cicadafriend

cicadafriend

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Jun 13, 2023
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Title. I fantasize about this sometimes instead of ctb, at least this way I could knock off a few bucket list items before going broke
 
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RemainingDubious

RemainingDubious

All of these lies are not worth fighting for
Feb 18, 2024
374
Title. I fantasize about this sometimes instead of ctb, at least this way I could knock off a few bucket list items before going broke
No i don't. it wouldn't make any difference where i go. i'll be taking me with me. i hope when i ctb my mind will decay here and all my thoughts will decay with my body.
 
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EvisceratedJester

EvisceratedJester

|| What Else Could I Be But a Jester ||
Oct 21, 2023
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I've been fantasizing about running away since I was in middle school, I think. I still fantasize about it. I don't know why I started to have fantasies and urges to runaway but I do. Sometimes I fantasize about running away and ctbing in peace and other times I fantasize about just running away and starting a new life somewhere far away from my family.
 
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sserafim

sserafim

brighter than the sun, that’s just me
Sep 13, 2023
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No, because if I ran away, I would have nowhere to go. I would have no home or security. Personally, I prefer death as the ultimate escape from life, as my problem is life itself.
 
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Angst Filled Fuck Up

Angst Filled Fuck Up

Visionary
Sep 9, 2018
2,975
Nah, I have a nice place. But my gf doesn't treat me well and I'm totally fed up with my health situation. Nothing would really be solved by going away though. It'd just mean isolation and not being very comfy.
 
untothedepths

untothedepths

ego death, then death
Mar 20, 2023
583
If I had a car and money to just drive constantly. I don't.
 
Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
20,980
I do, but where would I run to? And how would I be able to successfully erase all ties to my old life when I'm so attached to all my possessions such as electronics and using the internet?
 
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Malaria

Malaria

If I can't be my own, I'd feel better dead
Feb 24, 2024
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Yep, I've fantasized about it many times. Especially when I was younger, I had those romanticized "run away and join the circus" fantasies. Though in reality, I'm not sure where I'd go, and plus it's hard to run away if you have a messed up leg like me (I tore my ACL years ago). I'm also afraid I'm going to get SA'd again if I'm just out in the streets by myself.
 
Unhumanly.

Unhumanly.

Recovery are not the winner.
Feb 24, 2023
251
I've run away places to places many times, but finding a place where I can be accepted is something I have never been
 
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Tobacco

Tobacco

Efilist. Possible promortalist.
Jan 14, 2023
196
I had a very strong urge to run away because I wanted to die everyday. Some self improvement youtuber said that if you want to die then you can do whatever you want before ctb. I just remember wanting to meditate all day and try to find God.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
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I have started over in life a couple of times already- as in- new job, moving hundreds of miles across the country. In the end, the same old problems caught up with me. As @RemainingDubious said- the problem is- you take you with you. For a truly new start, I think you actually have to face your issues- all be it in a new location, rather than try to run away from them.

I guess in terms of a holiday or something before I CTB though- I've toyed with the idea. Not sure it would make me all that happy though. I ended up settling for- maybe a few places I'd like to see/ say goodbye to.
 
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Silent_cries

Silent_cries

I wish I could delete my trauma...
Aug 10, 2021
1,343
I wish I could run away from everything and do what tf I want, anc then ctb when I'm satisfied and ready. Yet I'm stuck in this miserable, hell of a place where no one gives a crap about me.
 
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Pluto

Pluto

Meowing to go out
Dec 27, 2020
3,992
This really depends.

For people in abusive environments, changing location can at least free them of ongoing harm. Then there will be a need to establish some sort of support network and deal with everything else. Harder than it seems, as I've found out. But it's at least a strategy worth trying.

I've also seen people with an addiction to moving from place to place, each time finding themselves unhappy and each time blaming the latest location. Obviously the state we are in is a factor.
 
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winamp

Enlightened
May 20, 2023
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thought about that more during childhood to adolescence

but as an adult I do not think about that at all or as often if I do it's more about homelessness and endless travel rather than running away
 
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cgrtt.brns

cgrtt.brns

wandering ghost (he/him)
Apr 19, 2023
841
ive always fantasised about running away to a forest and just living alone until i die. but logistically it wouldnt work, im too attached to certain things, im incapable of being independent, there is no where that u can go to without trespassing or getting in trouble with the law in some way (at least not in a reasonable distance from me), people are everywhere so no matter how deep into the woods i go there will always be at least one person that intrudes. at this point its more just a fantasy that i run away to in my mind. i also fantasise about just running away from life, from existence. anytime any kind of stress or anxiety inducing situation arises i always immediately want to run away, either literally or in my head. i just want to avoid everything, i just want everything to leave me alone. i guess thats my avoidant personality disorder talking lol
 
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Sprite_Geist

Sprite_Geist

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May 27, 2020
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Yes I often think about this. The thought of disappearing from where I live now, and starting again somewhere else feels very comforting. Then doubtful thoughts start to emerge: "How would I make a living?" "Could I really learn a new language?" ...this is when I know that running away is not a realistic goal for me. Also there are certain things that I am still attached to.
 
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AnonymousL

AnonymousL

Specialist
Apr 5, 2023
373
I think about it but I know my suffering won't be less in a different place.
Will it help for a little while ? yes.
But i'll end up feeling the same way again, looking for a peaceful way out of existence.
 

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