Anyone else partly wants to ctb because all they see ahead is mediocrity?

[Exhausted546]

I don't feel like it's worth it anymore. Of course that's not the only reason, there's alot more to it but mediocrity isn't motivating to me, it'd just be prolonging the inevitable.

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

Yeah. My mind got weird in youth, I whiffed my opportunities. I have nothing going for me--mediocrity would take a miraculous recovery. I'm 36, the decline has clearly started, and I'm a child-man. I am tortured by the countless mistakes I've made. Shame dominates my every thought.

I know I developed a weak, vicious personality. And I have paid dearly for it. I just want the punishment to stop.

 

[PapaYeehaw]

It's hard to even want to try because it seems impossible to get ahead in this economy. Being told my generation is gonna have to work until we die makes me want to just get it over with

 

[itsgone2]

It's hard to even want to try because it seems impossible to get ahead in this economy. Being told my generation is gonna have to work until we die makes me want to just get it over with

Yes I'd be freaked out at your age about this. But I'm older and it scares me too
What's the point? Companies don't give a crap about their people. Why even try???

 

[strawb15]

Yeah I feel like I always had this issue of being alright at a few things but being really good at nothing, so a lot of times I lack this sense of accomplishment or being proud of something. It feels like if I keep living like this I won't ever feel fulfilled or content with life.

 

[violetforever]

my life is literally nothing. there wouldn't be much of a loss if i ended it.

 

[MyLifeisHell]

Lol I'd fucking take mediocrity at this point.

 

[idontknowwhatiam]

I don't feel like it's worth it anymore. Of course that's not the only reason, there's alot more to it but mediocrity isn't motivating to me, it'd just be prolonging the inevitable.

I could live with mediocrity...... I'm well below that point now....

 

[Exhausted546]

Lol I'd fucking take mediocrity at this point.

I admire you for that. I guess I'm super privileged, i can still finish my degree and find work down the road with enough efforts while working a dead end job in the meantime but I'm already exhausted by life. I struggled for the past decade after some traumatic events extinguished my fire. I have no strength to fight + I'm unwilling to struggle simply to survive and live a mediocre life.

I could live with mediocrity...... I'm well below that point now....

What do you mean exactly?

 

[MyLifeisHell]

I admire you for that. I guess I'm super privileged, i can still finish my degree and find work down the road with enough efforts while working a dead end job in the meantime but I'm already exhausted by life. I struggled for the past decade after some traumatic events extinguished my fire. I have no strength to fight + I'm unwilling to struggle simply to survive and live a mediocre life.

What do you mean exactly?

What are defining as mediocre? Because it sounds like you're conflating average with mediocrity when they're distinct things. As much as this sounds like cope the truth is that more than any other way we succeed at life by trying to be our best selves even if is not realistic to fully embrace that 24/7 and not struggle with it.

Of course it's fully understandable if none of it feels worth it. Obviously.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Both that mediocrity isn't worth the effort but then also that achieving more may not be worth the effort also. I have achieved some of the things I was working towards and, they didn't make me feel any better. So, it's more like- is anything worth the effort? For me.

My conclusion was more that if I could become more content with a more mediocre standard, maybe I would be more content. Being free of such burning ambition has been nice but then- even mediocrity requires a lot of maintenance.

 

[madwoman]

Not sure if I'll be understanding this correctly but I'm answering by what I think this means. I feel like my life is worse than mediocre bc of how I feel everyday. I work a basic job that's not fulfilling and I don't have the skills or mindset or drive to do something better or create a legacy or change for the world, I don't do much for fun mostly just read and watch movies/tv to escape my life, I do some social things and get outside ever so often but they leave me feeling worse once I'm alone again, I'm lonely with no partner and no self worth or energy to find one, I'm not close with anyone and things are just getting worse as I age. My future looks really bleak bc I'm at a point where I just don't have the drive to do anything anymore to try and make my life better and I don't want to spend the rest of my life feeling the way I do knowing it's just going to keep getting worse.