted member 17949]

Very much so, honestly I am seriously considering doing it within the next week.

 

[tryingtoescape]

Yes, definitely :( these last weeks have been so horrible. I feel like I can't wait that much longer. I was planning on waiting but it's getting really hard and I really want to go soon. I was ready to go this week but I don't have access to my method now. I'm in so much pain.

 

[Worndown]

You may have a plan, but you go when you go. It may end up earlier or later than expected. Please do not focus on that.

 

[LostandTired]

There are times I feel I should have gone 20 years ago....

 

[Shinkansen]

my only fear left is to fail suicide and make my situation worse, otherwise I don't care about anyone else, that's why I'm trying to plan perfectly and do research as much as possible.
before 2021 I hope to leave this bad world, I'm tired of living like this.
this is not living, this is surviving.

 

[falloutcarter13]

I'm assuming my CTB plans will go about as smoothly as all of my other plans in life...that is to say, completely fucking sideways

Seriously though, I'm right there with you. I have an arraignment on Friday on which I'll get a trial date. I do not plan to stand trial to answer to these people. But now that the week is here, I feel like just going sooner so I don't have to even bother with the process of pleading not guilty and getting a trial date. Doing that was just to buy myself more time in order to make better preparations (write letters, settle 100% on CTB method, and do all the logistical planning like pick a day, time, place, etc). But I'm not even sure that's necessary anymore and I'm thinking I might just rush it a little and CTB this week.