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FrankieMay

FrankieMay

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May 21, 2019
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Just wondering if anyone else had imminent plans?
How are you feeling, preparing etc?
Would be nice to be able to talk to people at the same stage as me
 
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Imgonnahangmyself

Student
May 25, 2019
150
I don't know when I'll do it. Could be tomorrow could be next month. Defiantly want to die before my 20th in September
 
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toolateforme

Student
Jul 2, 2018
158
Doing it today, can't wait. The day can't go by any faster !!
 
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jake3d

Enlightened
May 29, 2019
1,033
If my stuff comes thru, then yes, I plan to exit this month as well.
 
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Karangel25

Experienced
Mar 9, 2019
206
Yup. After next week
 
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Faraway1990

Faraway1990

Student
Jun 2, 2019
195
This is my birthday month I've decided to do it about a week before my birthday I don't want to ruin any other month or holiday for anyone. I'm getting my night night stuff ready I've modified it a little for my own sake of mind.
 
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that_guy2611

that_guy2611

Student
Mar 17, 2018
183
Me, just like every other goddamn month. I'm numb to it until it's go time, then i tell myself i could try again later.
 
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Robbyna

Robbyna

Student
Mar 6, 2019
182
I want to. I'm shooting for the 23, but I'm not sure it'll be that day. Im not going to force myself; I'm only going if I'm ready.
 
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FrankieMay

FrankieMay

Member
May 21, 2019
37
Wow quite a few of us. I hope everyone finds peace with whatever happens.
I think if I can't go through with it on my chosen date im going to try and Get some help
 
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planmd

Member
May 20, 2019
55
Hopefully this week, finally.
 
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lone3wolf7

Member
May 16, 2019
45
Just wondering if anyone else had imminent plans?
How are you feeling, preparing etc?
Would be nice to be able to talk to people at the same stage as me
To be honest... I hope it's this month if everything goes well... but I was not sure what to prepare .... what are your preparations, plans etc ???
 
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FrankieMay

FrankieMay

Member
May 21, 2019
37
To be honest... I hope it's this month if everything goes well... but I was not sure what to prepare .... what are your preparations, plans etc ???
Almost got everything together for sn, booked a hotel room, wrote letters to family. Just this waiting until the planned date is so hard knowing i have the sn already...
I also want to get out the house and clear my mind until the day, I'm going crazy! Last time I was abroad, it was hot and I could laze around in parks or wander around the city; not in the uk...
Have you started anything like that?
 
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medicinenightmares

medicinenightmares

Member
Jun 11, 2019
65
My plan is to ctb on June 18, which is my 21st birthday. I'm going to get pissed drunk, take some pills to calm me down and go to a bridge in Vancouver that is only a little bit shorter than the Golden Gate Bridge.

I'm really scared and unsure, but I know I have to do it.
 
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lone3wolf7

Member
May 16, 2019
45
Almost got everything together for sn, booked a hotel room, wrote letters to family. Just this waiting until the planned date is so hard knowing i have the sn already...
I also want to get out the house and clear my mind until the day, I'm going crazy! Last time I was abroad, it was hot and I could laze around in parks or wander around the city; not in the uk...
Have you started anything like that?

I am away from my family. I can't see them.. I dont want to actually... that will change my mind temporarily... if I may ask, may I know how old you are ?

I have not started anything as I am still waiting for my order. I plan to wipe everything off my phone.. clean my room.. call to friends and family and say some hopeful words. I am still thinking whether I should write a note ? Will the law enforcement even respect it ? I dont want my corpse to be sent back home as I am in another country. Will they respect it ??

I am also afraid about leaving a note. I would definitely specify some people and that would create trauma for them. I dont want to do that intentionally... what do you think ? Any suggestions ?
 
FrankieMay

FrankieMay

Member
May 21, 2019
37
I am away from my family. I can't see them.. I dont want to actually... that will change my mind temporarily... if I may ask, may I know how old you are ?

I have not started anything as I am still waiting for my order. I plan to wipe everything off my phone.. clean my room.. call to friends and family and say some hopeful words. I am still thinking whether I should write a note ? Will the law enforcement even respect it ? I dont want my corpse to be sent back home as I am in another country. Will they respect it ??

I am also afraid about leaving a note. I would definitely specify some people and that would create trauma for them. I dont want to do that intentionally... what do you think ? Any suggestions ?
Im 25 you? Do you mind me asking why you don't want to see your family? I live with my parents, moved back in after university last September, hence getting a hotel

Im doing a personal note to each member of my family instead of calling, I find it easier. I've also given them a song that reminds me of them/ says goodbye. I think calling would be more traumatic? Or do you not intend to reveal your intentions?
I can't imagine the police respecting any wishes at all, but I'm going to leave a note for them too, might as well try
My plan is to ctb on June 18, which is my 21st birthday. I'm going to get pissed drunk, take some pills to calm me down and go to a bridge in Vancouver that is only a little bit shorter than the Golden Gate Bridge.

I'm really scared and unsure, but I know I have to do it.
Please make sure you're sure

I know it doesn't mean much but congrats and well done for making it to 21.i hope you can find a way to do one last fun thing before the bridge, it's your birthday after all :)
 
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DyingWitsie

Member
May 19, 2019
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My plan is to ctb on June 18, which is my 21st birthday. I'm going to get pissed drunk, take some pills to calm me down and go to a bridge in Vancouver that is only a little bit shorter than the Golden Gate Bridge.

I'm really scared and unsure, but I know I have to do it.
Please, as one of the members said, make sure you are sure. I planned to ctb on the same day as you for months now. But, im going to stall it for a while. Why, because i almost died practising for SWB. I did this while overdosing benzos, dextromethorphan hydrobromide and antiemetics with occasional weed smoking. Although, i was "practising" i also hoped that i succeeded in ctbing. As one of the threads read, "dying is not easy" you can survive quite a lot, not sure about a shotgun to the head, so i wish you do this with planning and certainty. I was certain that my family would have interfered with my attempt, they did interfer during the "practising", so i relaxed b4 i became a vegetable and decided to try at a different time when im sure that no one can do anything b4 its too late. And just a note, try not to be afraid, maybe listen to music. But from my experience, fear does not help in passing the point of no return. Try to focus on being grateful for death during the experience, thats how i processed my body not recieving enough oxgen. I turned back because i feared becoming a vegetable, still do. So be sure and i wish you find what you are seeking. "Be never afraid and the consequence opens the door" Slipknot- till we die.
 
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FrankieMay

FrankieMay

Member
May 21, 2019
37
Just so you guys know, I just had my 30mg meto and will hopefully be at peace soon. If you don't hear from me in 3 weeks you'll know what happened x
 
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Karangel25

Experienced
Mar 9, 2019
206
Just so you guys know, I just had my 30mg meto and will hopefully be at peace soon. If you don't hear from me in 3 weeks you'll know what happened x
You took the 30 grams of sn?
 
dandan

dandan

One more attempt on life.
Feb 18, 2019
1,298
Farewell, if I loose hope I'll be joining ta soon, gotta kick it/try it(life) one more time.
 
littlelady774

littlelady774

running on empty
Dec 20, 2018
708
Gonna be 27 soon.
I'll probably join the 27 club lol
 
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dandan

One more attempt on life.
Feb 18, 2019
1,298
Gonna be 27 soon.
I'll probably join the 27 club lol
I did also thought that once, 11 years ago.... Whatever ... The worst was being in the middle , undecided, confused.... Now I'm trying to enjoy what's left, I really don't know how much time I've got left.... Could be a day could be years... I dunno
Just so you guys know, I just had my 30mg meto and will hopefully be at peace soon. If you don't hear from me in 3 weeks you'll know what happened x
How is it going?
 
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Alec

Wizard
Apr 22, 2019
681
Just so you guys know, I just had my 30mg meto and will hopefully be at peace soon. If you don't hear from me in 3 weeks you'll know what happened x
I wish you everything the best!❤️
 
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WinterIsComing

WinterIsComing

Fragile...
May 27, 2019
256
I'm planning for my birthday or around it... Not this month
 
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KMS74381996

Member
Jun 13, 2019
25
I'm on day five of my plan. Im not eating at all. I know it takes awhile for this to work but I want to suffer. So I just keep thinking that I can do this because hunger is not that bad. I really don't like to eat much anymore anyways. I'm just making sure others aren't monitoring my food intake for now. Good luck to you and hope you find peace
 
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dandan

One more attempt on life.
Feb 18, 2019
1,298
I'm on day five of my plan. Im not eating at all. I know it takes awhile for this to work but I want to suffer. So I just keep thinking that I can do this because hunger is not that bad. I really don't like to eat much anymore anyways. I'm just making sure others aren't monitoring my food intake for now. Good luck to you and hope you find peace
such a bad attempt, come on , really? whats your plan? starving to death and not dying, you are in for a nice huge hospital bill.... which you didnt asked for in the first place.... cant say good luck on such a plan(well I dont know your plan, unless you plan something else besides no eating)
 
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KMS74381996

Member
Jun 13, 2019
25
such a bad attempt, come on , really? whats your plan? starving to death and not dying, you are in for a nice huge hospital bill.... which you didnt asked for in the first place.... cant say good luck on such a plan(well I dont know your plan, unless you plan something else besides no eating)
I don't plan on getting caught not eating. I can't be in the hospital if no one knows what I'm doing. It's very easy to hide eating. I plan to let my body shut down from lack of food yes. Everyone does something different. To each their own I guess.
 
Faraway1990

Faraway1990

Student
Jun 2, 2019
195
I don't plan on getting caught not eating. I can't be in the hospital if no one knows what I'm doing. It's very easy to hide eating. I plan to let my body shut down from lack of food yes. Everyone does something different. To each their own I guess.
This could go on for a while especially if you're drinking fluids, why would you want to put yourself through that? Surely you can afford to get a more dignified way to CTB?
 
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KMS74381996

Member
Jun 13, 2019
25
This could go on for a while especially if you're drinking fluids, why would you want to put yourself through that? Surely you can afford to get a more dignified way to CTB?
I can afford it but why waste anything on myself. I guess I just really hate myself and I don't really care if I suffer or not. At the end of the day it will accomplish my goal. That's all that I care about.
 
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andy69

Experienced
May 23, 2019
292
I am waiting for August or September.
 
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