Help Anyone else waste their life here?

[Redt2go]

I slept all day then woke up at like 1pm and have been between this site and Reddit time to go for 11 straight hours. I have no interest in anything else except how I'll be able to die. Anyone else ? Or am I just extra fucked up

 

[littlelady774]

Same. I'm obsessed with this site

 

[sif]

What did you do before? It depends what you're missing out on

 

[Redt2go]

What did you do before? It depends what you're missing out on

I'm a student I should be preparing for the start of classes. I used to plan my future and spend time with friends listen to music watch TV

 

[Smilla]

I slept all day then woke up at like 1pm and have been between this site and Reddit time to go for 11 straight hours. I have no interest in anything else except how I'll be able to die. Anyone else ? Or am I just extra fucked up

Nope, that's me. I'm fucked as fucked up can be. It's fucked up if you have a life you want to go live but in my case I don't so it's "normal".

 

[littlelady774]

I'm a student I should be preparing for the start of classes. I used to plan my future and spend time with friends listen to music watch TV

I'm a student also about to finish my last semester at the university. Don't know how I'm gonna focus on school when all I think about is ctb

 

[sif]

I'm a student I should be preparing for the start of classes. I used to plan my future and spend time with friends listen to music watch TV

Has something happened to make you want to die immediately? I'd suggest keeping on top of your classes while you still have the chance if you're unsure? Sorry if that's unwelcome but you've only been here for a day and you seem overly concerned about it.

 

[Redt2go]

I'm a student also about to finish my last semester at the university. Don't know how I'm gonna focus on school when all I think about is ctb

Exactly! I've been thinking about that too. But I still want my suicide to appear as an accident so I'm trying to keep up a front. It's hard because I really struggle to hide my depression, so anyway I die people will be suspicious. Just been praying each night before bed for cardiac arrest

 

[Redt2go]

Has something happened to make you want to die immediately? I'd suggest keeping on top of your classes while you still have the chance if you're unsure? Sorry if that's unwelcome but you've only been here for a day and you seem overly concerned about it.

Yes, just realized that my mental is unfixable and the reason for my suffering. I've been reading these forums for a few months now I'm just now making an account though. It's not unwelcome I appreciate your advice.

 

[Kyrok]

I'm supposed to be writing a book. Instead, Facebook, Reddit, here and other forums from 9am to 1am daily.

 

[Circles]

I'm a student I should be preparing for the start of classes. I used to plan my future and spend time with friends listen to music watch TV

Life itself is a pointless waste. Everyone is wasting their time here and of those who feel like they should spend their time doing something that society has instilled into them only do so because they believe it will make a difference when it's all in vain. What is there to achieve? No one will remember us for our struggles and life is already too short for suicidal people than to worry about some arbitrary goal set by social norms. What's so wrong about laying around and doing nothing and just relax? It's like if somebody doesn't have any goals then everybody thinks they're missing out on life when it's the other way around.

 

[sif]

Yes, just realized that my mental is unfixable and the reason for my suffering. I've been reading these forums for a few months now I'm just now making an account though. It's not unwelcome I appreciate your advice.

Yeah it kinda does that to you.. just be careful and don't feel too pressured to post either way, please make your decision naturally if that makes sense.

 

[littlelady774]

Exactly! I've been thinking about that too. But I still want my suicide to appear as an accident so I'm trying to keep up a front. It's hard because I really struggle to hide my depression, so anyway I die people will be suspicious. Just been praying each night before bed for cardiac arrest

Sometimes getting so invested in my studies helps take my mind off ctb- I really wanna go though.
I don't know what I'm gonna do after graduation.. I majored in a liberal arts subject.. might as well be working at Starbucks

 

[sólstafir]

Yes, completely brain dead spending days scrolling mindlessly through reddit and SS which I'm tired of but still do this to myself. I don't even have an obsession with SS, I feel nothing, other option would be staring the ceiling. But I have hope I start reading books again instead of that.

 

[MsM3talGamer]

Same. I'm obsessed with reading up on methods even though I've chosen my method already. It's addictive here because it's the only place where I feel accepted. In chat I can express my wish to die for the first time in my life without being judged. I split my time between this site and watching Netflix. I always have my eye open for any interesting CTB stories or methods that come up. I gave up on Reddit's Suicide Watch because of the annoying pro-lifers spouting random crap and platitudes.

 

[Angst Filled Fuck Up]

I'm on here all the time, but I don't beat myself up as far as how I pass the time anymore. What's the point? Life is hard and shitty. If you can get by while doing things that are easy, pleasant and predictable, you'd be silly not to.

 

[Hopeless_soul]

I've lived with mental issues all my life, desiring with all my heart that the next day I wouldn't wake up. But I also tried to do all the stuff society expects from you (of course, procrastinating as hell, and struggling with loads of problems at the same time), hoping in secret that maybe, just maybe one day I was going to have a normal life (be with someone who could accept me for who I am, and so on). But that day never came. Nowadays I do nothing. I'm just preparing myself to die. I'd just say _it's ok to be fucked up_.

 

[therhydler]

Yep, I'm on here practically 24/7. Also not interested in anything but ctb. It's the shittiest feeling

 

[LiveSlowDieFast]

Yeah, I know what you mean. Being on my computer from morning till I go to bed is pretty much normal for me, what changes is just where I waste my time. I get crazy addicted to sites like this or reddit, although the latter I don't use as much anymore.

 

[15dec]

Yeah, I've been on here pretty much all day for a couple weeks now? It's honestly really sad. I just don't have the energy to do much else anymore. I could go and play video games but then I'll have to get up and turn on the Switch and the TV and then get the charger and I'm just too tired. Sometimes I'll go on walks or I'll go out with my family but I'll still end up checking here. I haven't seen any of my friends since before Christmas, everyone's always busy, I'm dreading seeing them at college because I'll have to put what little energy I have left into acting happy and I'll have to see my ex as well which is always hard. So coming on here and interacting with everyone is the least-draining thing I can do and does a hell of a lot to help me feel less lonely and a little more understood; I guess that's what so addicting about it.

 

[NumbItAll]

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[throwaway777]

im always here ... u are the only people who seem to understand

 

[color_me_gone]

Actually, my life is a waste when I'm NOT here.

 

[Redt2go]

Actually, my life is a waste when I'm NOT here.

Clever one you are

 

[21Neberg]

The same for me. This site is so amazing though, everyone is so open-minded and kind. I love everyone on here, this is my favorite place on the internet.

 

[SiArc]

I've used this site to burn time until my ctb and have spent an ungodly amount of time on it the last month. If it weren't for for this place I would have pushed my date sooner and not gone out like I would have like and been utterly consumed by anxiety (I get extreme anxiety when I am biting at the bit to do something).

 

[Taylored]

I sometimes am on nonstop Day-Night I don't consider it wasteful since I'm learning stuff I will Hopefully use in the near future.

 

[Aesthler]

I think I wasted my life on the internet since I was 13, so being here is just a subsequent consequence of not learning how to survive this fucked world.