Those around me keep me alive by restricting my finances and access and monitoring to make sure I'll be looked for if I'm gone too long, despite knowing the full extent of my constant suffering all day every day are not acting out of love but out of ignorance and malice regardless of what they pretend
They attach false hope that isn't there to my hopeless, nightmarish circumstances that result in my existence being nothing but torture at almost all times because they themselves don't have the first-hand experience, don't do basic research, and don't want to look bad by having a dead kid.
This results in only animosity on my part. That I hide, like I do from the entire world, soley out of self-preservation instinct to avoid being hospitalized or other circumstances.
They put absolute faith in useless therapies and doctors who do nothing but prove themselves unreliable and incompetent and untrustworthy solely for their own gain, to maintain their own inaccurate worldview informed only by personal bias and outdated experience from a world gone forever long ago they were privileged enough to enjoy
Anyone who is not immediately offering a painless and instant CTB is only interested in continuing my suffering. And any they feel after I finally escape despite their efforts they deserve.
They attach false hope that isn't there to my hopeless, nightmarish circumstances that result in my existence being nothing but torture at almost all times because they themselves don't have the first-hand experience, don't do basic research, and don't want to look bad by having a dead kid.
This results in only animosity on my part. That I hide, like I do from the entire world, soley out of self-preservation instinct to avoid being hospitalized or other circumstances.
They put absolute faith in useless therapies and doctors who do nothing but prove themselves unreliable and incompetent and untrustworthy solely for their own gain, to maintain their own inaccurate worldview informed only by personal bias and outdated experience from a world gone forever long ago they were privileged enough to enjoy
Anyone who is not immediately offering a painless and instant CTB is only interested in continuing my suffering. And any they feel after I finally escape despite their efforts they deserve.
