Venting Anyone else who thinks our bodies are just a piece of *****?

[_Minsk]

Im just tired by running from one doc to the next, like is this what this "gift" is meant to be? Trying to fix each fu**in issue? Shouldn't our bodies make us happy and carry our soul/spirit (if you believe in that)?
I've spent like 3 days in the hospital due to some shi**y painful and frightening headaches, i just hate it so much, theres always some *hit going on with my body. My doc said there is a chance of it becoming a chronic thing. Okay sorry for this dumb rant, im just pissed. Why do people call this life a gift?
Not to mention all the mental illnesses that exist on top of physical issues..
Each stupid issue robs my will and motivation, why even trying when it falls apart at the most random time anyway? Some Babies are born with cancer, this life is a jokeeeee

 

[ClownMe]

I've currently got a bad cold and it sucks, makes life even more depressing, I feel like absolute shit.

 

[whywere]

I really can see where you are coming from. I too, have chronic pain. Have had it since 04.10.2015, when I was driving south and another person was driving east and he went through the stop sign and I t-boned him. I went through 3 pain clinics and the 4th one is WOW!, the best. It took me over a year of going through the process of going to different clinics and pain doctors to find a perfect fit. Now with that said, I 100% believe in you @_Minsk as far as yes at times this life is nothing but a bad joke, BUT also there are times that I have had great and loving experiences, that aspect would be the interaction that I have with so many of the great global family here. I have been helped out so many times from so many fine folks here that I have lost count. I have made it so far with 24/7 chronic pain, my whole right side of my body, from the very top of my head to the toes on my right foot always hurt and I send you lots of hugs, smiles, understanding, empathy and SUPPORT to help you. You are a very loving and kind person, one can tell how you wrote your post, that you can, with our help here, over come, I believe in YOU! Walter

 

[death137]

I'm sorry :( How is the pain now compared to the last 3 days?

I feel you. I suffer from migraine headache and the pain is unbearable. I often wear only boxer so I'm not heated. I can't swallow my saliva so I spit it in a bottle or toilet/other place appropriate. I try to be in a dark and cold place. It's painful and exhausting. All ppl suffer but some are truly cursed.

 

[Symbiote]

I always have interpreted the saying that "life is a gift" is something people admire about the self-preservation that the human body endures in order to survive. You ever watch gore videos or people being set on fire, the human body and the will to live is still strong even though they are covered in flames and tribal people are beating them with sticks. The same people will always say the same about a baby born with no brain, or with cancer. Life is a gift, your mind is a curse, the self-awareness to interpret your environment that the world around you is shit, your own body is shit, and that even though you are still breathing, that is the gift of it all.

That's why I want to return my 'gift' and get a refund and give out a 1-star review on Google.

 

[WornOutLife]

Yes, our bodies can really suck!
I guess that's why some people like believing in souls or things like that, they just don't wanna get sick or be in pain anymore.

Hugs,

Matt

 

[FuneralCry]

I have had experiences with various health problems recently, and it can make the body into a prison. With many health problems, there is little that people can do about them and it can send them into despair. There is no limit as to how bad it can get and it is the reason why I dread getting older, it is bound to get worse.
Life isn't a gift, it's a curse really as there is so much suffering one can go through. We just die anyway so existence is pointless. Being human is exhausting, it's why I take comfort from death.

 

[ExhaustedExistence]

Our bodies are just cages. But our minds hold the key.

 

[Lost in a Dream]

Sometimes it seems like the human body was designed by Ford. Wouldn't it be nice if we could buy a new one from another dealer and shove our brains into those?

That's why I want to return my 'gift' and get a refund and give out a 1-star review on Google.

I shouldn't have been born into the one I have now without reading the reviews first. I went with the cheapest one I could find and my body has existed far longer than the 30 day refund period. I guess I'm stuck with it.

 

[TheHatedOne]

The fact that you can just wake up one day paralyzed makes me hate this worthless piece of meat even further. Human bodies are disgusting, the design is dumb and it's magnet of all kinds of diseases and pains.

 

[Celerity]

Though my chronic pain issues are relatively mild for now, one day I know they won't be without major interventions I may not ever be able to afford. And then there are a host of little things about my body that annoy me. I understand where you're coming from. Even at its best, I have always been physically awkward and uncoordinated.

 

[DocNo]

yep. hate my body. i see it as a limiting flesh prison which forces me to witness it's decaying process day by day.

for some time now i even think the concept of matter in general is a stupid concept. it's just too limiting and vulnerable. since my teens i dream of a formless kind of energy. when i talked with people about that they often said that it then would be impossible to experience some stuff we do cause of our bodies. but i guess they never got my point that if being just some kind of energy i could be everything and so experience everything.
but however. to some point a futile mindfuck cause we are what we are and in my good days i think it would be better to try to do the best with the limited state of being just a human creature instead of complaining of how cool it would be not to be what i am.

 

[Angst Filled Fuck Up]

Yeah my body is a total shitshow. 24/7 dizziness, fatigue, brain fog, back pain, indigestion, weak joints. It's all just a big soup of crap.

 

[Darkmoon Queen]

When I was going through some medical issues a few years ago, I was too busy being afraid to really think straight. Maybe it depends on the nature of the illness.

I think I just accept illness as a part of life in that way. Just like everything else sorta.. rots down. Hair goes grey like leaves going yellow.

I hope you get better days soon though.

 

[whywere]

The fact that you can just wake up one day paralyzed makes me hate this worthless piece of meat even further. Human bodies are disgusting, the design is dumb and it's magnet of all kinds of diseases and pains.

Not whining, but having 24/7 chronic pain, I 100% agree with you.
Walter

 

[Darkmoon Queen]

Not whining, but having 24/7 chronic pain, I 100% agree with you.
Walter

If anyone accuses you of whining for that, they can eff right off.

 

[whywere]

If anyone accuses you of whining for that, they can eff right off.

THANK YOU so, so much!! It is so nice having such kind and thoughtful souls like you on here.

You truly made my Monday as you make me feel as if I am part of a family that I have never ever had. It is folks like you who help me get up, take my pain meds and remember that we are all like one large family on here. Hope that does not ruffle feathers, this is just me talking, but I consider SS and everyone here like a family to me that I have never ever had in my 60 some years on this rock.

THANK YOU so much for being a friend and have a great day and rest of this week.

Walter

 

[stygal]

but however. to some point a futile mindfuck cause we are what we are and in my good days i think it would be better to try to do the best with the limited state of being just a human creature instead of complaining of how cool it would be not to be what i am.

This. As much as I hate having to be in this "flesh prison" and as stupid and useless it seems to perform all the maintenance most of the time - I know it will be over soon enough.
So I find stuff I still (mildly) enjoy like comedy or knowledge or drugs.
- But I know I'm only able to say those things as I'm currently not suffering from chronic pain.

 

[Darkmoon Queen]

THANK YOU so, so much!! It is so nice having such kind and thoughtful souls like you on here.

You truly made my Monday as you make me feel as if I am part of a family that I have never ever had. It is folks like you who help me get up, take my pain meds and remember that we are all like one large family on here. Hope that does not ruffle feathers, this is just me talking, but I consider SS and everyone here like a family to me that I have never ever had in my 60 some years on this rock.

THANK YOU so much for being a friend and have a great day and rest of this week.

Walter

Right back atcha. You keep on looking after yourself, I know it's hard but you're worth your self care.

 

[ReflectionOfTrauma]

I don't know, if our bodies are just a pieces of cra*, but mine is completly wrecked - some nurse said to me, that with so much crooked back my life will be f*cked up in 10-20 years. Just another reason to ctb, yay

 

[KuriGohan&Kamehameha]

It has always been so crazy to be how fragile and prone to damage our meat suit bodies are. I really hope you can catch a break Minsk, and everyone else who has to carry the burden of chronic pain on their shoulders everyday.

It is simply unfair and torturous that we are expected to go about our day to day lives without any pain relief. Currently I am trying to fight my exhausted, worn out body and force it out of bed, as I have responsibilities at uni, yet it feels near impossible to drag myself up when my brain is screaming at me and sending all sorts of signals that I need to sleep.

Dunno about everyone else here, but I have always found it sort of terrifying when I had to learn new information about the body and how quickly/easily things can malfunction and go wrong. I remember sitting in a Biology class years ago, a video about how cells accumulate damage and fester until they become carcinogenic rolling across the screen, and I was absolutely horrified by it.

All my classmates were completely unperturbed by this video and the knowledge we were meant to digest. They were watching with interest, not fear. I suppose for a lot of people it is quite easy to tune out the underlying implications behind disturbing concepts like aging, genetic diseases, accidents, trauma chronic illnesses, and other various forms of bodily decay.

I have never been able to ignore the cruel underpinnings of biology, the randomness of it all and the sheer luck of the draw has always been something that bothers me at a fundamental level. I wish no one had to endure any horrible diseases or pain, and that we could all truly live life to the fullest. Biology tends to have other plans in many situations.

However, I find solace myself knowing one day my constant suffering will finally be over.

 

[author]

My body's just something that carries my head around, honestly - and it doesn't do the best job.

Honestly, it's hard to do anything in this body. It causes me constant physical pain. Being disabled is a bitch, having an invisible disability is even worse. I'm in constant pain but doctors just shrug it off and tell me to take pain meds. If I took pain meds every time I was in pain, I'd have ctb from all of it.

If I ctb, it's gotta be painless. I'm tired of being in constant pain.