Venting Anyone else rotting in bed all day?

[The Disqualified]

I don't feel alive. I don't feel like I have motivation to do anything.
Today I just rotted away in bed all day. I mentally can't do anything. I would rather stare at the ceiling for a whole hour than do anything. I just can't. I don't want to do anything either. I feel so numb. So hopeless. So exhausted and tired all the time.
All the hours go past. I think of things I could be doing, but for each and every thing I think through I ask myself "What is the point of doing this?". Nothing seems to have a point anymore. Nothing seems worth it. I don't feel alive. I feel in pain. I feel horrible. I want to die.
I don't want to have goals, or expectations. I just want to find peace. That's all.
Anyone feels similar? I really need to move, but can't. Then I blame myself even more and feel guilty. I can't live like this. It is torture. Seeing all my years and potential go by. I can't live like this. I can't.

 

[pusheen_time_yay]

I can definitely relate to bedrotting and a lack of motivation to do anything. A little bit ago, I ended up bedrotting for a little too long and I almost had to go to the emergency room because I didn't have any food or water for over 24 hours and my body had an awful reaction. I'm no expert and I'm not the best person to ask for advice so take anything I say with a grain of salt - but if you feel like this then at least try to do a little harm reduction, like making sure you are properly hydrated by keeping bottled water on your bed or keeping food nearby. Anything else you might need, you can try to do from your bed, keep everything next to you like your toothbrush or floss so you can do a few small things with minimum effort required. You may already be doing this idk, but I'll just put it out there anyway because it helps me personally. I felt so sick and my fingers couldn't move when I ended up having my medical incident thing and you should make sure the same thing doesn't happen to you if you stay in bed for too long.

Also, from my personal experience (so again it may not apply to you, take this with a grain of salt), if you are bedrotting you feel so tired and you need a break to relax, but if you feel guilty or upset that you are relaxing, then you never truly are relaxed. To maximize the rest you gain from being in bed, you need to find a way to just accept that you are going to rest for a long time, and you need to give your mind a full break without feeling any guilt or shame or anxiety that you are not doing work. When I get in this state, once I finally manage let go of the constant urge to do work or be productive, I can fully mentally rest for a few days and then end up actually having the willpower to do something on day 3 or 4. The difficult part is learning how to stop feeling anxious about doing something or "being lazy," (in quotes bc its not laziness, and you have the right to do this) and the answer to that is probably highly personal, especially since you mentioned guilt and I don't specifically feel guilt over anything like this, although I feel anxiety and anger. Someone else might have better advice idk.

I hope you are able to recover, i wish you the best

 

[itsgone2]

Yes, I'm doing the exact same thing today. I have the option to work from home some, but I went to work all week. It's hard to get ready in the morning but being there and talking to people and having to do things at least makes the day go faster. I was hoping it might change things for me a little bit.

No. Nothing has changed. I've been in bed all day.

I'm sorry you're in this place too

 

[Gabbi_Station]

Same- I tried to go on a run, felt even worse when out and just gave up today

 

[DeadManLiving]

Yes, until 2028.

 

[darksouls]

yes, I am alone since my female dog left me in 2020,
I am isolated and suffer from bed rotting

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

Yes, I've been doing it for weeks. I can't think at all. Even movies and reading are out. I need endless online distractions. Stupid games, YouTube, posting here.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

I love bedrotting.
I wish I could do it everyday.
Unfortunately work fucks that up.
I need a good bedrotting day.

 

[Pluto]

 

[blackorchid]

same here. as I always said and never and never felt more deeply now: "I have no ambition."

sending you a big hug.

 

[v0wkeeper]

feel the same, yesterday i did nothing eventful other than stay in bed all day even though i woke up at 3pm. today i just went on my computer all day.

even if i do put in the effort for tasks i need to do i simply have no motivation to do them anymore these days and i wish to be in peace and rotting away.

 

[Not_A_Seagull]

this is sad but true

 

[LittleJem]

The only thing that can get me in shower, washing up, out the house....a line or two of snow. Otherwise, I'd be in bed all the time. My nose hates it. I hate it. But I shower occassionally. Ymmv. I am aiming to sleep tomorrow away..

 

[wannabeangel]

thats been my routine since i moved back home, and my routine in general due to being disabled. i hate it so much, i wish i could do more without pain or exhaustion, but it seems like most of my life is gonna be spent in bed

 

[BrokenByTheSystem]

I don't work, I live with my parents so I rot in the bad the whole day without talking to a single person. I'm just waiting death, or get kicked out of home. Then maybe I get enough motivation to end this once for all.

 

[charlavail]

i go from 10 hours in bed, to several hours on couch, then back to bed sleep at least another 10 hours. gotta get those steps in from bed to couch lol

 

[idksympxthy]

i wouldnt say rotting since i get out to eat but as soon as i get back to my room and ik i have to study i just... gravitate towards my bed. All my responsibilities, the poeple im probably disappointing by not doing what im supposed to keep me overthinking. I want to try to make this better for myself but im so drained three years into uni.

 

[BillyBob]

I have been doing this more and more lately and it is for the best for me atm.
Just too depressed to even do anything of value in life. Can't function normally at all these days.
Nothing feels real either and I just want to CTB badly.

 

[Painforever]

Yup, my body is fucked up and i have nothing else to do

 

[Douggy82]

Anyone else bedrotting because they were targeted by the deep state?

 

[Harrier]

Been doing that for three weeks.

Today, actually made a list, got up, and checked 3 off of it (kind of).

Also accomplished something not on my list - serendipity.

Got two left.

So, basically - I am living day by day.

It might not work

But it is a start.