Anyone else want to die because they literally cannot relax?

[TreizKhushranata]

I haven't felt calm in years. My hypervigilance from ptsd is constant.

I told my mom the other day this and she couldn't believe it. It only shows how little others know about our struggles. She cares but my experience is not her experience.

 

[Mr2005]

I'm only up because of ptsd. The memory is absolutely crippling and so easily triggered as to only be able to distract for the briefest of moments

 

[TreizKhushranata]

I'm only up because of ptsd. The memory is absolutely crippling and so easily triggered as to only be able to distract for the briefest of moments

It doesn't help that we're now subject to more trauma as a result of having ptsd. Last year was a fucking nightmare. I was on here in 2018. I should've killed myself then. Now I've learned though. There's another horror waiting in my future, but this time I won't be around to experience it.

 

[RottenDeer]

I am always stressed. Can't focus on one thing. Have already a billion other things in mind. Nervousness.

 

[TreizKhushranata]

I am always stressed. Can't focus on one thing. Have already a billion other things in mind. Nervousness.

It's awful

 

[FuneralCry]

I agree as life is so unpredictable you don't know what bad things are about to happen and you cannot be prepared for them which can damage the mind. With death comes non existence which for me means peace.