Anyone else just completely and mind numbingly bored

[Pure]

I feel like I'm just in a waiting game. I really really want to ctb (SN lol) but I have to wait until October because I'm not that heartless to kill myself before a wedding I need to go to for family.

It's hard for me to do anything. I'm envious of people who can still act normal and sociable for months on end before passing on. I feel like a zombie, I can't even be around anyone because of how much I suck life out of the room.

The only thing I can do is use Twitter because of the low intention span required. Even watching TV is too much effort.

I used to hyperfixate on things to give me that little dopamine rush...right now it's been looking up what people say about SS but even that's been thoroughly exhausted. So what now? Life sucks, my dad just came over to tell me that I'm a socially isolated loser with no friends (to summarize)....idk why he was talking to me as if I'm retarded. I'm actually self aware enough to have known for years now that I'm a socially isolated loser with no friends. Lol I'm 24 years old and thoroughly pathetic and bored.

If I had killed myself years back, I would have spared myself of this grief.

 

[suisuiforum]

Literally so much of this describes me, even the part about obsessively browsing SS because nothing else gives me any form of happiness anymore. I'm practically rotting away, and I also want to CTB but I have to wait for a while before that's feasible for me. I wish I stumbled upon this site earlier and learned about effective methods, because there were other good moments in the past, but now I'll have to postpone when I do it. I'm also incredibly socially isolated by my own choosing, because the alternative of excessive social stimulation would also drive me insane. I believe I really understand your pain because of my own experiences, and I wish neither of us felt this way.

 

[Lost Magic]

I had the best sleep the other night. It was the best one I have had in a long time. I felt at complete peace. Then I woke up. I do still enjoy music, chatting online, games and such but I do feel bored of it all. Entertainment is just about killing time. So I ask myself, why not just end it all completely? If death is just like eternal sleep I would be more than happy.

 

[Pure]

Literally so much of this describes me, even the part about obsessively browsing SS because nothing else gives me any form of happiness anymore. I'm practically rotting away, and I also want to CTB but I have to wait for a while before that's feasible for me. I wish I stumbled upon this site earlier and learned about effective methods, because there were other good moments in the past, but now I'll have to postpone when I'll do it. I'm also incredibly socially isolated by my own choosing, because the alternative of excessive social stimulation would also drive me insane. I believe I really understand your pain because of my own experiences, and I wish neither of us felt this way.

It makes me feel 1000x better to know I'm not the only one who feels this way. Not that I'm happy that there are people who are as miserable as me, but more so that I'm not the only who knows how it feels.

I had the best sleep the other night. It was the best one I have had in a long time. I felt at complete peace. Then I woke up. I do still enjoy music, chatting online, games and such but I do feel bored of it all. Entertainment is just about killing time. So I ask myself, why not just end it all completely? If death is just like eternal sleep I would be more than happy.

I understand you 100%. I had that thought this morning actually. Sleep is the only time I feel remotely normal. Especially the few minutes right after I wake up. (ps I used to have had insomnia but it's more or less gone after I began a regiment of gabapentin, 15-25mg thc edible, and a melatonin vape pen.) I'd like to conceive of death as sleep...just as peaceful...unless the abrahamics are right and I'm actually going to burn in hell for offing myself.

 

[Lost Magic]

It makes me feel 1000x better to know I'm not the only one who feels this way. Not that I'm happy that there are people who are as miserable as me, but more so that I'm not the only who knows how it feels.

I understand you 100%. I had that thought this morning actually. Sleep is the only time I feel remotely normal. Especially the few minutes right after I wake up. (ps I used to have had insomnia but it's more or less gone after I began a regiment of gabapentin, 15-25mg thc edible, and a melatonin vape pen.) I'd like to conceive of death as sleep...just as peaceful...unless the abrahamics are right and I'm actually going to burn in hell for offing myself.

If you believe in the ancient books of bullshit then you have even bigger problems. But anyway, glad you managed to find something that has cured your insomnia. I know how that feels as well btw

 

[motel rooms]

unless the abrahamics are right and I'm actually going to burn in hell for offing myself.

Jewish people don't believe in hell. Pretty, pretty hilarious since they invented that Abrahamic monotheistic crap & sold it to Christians & Muslims

 

[ClownMe]

Me

 

[hʚll]

kinda same. for some reasons i can't kill myself in the next 2/3 weeks so i'm just rotting in bed, constantly thinking about how cruel the world is and how much injustice there is. it makes me sick, always scared and in great despair. there's no peace. even sleeping is horrible. so sad and angry that everyone is suffering and even tho death somehow brings some comfort, it's still difficult to accept what we all have been subjected to. because death even won't make up for the pain of having existed. there was no good reason for this all to happen.
peace to you all

 

[FuneralCry]

Yes, I can relate. I simply do not like living and I do not have any energy or interest in this life. Living is repetitive and tedious and all we are doing is passing time until we die. It is all pointless. I would love to fall into an eternal sleep.

 

[Celerity]

Same. There is very, very little that occupies me anymore. I almost died 5 years ago, and I wish I had.

 

[Less_Negative]

Jewish people don't believe in hell. Pretty, pretty hilarious since they invented that Abrahamic monotheistic crap & sold it to Christians & Muslims

Pretty sure they do, though.

Tzoah Rotachat - Wikipedia

en.wikipedia.org

 

[Alwaysbadtime]

Been bored for decades. It's worse now. I hate all tv, movies, music, reading and games. I have nothing positive to add to any conversation.