Anyone else waiting to die until after the New Year?

[V0latile]

Dying during the holidays would fuck up my family and ruin this time for them for years to come.

I really think January will be the time this time. I either die or keep living a life where I'm confined to my room horribly mentally ill. I've already done therapy and meds for years. It did nothing. I was considering going to the gym, but my illnesses will still prevent me from working and being normal, so I don't see the point.

 

[Dazedandconfused32]

I can't make it that long. It seems sooo far away. I am aware I'll ruin the holidays for everyone but I just can't take it anymore.

 

[Mr2005]

One way or the other by the end of the year this saga has to come to end. Close that chapter, it's just whether there's another

 

[david1991]

nah I just want to get it done now life is unbearable with my depression and anxiety even though I have no reason to feel like that, I have my SN im going to try tomorrow

 

[Astral316]

Yea I'm also confined to my apartment living on social security/ebt card unable to interact/socialize with anyone in a productive capacity. I have tv and internet so I'm not hurting but there's no long term future in where I'm at. Not long after Christmas my goose is cooked.

 

[Mr2005]

nah I just want to get it done now life is unbearable with my depression and anxiety even though I have no reason to feel like that, I have my SN im going to try tomorrow

If you know you've no reason to feel like that then it might actually be possible to help you

 

[V0latile]

Yea I'm also confined to my apartment living on social security/ebt card unable to interact/socialize with anyone in a productive capacity. I have tv and internet so I'm not hurting but there's no long term future in where I'm at. Not long after Christmas my goose is cooked.

How long have you been living your current lifestyle?

I can't make it that long. It seems sooo far away. I am aware I'll ruin the holidays for everyone but I just can't take it anymore.

How old are you?

 

[Astral316]

How long have you been living your current lifestyle?

I got my apartment in mid-October. Before that I lived at a homeless shelter for 6-7 months... though I've been isolated for years.

 

[Ame]

I can understand the desire to postpone CTBing to wait for the holidays to pass. It is something that I've considered myself but I have already decided that I'm not going to ring in the new year. To those who will still be around, I wish you all a happy (or at least as happy as such a difficult time can be) holiday season.

 

[LMLN]

I should for the sake of my family. But I just dont think I can make it that long.

 

[SuicidalSymphonies]

May 2020 is my date. Trying to avoid many special holidays and birthdays but it has been proven to be hard as May is mother's day and June is my brother's birthday even though he doesn't talk to me. Dad's is two days before mine, mums is 5 days after Christmas. I'm screwed.

Edit: brother and I have different fathers so now we never see each other and he's brainwashed.

 

[V0latile]

May 2020 is my date. Trying to avoid many special holidays and birthdays but it has been proven to be hard as May is mother's day and June if my brother's birthday even though he doesn't talk to me. Dad's is two days before mine, mums is 5 days after Christmas. I'm screwed.

Edit: brother and I have different fathers so now we never see each other and he's brainwashed.

Yeah, avoiding birthdays and shit like Mothers Day is a bitch.

 

[SuicidalSymphonies]

Yeah, avoiding birthdays and shit like Mothers Day is a bitch.

Tell me about it.. So stressful.

 

[passenger27]

I'll be lucky to eat turkey this year.

 

[V0latile]

Tell me about it.. So stressful.

And yet our cunt families will still have the audacity to call us selfish after we die. It makes me so angry!

 

[C_F]

I'm also waiting to CTB until after the holiday season.

 

[SuicidalSymphonies]

And yet our cunt families will still have the audacity to call us selfish after we die. It makes me so angry!

You're right.. How unjust..

 

[V0latile]

You're right.. How unjust..

They're selfish just like they say we are. It's so ironic, but they'll never accept their selfishness.

 

[Final Escape]

Maybe that's what I'll do make my date New Year's Eve like after the club. My ctb date. I feel like going sooner though. I'll go to the club one last time go dancing and then that night. No drinking though. I'll enjoy the club sober. That sounds nice :) I need to make my ending extra special since my life has been so horrific.

 

[V0latile]

Maybe that's what I'll do make my date New Year's Eve like after the club. My ctb date. I feel like going sooner though. I'll go to the club one last time go dancing and then that night. No drinking though. I'll enjoy the club sober. That sounds nice :) I need to make my ending extra special since my life has been so horrific.

I wonder how many people die every New Years Eve due to gunshot while all the fireworks are going off.

 

[Thisisjustadream]

For some reason i feel if i post about the exact way i would like to kill myself (like when, where, and method ) that it wont happen. Anyone else ever feel like that? I hope to kill myself in 2020

 

[V0latile]

For some reason i feel if i post about the exact way i would like to kill myself (like when, where, and method ) that it wont happen. Anyone else ever feel like that?

Saying when and where could sabotage it.

 

[imstillhungry]

No my family were abusive and I'd be spending Christmas alone. Thankfully won't be around by then

 

[Thisisjustadream]

Saying when and where could sabotage it.

even on here i feel like if i said it, it would sabotage it . Even there slightest detail other then by gun and the year

 

[mediocre]

No in fact I am afraid to see 2020. I don't want to enter another year like this. I am anxious to get it over with by mid-December if I can muster up the courage. I don't really care about it being the holidays.

 

[V0latile]

No in fact I am afraid to see 2020. I don't want to enter another year like this. I am anxious to get it over with by mid-December if I can muster up the courage. I don't really care about it being the holidays.

2020 looks better on a gravestone.

 

[Ithinkimdone]

My sister is pregnant the baby is due dec 24/25 i dint want to ruin Christmas and her first born but I definitely don't think I can handle New Years so maybe sometime in-between then.

 

[Lethe]

I have to stick around until 2020 at least, just to see if the aliens finally land on the Whitehouse lawn and raise us up out of this pit.

 

[mattwitt]

Just today as I was walking I picked out a possible date for me in January. Yesterday I was excited about signing up for a new health club nearby but then today I was like "there's no point"

 

[Dazedandconfused32]

How long have you been living your current lifestyle?

How old are you?

I'm 32