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Gaga786

Gaga786

The Odds Are Never In My favour
May 3, 2020
470
I feel like I had a low IQ ever since the day I was born. I struggled with basic mathematics in high school, and I was placed in remedial for all subjects. I just couldn't understand anything that I was taught in class. My mother never reinforced any of the topics at home and she would just send me of to a tuition for one hour- expect me to know it all. She never taught me anything, or worked on any concepts. I was bullied a lot as a result, and ended up being known as a failure. Now, I feel I can't do anything properly. It takes me too much time to just memorise things and understand things. For example, I have to repeat a hotel room number up to 20 times in my brain for it to stick, whereas my peers remember it In a heartbeat. I feel like I don't deserve to live in this world because I don't have anything else to offer. I wish I was smart enough to do well in school, and lead a successful life
 
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Hope:-)

Enlightened
Jul 3, 2022
1,120
I have cognitive issues from long-term medication. That is part of the reason I am ctb x
 
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lumipallo

lumipallo

Member
Apr 5, 2021
21
Totally. Ever since I had my first mental breakdown and first manic episode 2 years ago, I've felt like I've lost 20 IQ points. Now I'm struggling with things I used to find easy. When that happened I quit my job before they noticed how poor my performance had become. Doubt I'll ever be able to work in that field again.
And obviously any aspirations about personal achievements went up in smoke.
 
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rainwillneverstop

rainwillneverstop

Global Mod | Serious Health Hazard
Jul 12, 2022
649
intelligence is so much more than an IQ score.
But I understand totally what you mean. I am so bad with anything that involves numbers (including math,) and I have had trouble with that for as long as I can remember.
I am the type of person who will look at the hotel key 50 times on the way to the room, because what was the number again?
But truth be told, there can be so many other things that can be the reason behind the things you are explaining, other than low IQ.
For example, the way you explained your school years, I think it is most very understanding to have trouble with maths and their concepts.
Depression, ADHD, many things can impact the way we learn and remember things.

I have thought to myself before that if the issues I have is mainly caused by low intelligence, I will definitely catch a bus.
But I try to hope it's not that, and see what's around the corner. Hope is all I have.
 
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Klophy

Lost...
Jun 28, 2022
198
I can relate, i feel like my memories are constantly going through a sieve. I forget information, how to do things, learning new skills is incredibly hard. I seem to be able to remember all the crap i've been through though...
 
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lexiahhs

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Jul 14, 2022
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same, i was put on risperidal (risperidone) and my memory went terrible. i have recently been taken off, and have been able to start remembering passwords. It was so bad that i couldnt copy a phone number without going 2 digits at a time, and not remembering login IDs and passwords. I even forgot my own home address. I dont know if anyone else had this problem with risperidone, not many of my friends take it and my psychiatrist didnt mention it as a side effect
 
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Hope:-)

Enlightened
Jul 3, 2022
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Wow. 6 people already and I've not even been on this forum a month...all from something that's supposed to help.

Yes, I have had mania and psychosis...mine was medication induced, and I can attest to the fact that it does cause cognitive issues. I can't even drive because of it :-/
 
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juraviel

PL
Aug 11, 2021
414
sounds like maybe you don't have the best memory but your iq based on your writing seems normal. you could try supplements like piracetam or mnemonic techniques to work on that. just a thought
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I've always had low intelligence and bad concentration my whole life. It is just the way that I am. It was really hard when I used to be in education. I am simply not meant for this world in every way and life has always been a struggle for me. I would still want to die no matter what happened in my case though. Existing really is torture and no one should have to suffer.
 
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Cathy Ames

Cathy Ames

Cautionary Tale
Mar 11, 2022
2,110
sounds like maybe you don't have the best memory but your iq based on your writing seems normal.
Agreed. Possibly you have something more like a brain injury, learning disability, or similar (possibly neurological type) issue and didn't get the help that you needed in order to overcome your challenges. I understand that you are feeling bad and I don't mean to diminish that, but maybe don't slap that "low IQ" label on yourself. If you have a situation where you have access to healthcare, perhaps you can have some testing done and see if there are any treatments. I don't mean meds, I mean behavioral "training" type things, accommodations, workarounds, etc.. Google dyslexia and treatment, and you'll see what I mean. People are able to get help with learning disabilities even into adulthood.
 
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dtjb

The Obsolete
Apr 27, 2022
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sounds like maybe you don't have the best memory but your iq based on your writing seems normal. you could try supplements like piracetam or mnemonic techniques to work on that. just a thought
Second this.

Memorizing a hotel room number doesn't have much to do with intelligence, it's just memory.

One of the reasons I performed well in school was because I had a good memory and could retain the information after reading it or hearing it once. However, I don't think that that necessarily demonstrates that someone is intelligent, just that they're able to regurgitate information.

So yeah, it's easier said than done but I hope you think about the idea that performance in school != intelligence. People can perform poorly in school for many reasons.

Another thing I often think about is how there seem to be different kinds of intelligence. Like I have a cousin who isn't very book smart per se but has great fashion sense, a seemingly innate sense of rhythm and timing in music, and can navigate really well without GPS. I feel like he's really intelligent in those domains and that we should appreciate the different things people bring to the table. I hope that made sense anyway.
 
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