How self-rightous of you! How do you know I have it better than people that work? I spend most of my time laying in bed wishing it would all end. It's people with your attitude that cause people that live on benefits to kill themselves. We already feel shitty enough, like leeches, we don't need someone like you invalidating our emotions and feelings just because we CAN'T work. Notice how I said can't and not won't. I wish I was able. But I'm not. I grew up in a conservative, Christian home. I was taught to "pull yourself up by the bootstraps" and all that other bullshit
And after ten years of working, I lost my ability to hold a job. I got bad work reviews, 40/100 bad. Eventually, I just stopped showing up, couldn't get out of bed. Disability has been a life send. And you can't judge someone elses suffering, how bad someone else has it just because they don't work. Id say if you can still work, you're not too bad off, but I wont take the road youve taken and assume that. Have fun on your high horse.
To give benefit of the doubt that you're not just looking for people to *argue* with I don't understand what you're 'attacking me for when we are basically on similar terms. I forced myself to work when it was possible as I didn't imagine I was disabled because I can walk and jesus loved me blah blah. And after ten years I am so worn down that I'm like an 90 year old man at late 20`s.
And I was saying disability is why I'm here enables me to have a pretty darn fair standard of living and I used things like netflix to draw away from my mental and physical health issues.
You are just attacking me for no reason, are you trying to be like a bully of the forum, unnecessarily targeting people and in alot of cases probably emotionally harm some people. Anyone can see my post was basically saying everyone's the same and suffers (other than the elite) but you say I'm on a high horse, ridiculous.
When we see someone quoted our post we expect a pleasant feeling of interacting with like minded people, not just being abused.
I've lived a lot of shit since my childhood and I'm already too tired to continue, I don't want to do anything or make an effort in anything, it doesn't give me the mind for more.
I can never be that person that I always thought I could be. it was only a dream
I wonder if there is something medically proven surrounding energy and suicidal ideation... As for example I am in very poor physical health the same as my grandmother who's in her late 80's, yet she has so much more energy to do things like cooking, house chores, socialising etc. All I have the energy to do is to do as little as possible... In which case I get accused of beig lazy by other disabled people who do so much more activities than me, so I wonder if I am but when I try either can't, literally or become so low mood that I lose my control over my mental health.
Used to be when I was in my early 20s. Got old super fast because meds didn't work and getting a government check for $550 a month didn't cut it. Got off of it, got off the medicines after 5 years and went back to school. Now I make $550 in 2 days, unmedicated, and still broken.
Well done, that's some doing, so if you've gone through that, you can achieve whatever your interpretation of being 'fixed' maybe.
People who only suffer from depression don't know how good they have it. They should try a day in my head. Watching them blow their brains out afterward would satisfy my anger.
It's not a competition...
If this week is rougher than usual I understand you may be venting because existence is cruel and I empathize but if you are genuinely demeaning all people with depression you need to change your thinking pattern or you'll be damaging yourself and those around you. I'm only speaking from experience as in bad episodes I've been in your mentality also have schizophrenia, anxiety, hyper vigilance and a period of agoraphobia.
i would love to try but i honestly doubt i would be eligable. Either because im not ""retarted"" enough or ""depressed" enough
My friend you are sincerely on a forum discussing your wish to commit suicide. By anyone's moral capacity you qualify.
Unfortunately the system is set up so it makes it easy for people who are till to fake it. Most well off drug dealers, even some barons who are millionaires claim disability as a contributing factor front for their income. There is a bucket of money to dish out and unfortunately most medical assessors will give you as little as they possibly can so you can't hold back.... If you're the sort of person who says "well I try to see the best in life" DON'T you need to be watched at all times by famiky/friends support network to ensure you don't hurt yourself.
Make an issue of having people in your life... This sick corrupt system picks on people it thinks won't be able to fight back so if you say you're a loner and your assessor has no empathy they will cross you off as an easy target to keep the money you're entitled too on the pot.
