One of my reasons for ctb is that I'm truly evil. I never carried out evil acts but my mind goes there a lot. If I live I'd likely end up down a path leading to prison. Deep down I am a monster. Well not me that I was born as. I have taken over this person's body and brain. They didn't disable it in time and die so I'm going to wreck havoc on their life .
Let me just tell you this.
1. We're born evil and it's our choice we choose to be good or not. Look into the superego I.e the subconscious.
2. Prison is a lot better than jail and I don't give a damn who says otherwise because they're flat out lying.
3. No matter what you choose in life, and regardless if you're good or evil... You have a right at life. In the past couple days I have been through two breakups and then had an encounter with two women I had just met that were curious about adding a man into the relationship (so to speak). And a lot of people would say this is evil. I didn't lie to anyone And I didn't cheat on anyone.
And what else was I supposed to do knit?
But do I believe in anyone's rules or authority?
Outside of God, I make my own rules.
At the risk of possibly offending you,
I will say you are more likely hungry and angry than you are evil.
Human beings do terrible things to feed their hunger, there are many so-called good people who persecute they're chosen villains to the ends of the Earth and call it justice.
So unless you're hurting animals or going out committing SA or murder, you're probably not an evil person.
But no one ever talks about carnal desires or sociopathic power fantasies, and the ones that do usually end up masquerading it underneath the guise of BDSM.
If only there were more healthy discussions on this form I think a lot of people who are misguided would find peace outside of the escapist fantasy of CTB. I sincerely wonder how many artists and writers and successful people would have became of the people who CTB here alone.
So if you're having doubts about doing CTB please don't do it.