Anyone else suffer from being constantly ashamed?

[AveMori]

The second I have nothing to do and my mind starts wandering, I think of 100.000 different things I said or did during my lifetime that make me feel terribly ashamed now. I want my life to end, just so it stops…

 

[LaVieEnRose]

Oh you know, just every aspect, facet, part of my life.

 

[lnlybnny]

yes, and i feel trapped in this reality i never asked to be in

 

[totheendofinfinity]

Yup, I have said and done so much embarrassing things I regret. Part of my reason for wanting to ctb.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Yes, I remember all sorts of embarrassing situations daily. Are you also socially anxious may I ask? I wonder if the two go hand in hand.

 

[evelilah]

Constantly, one of the reasons I feel like I've lost all my friends and family cause I can't even face the outside world.

 

[Ash]

Oh yes. It's a normal function of the human brain but I wish mine didn't operate in ultra HD with slo-mo replays and commentary.

 

[cait_sith]

Yes, I suffer from this severely. Random embarrassing situations even from decades ago pop into my head out of nowhere frequently and I often have to scream, and sometimes punch myself, to interrupt the thought from replaying and stop me from spiraling. I even remember things I did as a little child, and, now this is really fucked, things that didn't happen but could have happened if I said the wrong thing in certain situations. My brain always finds new ways to torture myself.
Writing this I am feeling ashamed of being ashamed of things that are so far in the past that none of the people involved remembers, and even if they did it wouldn't matter, as it's literally a part of existing amongst humans to get into embarrassing situations but I still can't stop myself from obsessing over it. Because of having this problem forever I avoided so many things in life that could potentially result with embarrassing situations which in turn resulted in am even more embarrassing state of of inexperience and stunted development.

 

[maneose]

Yep, every mistake and embarrassing event is permanently stuck in my memory. No, I can't remember any of my timestables but I can recall every mistake I've made with intense detail

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I suffer form a big failure in life a few years ago but I'm not ashamed at all for this. It's just bad luck in life. I can also be considered a NEET now in mid 40's - I'm not ashamed for this. It's a result of failing big in life and some principles. There's nothing to be ashamed for in our lives when we stand to what we're doing and why we're doing it.

 

[Ash]

I suffer form a big failure in life a few years ago but I'm not ashamed at all for this. It's just bad luck in life. I can also be considered a NEET now in mid 40's - I'm not ashamed for this. It's a result of failing bi in life and some principles. There's nothing to be ashamed for in our lives when we stand to what we'ere doing and why we're doing it.

I'm not ashamed of the big things. It's the time I forgot to look both ways at a junction and forced the driver with right of way to do a justifiably angry emergency stop. Or didn't realise I had jam smeared around my face until I went back inside after chatting to a new neighbour one morning. Or when I was 17 and spent the night throwing up 10 pints of Guinness in my friend's parent's car and then their newly decorated spare room (cream and white) before creeping out at 5 in the morning and never returning...

 

[UmbraDweller]

All day everyday. They always fly in out of nowhere. Random throwbacks to when I was cringe while interacting with someone, or when I did/said something embarrassing. Even if it was something small like saying hi weirdly, it's a big deal for some reason. My mind is always finding something to overthink and feel ashamed about. It's so intense, I often slap myself out of frustration. I was wondering why this happens and what this is, some kind of ptsd?

 

[AveMori]

I suffer form a big failure in life a few years ago but I'm not ashamed at all for this. It's just bad luck in life. I can also be considered a NEET now in mid 40's - I'm not ashamed for this. It's a result of failing big in life and some principles. There's nothing to be ashamed for in our lives when we stand to what we're doing and why we're doing it.

I can't stand for what I was doing and why, bc I have no idea why I do those things

 

[Grim_Rockstar]

Absolutely. Especially when I am complimented which might seem a bit odd, but it's the fact of personally acknowledging what another does not. For example, I am often referred to as intelligent or having everything going for me when really I am barely keeping my head above water regarding a stable future.