Anyone else is incapable to maintain a relationship?

[ctoan]

like man i ruined so many relationships including with the one woman i really loved

but i didnt do it bc of bad intention but to safe myself..like in those moments my behavior made perfectly sense to me and seemed to be justified...but looking back i realised i acted weird and antisocial

 

[Final Escape]

like man i ruined so many relationships including with the one woman i really loved

but i didnt do it bc of bad intention but to safe myself..like in those moments my behavior made perfectly sense to me and seemed to be justified...but looking back i realised i acted weird and antisocial

Yes story of my whole life :("

 

[Angst Filled Fuck Up]

I seem to get into them very easily, but keeping them running is a different story entirely. When all my flaws surface, the girls go running. I don't blame them in the least.

 

[GeorgeEastman]

Ship sailed on that a long time ago. Really if you make it through college and don't find anyone, it's too late.

I'm thankful at this point. I can't even stand myself. Should be against the law for me to subject anyone else to it and damn sure should be against the law for people like me to breed.

Pass this shit on? LOL, just so thankful I didn't and won't.

 

[Taylored]

My relationships always went fine until I just lost interest I guess and everybody ended up leaving me because of it.

 

[Ben]

My definition of a "relationship" was changed once I came here.

Before? If I had to justify a relationship with you to a friend, I would have to explain how dee I actually know you.

Do we not all appreciate the fact we Immedialy have a common ground here? We all want to die here. There is no room for debate.

I'm a PRO CHOCIE supporter. What does that mean? It means I support your choice. You wanna die? Fine

You wann live? Fine

The only responsibility I gave myself when I joined this forum is. BE REAL.

I truly belive most of us have a right to
Die...but...if you don't think you have a choice...at LEAST do me the favour of giving us a chance to save you

Honesty FUCK anybody who treats this forum as a support for death! This place is a place of support, so while you have to respect ones wish to die, it doesn't mean you have to give up on them

This place was not founded on making it easier for people to die. If a mod, or anybody wants to challenge me on that, I'll leave.

I want everyone here to live. I respect your choice if you want to die. Fuck with me on that, you cant

 

[weedoge]

like man i ruined so many relationships including with the one woman i really loved

but i didnt do it bc of bad intention but to safe myself..like in those moments my behavior made perfectly sense to me and seemed to be justified...but looking back i realised i acted weird and antisocial

Hiya yes I've ruined every single relationship or friendship I've ever had. I think for a number of reasons, fear of being hated combined with a mild but persistent paranoia that was more present when dealing with groups of friends. I would self sabotage very quickly whenever things started to get to me because it was easier to end a relationship than deal with it sensibly, my thoughts would be wild and uncontrollable and it's very easy for me to get stuck in a pattern with certain people. I gave up with them a long time ago and have lived a pretty isolated quiet life for almost a couple of years now.

My definition of a "relationship" was changed once I came here.

Before? If I had to justify a relationship with you to a friend, I would have to explain how dee I actually know you.

Do we not all appreciate the fact we Immedialy have a common ground here? We all want to die here. There is no room for debate.

I'm a PRO CHOCIE supporter. What does that mean? It means I support your choice. You wanna die? Fine

You wann live? Fine

The only responsibility I gave myself when I joined this forum is. BE REAL.

I truly belive most of us have a right to
Die...but...if you don't think you have a choice...at LEAST do me the favour of giving us a chance to save you

Honesty FUCK anybody who treats this forum as a support for death! This place is a place of support, so while you have to respect ones wish to die, it doesn't mean you have to give up on them

This place was not founded on making it easier for people to die. If a mod, or anybody wants to challenge me on that, I'll leave.

I want everyone here to live. I respect your choice if you want to die. Fuck with me on that, you cant

Actually, this is a pretty negative response from me I'll admit but no I don't appreciate that we all have a common ground. I definitely appreciate a person once I've begun to have interactions with them but, for example, if I were to make a goodbye post and somebody that I had never interacted with responded, that would seem a little bit fake to me. It wouldn't be important at all, it's just the way I feel and I don't want to get sucked into any magical thinking just because we all feel the same way about life. We're all still also suffering from the human condition.

I see this place as kind of like a harm reduction website, people can inform themselves on the truth of how certain methods will affect them and be aware of the implications of the actions they plan to take and also yes, it makes it easier to die for those who truly want to die, it makes it easier for them to achieve death rather than vegetablism.

Hope you're well as can be.

 

[LifeSick]

My definition of a "relationship" was changed once I came here.

Before? If I had to justify a relationship with you to a friend, I would have to explain how dee I actually know you.

Do we not all appreciate the fact we Immedialy have a common ground here? We all want to die here. There is no room for debate.

I'm a PRO CHOCIE supporter. What does that mean? It means I support your choice. You wanna die? Fine

You wann live? Fine

The only responsibility I gave myself when I joined this forum is. BE REAL.

I truly belive most of us have a right to
Die...but...if you don't think you have a choice...at LEAST do me the favour of giving us a chance to save you

Honesty FUCK anybody who treats this forum as a support for death! This place is a place of support, so while you have to respect ones wish to die, it doesn't mean you have to give up on them

This place was not founded on making it easier for people to die. If a mod, or anybody wants to challenge me on that, I'll leave.

I want everyone here to live. I respect your choice if you want to die. Fuck with me on that, you cant

Well said man. I don't think anybody will challenge that.

 

[bunny]

i am very good at starting things, but i am very afraid of people that mean well. because of my history with being abused throughout most of my life, i often alienate or become destructive in relationships. i do feel lonely... but i don't know how to love. love frightens and hurts me.

 

[Susannah]

I haven't been in a relationship in 6 years now. For the first time in my life, I "gave myself away" to another person. He was nice at first, great sex. After a while he told my he used to be a heavy drug addict and a violent criminal. In our relationship, he would disappear for days, doing drugs, fucking around. I was mentally stronger than he was. It pissed him off. Somehow (contacts) he pulled some strings, and managed to get me hospitalized in psychiatric for 3 weeks.

I used to work as a journalist, being very idealistic, but this traumatising incident destroyed everything I believed in. I completely lost my belief in society, people and human rights. I trust nobody, not even my family. My fear for relations is isolating, but it's what I prefer. Can't really talk to anybody about my feelings, my longing for death, negative thoughts with anybody in real life, except you guys, so thanks.

 

[mothfly]

Love is weird tbh. At least, to my brain. Like, I keep falling in love, acting almost psycho and obsessed, then denying it and realising it's nothing really after all. And after few days it's gone. Moreover, in my case I feel like there's not really a point in a relationship if you're suicidal. Once you're with someone long enough, the bond between you both starts getting stronger and stronger to the point you don't kill yourself because of your loved one. Love sucks lol.

 

[ctoan]

i feel so sorry for the other people

its sad how i hurt people that i care about but am like a lamb to people who shit on me

sad might be the wrong word, pathetic is more fitting actually

 

[throwaway123]

I don't want to burden someone with my suffering so I just push everyone away. I don't think I'm good enough for anyone.


I've never loved anyone in my life. Love, I don't know what that is. I grew up with hate and anger. It's all I've ever known.

I am simply incapable of loving someone else. This is probably the biggest reason as to why I want to die.

 

[CJM]

I left my last relationship a couple of months back. She is a really really cool person and I'll always respect her, but after dad died in April and hitting my lowest point in June, I didn't want to burden her with anything so I called it quits, was a tough decision to make but it had to be done and I needed to reset myself my own way.

 

[ctoan]

im so sad

i ruined everything and i dont have anyone to blame myself

im a disgusting piece of shit - even now i can feel nothing but self pity


i should give more than i take but i do the opposite. i a only bring misery. im not a man. im a whiny failure

 

[mothfly]

I am simply incapable of loving someone else. This is probably the biggest reason as to why I want to die.

Exactly, same here. The closest feeling similar to love I experience is feeling hurt because of the other person, even though they love me back. Actually, it's even worse if they do love me back. Thinking about it, the only emotion love brings to me is pain.

 

[Bringmepeace]

I've had 2 proper relationships in my time and both I can say that the aspergers was more then likely the cause of the separations, when I look back on it most of it was all my fault. So unemployable,undatable, unsociable and a bit of a c**t. Well done random human genorator, had a great laugh making me!

 

[406blue]

I don't want to burden someone with my suffering so I just push everyone away. I don't think I'm good enough for anyone.


I've never loved anyone in my life. Love, I don't know what that is. I grew up with hate and anger. It's all I've ever known.

I am simply incapable of loving someone else. This is probably the biggest reason as to why I want to die.

Incapacity for honestly accepting or showing affection, let alone love is pretty crippling. I agree this is a major component of finding myself here.

 

[406blue]

The longer it goes on the worse it gets by the reinforcement. I have lost count of the number of clever, attractive women who tried to get something going. Something just shuts down inside me, the door slamming shut a bit harder each time. The couple of occasions where something has happened due to the sheer perseverance of the other person, it's been pretty disastrous. By now it has extended to a general misanthropy. As someone else mentioned, fear of rejection, lack of trust is a major component of this for me, childhood shit and all that.

Culturally we are conditioned to believe that if we don't find a partner we are already deficient. But love is a critical part of being human and balanced, not just for people also ourselves and the rest of the fucking universe.

The general human relationship issue i think is more important that the love between two partners thing. I know plenty of people in what seem quite unloving relationships who seem to get along well enough for it to provide some balance in their lives.

Anyway, it's a good thread, i expect there will be a lot of other posters.

 

[406blue]

like man i ruined so many relationships including with the one woman i really loved

but i didnt do it bc of bad intention but to safe myself..like in those moments my behavior made perfectly sense to me and seemed to be justified...but looking back i realised i acted weird and antisocial

The looking back is hard, it's the looking forward and realising that nothing is going to change that's harder.

 

[ctoan]

actually i can blame my mom and upbrising wheni think about it

protestant calvinistic household - literally no love, no conversation in the family, only job and education counts