Anyone else just stuck watching there dreams burn to the ground?

[Csmith8827]

That new place you want to live, those new hobbies you want to pick up, etc. etc...that place that you want to visit/travel to? That surgery you want to have,? Does anyone else struggle and wrestle with God/Satan to try and make there dreams come true? It's like these forces just purposefully want to keep us down and depressed or stressed out so we can't accomplish anything that's inside our heart's. It's truly sinister and evil. It's like this thing wants to break your heart and watch you fail. It feeds off negativity and emotional distress. It gets off on calamity and mishap/failure. It's sole mission is to try to make you suffer or live an unfulfilling life. Does anyone else get this vibe? It almost makes me want to ctb... what could be so evil?

 

[33-vertebrae]

That's what I feel like too... It's crazy to be so simultaneously ambitious and yet lack the executive function to do anything.

And the depression is just insane.

It does feel like a force, or an egregore perhaps, is looming over me.

I wish I could find a solution, or just die in my sleep.

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

Everyone's dreams are burning to the ground because society is burning to the ground. Humans need to go extinct.

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[platypus77]

Living with undiagnosed ADHD for 30+ and possibly PPD (this is one more like a bonus damage) watching this film.

Depression and anxiety that comes with ADHD robbed me everything I managed to built in life, because I was unable to maintain it.

I saw all hopes and dreams I had as young boy fade away one by one until this year I realized none was left.

 

[nogods4me]

Yep...it's been years but things just keep getting worse.

 

[blacksand]

I had a job, internship, girlfriend, we shared an apartment in the city. This was in 2019. It was taken away when we split up and I ran out of money and I have spent early 2020 until now living with my parents and realizing bit by bit that I will never leave this small town. I lack the money, I lack the drive, I lack the skills to make the escape now. Even if I get out I know on some level that things will never again be as good as what they were. I've just seen enough. Lived long enough. When things like MDMA or heroin fail to provide euphoria you know the depression is very real.

 

[tomyumgoong]

That new place you want to live, those new hobbies you want to pick up, etc. etc...that place that you want to visit/travel to? That surgery you want to have,? Does anyone else struggle and wrestle with God/Satan to try and make there dreams come true? It's like these forces just purposefully want to keep us down and depressed or stressed out so we can't accomplish anything that's inside our heart's. It's truly sinister and evil. It's like this thing wants to break your heart and watch you fail. It feeds off negativity and emotional distress. It gets off on calamity and mishap/failure. It's sole mission is to try to make you suffer or live an unfulfilling life. Does anyone else get this vibe? It almost makes me want to ctb... what could be so evil?

Absolutely. It's disheartening.

 

[danny10]

I was living my dream. I worked for 10 years in diplomacy, having a great salary and a loving family. Then all of a sudden, depression kicked the door in, along with it came anxiety, no sleep, etc. Fast forward a few months and I pretty much lost everything from apartement to money and they fired me from my job. Ever since I'm a wrack with no enjoyment in life. Hence the reason I wanna CTB.

 

[Forever Sleep]

It's more that I've set fire to my dreams because I realised they wouldn't likely make me any happier. The: not having to try so hard, not living with a sense of terrible longing and failure has been a nice break. Still, life (unfortunately) still goes on and it's still hard work and stressful to maintain where I am- even without attempting to climb higher. So, it's still a whole pile of crap really.

 

[bananaolympus]

Yeah i had lot of things i wanted to do, many places i wanted to travel, activities i wanted to do those things now look like fantasies

 

[Boots2Scoots]

Honestly busted my ass and worked hard to achieve all the things I have now. Supportive GF, awesome career path, and could finally afford to live the way I wanted. But I suppose I was always meant to blow it all to bits and I did. Now I'm just a ticking time bomb. Finally had myself pulled from my depression and felt good about where life was taking me. After so many years of struggling. Now I'm on a timer and it's either gonna be me that takes it all away or another entity that strips me of my freedoms.

 

[MercenariesofMidgar]

I think if I purposely destroy my life it will make it easier to leave this mortal shell. But it doesn't stop it from hurting seeing it all crumble. I used to break down thinking about it, but I try to put that energy into finding my method.

 

[outofbounds]

I know exactly what you're talking about. When I was in secondary school, I had a plan for my life, but I started feeling off in the last year or so of it. Then I pretty much lost control of my life for a year, and haven't been able to fully recover. Now I'm scared to get back into my career of choice, and I'm lacking energy and motivation for the other things I want to do as well.