Discussion Anyone else here with Aspergers?

[tomz323]

Just got diagnosed at 22 with Aspergers (Nice to know whats finally wrong with me I guess) and wanted to see if anyone else has this condition and how you manage to live with it? (Poor choice of words? I guess that's why we're here)

 

[Vegrau]

Its great to be able to get diagnose. Here in 3rd world country you can only rely on self diagnose. No one wants to talk about mental health they act like its something that never exist. I may have asperger. But dont know to what extent. Some of the criteria fits me. But I dont know if I am.

 

[tomz323]

Its great to be able to get diagnose. Here in 3rd world country you can only rely on self diagnose. No one wants to talk about mental health they act like its something that never exist. I may have asperger. But dont know to what extent. Some of the criteria fits me. But I dont know if I am.

Yeah, I always thought that I did. The doctor just confirmed it today.

 

[Vegrau]

Yeah, I always thought that I did. The doctor just confirmed it today.

I see. May I ask what prompt you to think that you are an asperger?

 

[Apostle]

Not diagnosed officially but I am certain I have it, I have just about every symptom in spades. As for how I live with it, well, these days I really don't. Have pretty much succumbed to it along with the rest of the problems I have, which is part of why I'm here.

In the past, though, I would cope by using my mind to escape whatever situation I was in, whether by retreating into my imagination, or by planning or pondering something, while ignoring the uncomfortable social setting around me. It was extremely important that I had a couple of friends who actually understood and liked me, so that I had someone to connect with. I'd also spend a lot of time trying to be creative so I could feel a sense of release and self-expression. Helped me feel a bit more comfortable and fulfilled.

Overtime, though, those techniques lost their luster for me, became harder to apply, and now do nothing. Plus I ruined the last of my friendships which also caused the destruction of my life's work, killing any passion I once had for creating. So I'm really not in any position to be answering this question.

 

[SomebodyBroken]

Its great to be able to get diagnose. Here in 3rd world country you can only rely on self diagnose. No one wants to talk about mental health they act like its something that never exist. I may have asperger. But dont know to what extent. Some of the criteria fits me. But I dont know if I am.

self-diagnosis is sad. but yes. I agree, there is no choice) I had an obsessive compulsive disorder on some topics that I did not take seriously. after solving the problem, now I don't know why to live any longer) well, I plan ctb xD

 

[Lost Soul]

I think I have some kind of autism. I'm too lazy to go to a psychiatrist. It doesn't really matter, because I already know that I'm a genetic trash. I'm average looking and I'm not really smart. If I was good looking I could have been a male model, or an actor, and succeed in life.

 

[Vegrau]

self-diagnosis is sad. but yes. I agree, there is no choice) I had an obsessive compulsive disorder on some topics that I did not take seriously. after solving the problem, now I don't know why to live any longer) well, I plan ctb xD

Same I have OCD as well. I feel the intense need to disinfect everything I came in contact with. Washing and disinfecting my hands and feet even though I know theyre clean. I have hard time understanding people. I dont know what they want. Its confusing as f. I dont like them and I would prefer if they keep away from me unless its necessary. People also think I am not "normal". Hah as if I need their acknowledgement. And those are just the part of the reasons I think I am an asperger.

 

[Lost Soul]

My social skills are terrible. I'm very self-conscious, weird, and cringey.
I got bullied when I was younger because I was different.
My behavior is strange, and my looks can't compensate for it. If you're good looking and strange, then you're viewed as mysterious, and sexy. If you're average looking or ugly, and you're strange, then you're seen as creepy, and stupid.


What most people (especially girls) think about him: oh, he's so cute. I love bad boys.


What most people think about this guy: man, I hate criminals, they are the scum of society.


Both are criminals, but they get treated differently by society based on their looks. This is called lookism, and it's omnipresent in our current society.

 

[BridgeJumper]

I was diagnosed with it 10 years back, showed up in my record recently again but I dont really identify with the diagnosis. I mean Im weird, true, but not autistic
I dont live, Im a child with a drinking permit living off my parents cash

 

[tomz323]

If you're good looking and strange, then you're viewed as mysterious, and sexy. If you're average looking or ugly, and you're strange, then you're seen as creepy, and stupid.

Yup, makes me sad. Lookism as you say if a big reason I have self hatred

I see. May I ask what prompt you to think that you are an asperger?

You may. I guess I've always known something was wrong with me, A teacher sent me to a doctor when I was 15 because she new I was weird, then I was told I was normal. Guess he was wrong. Always just known something was wrong with me, which is hell. I'm awkward as hell and can't fit in.

 

[Vegrau]

You may. I guess I've always known something was wrong with me, A teacher sent me to a doctor when I was 15 because she new I was weird, then I was told I was normal. Guess he was wrong. Always just known something was wrong with me, which is hell. I'm awkward as hell and can't fit in.

I see. Thank you for telling and yes I understand what you meant by not fitting in. Neither can I and I am just tired of trying. People always find my actions and words strange.

 

[MiserableBastard1995]

Welcome to the club, another aspie checking in. I hope you can start making more sense of things from here on.

How I live with it? Barely. Autistic burnout is something even a bitter, vengeful fuck such as myself, wouldn't wish on my worst enemy. One thing Reddit is actually generally good for, is the r/aspergers subreddit. It's a wonderful support forum, and if you're not already there, I recommend you stop by for a look. Just don't mention your fundamental right to leave an existence you never asked for. Most of them are just as brainwashed as the rest of society, on that front.

 

[Mircea]

Though I'm not officially diagnosed, I most certainly have autism / asperger myself.

 

[SomebodyBroken]

Just don't mention your fundamental right to leave an existence you never asked for. Most of them are just as brainwashed as the rest of society, on that front.

maybe i misunderstand you?
we will die anyway, of old age. what's wrong, what do we want before?
(a little strange to see such an expression in this forum ...)

 

[JadedGray]

Yup, makes me sad. Lookism as you say if a big reason I have self hatred


You may. I guess I've always known something was wrong with me, A teacher sent me to a doctor when I was 15 because she new I was weird, then I was told I was normal. Guess he was wrong. Always just known something was wrong with me, which is hell. I'm awkward as hell and can't fit in.

There were teachers who thought I might have it, but no doctor has officially diagnosed me. A teacher might have better say in the matter in general though, since they spend more time with the person and watch how they socialize with others. My parents (especially my father) think I have it too.

 

[EmotionlessWanderer]

I have high functioning autism and there are several people in my family younger than me that have it too.

It's going to be a sad day once they get a wake up call and realize how much of a shitfest this world is. How alienated they will always feel.

One of the autistics is in family is incredibly smart despite being a toddler. He can solve math problems that are hard for a kid for his age and he's even in a special school.

Those qualities however will do little for him in a world where everyone wants to hide behind feelings and positivity instead of seeing logic and truth.

 

[SomebodyBroken]

Those qualities however will do little for him in a world where everyone wants to hide behind feelings positivity instead of seeing logic and truth.

Thanks, you reminded me that you have to go all the way. further it will only get worse ...

 

[soda_pressed]

Diagnosed with aspergers when I was a toddler, things have got slightly better but it's the main reason why I'm going to ctb.
I deal with it by drinking/self medicating daily
It's horrible when i try my hardest to be kind to everyone, yet I'm usually ostracised or bullied for being different. I feel isolated and depressed as a result.

When I ctb, I'm going to mention in my suicide letter that those same people are the reason why.

 

[MiserableBastard1995]

maybe i misunderstand you?
we will die anyway, of old age. what's wrong, what do we want before?
(a little strange to see such an expression in this forum ...)

I meant "Don't mention suicide over in r/Aspergers, because even the relatiely empathetic and logical people there are no less brainwashed against rational suicide than the rest of society."

 

[SomebodyBroken]

I meant "Don't mention suicide over in r/Aspergers, because even the relatiely empathetic and logical people there are no less brainwashed against rational suicide than the rest of society."

I agree that if I tell about my orientation in a note or a reason, this will be the main reason, according to the public. rave.

 

[soda_pressed]

I meant "Don't mention suicide over in r/Aspergers, because even the relatiely empathetic and logical people there are no less brainwashed against rational suicide than the rest of society."

I've seen a few posts in that forum, and whilst there are a lot of do gooders saying stuff like "life matters, just keep pushing blah blah blah", there's also quite a lot of people who are sympathetic and completely understand/wish to ctb as well

 

[Darkhaven]

What exactly makes an adult with Asperger's seem "awkward" or different from "normal" people?
I know that as kids, people with Asperger's tend to have repetitive behaviour and difficulties in expressing themselves.
I know some people who worked with kids with Asperger's Syndrome at school.
Some of these kids had a tendencie to know everything about a particular thing and neglected the rest. I think there was a young kid that was unusually knowledgeable about the Roman Empire in history classes but didn't show interest in nothing else.
He also used to speak to the teachers in a manner that was weird. If the teacher stopped the class to explain the questions of the other kids, he would like tell the teacher to urge and resume the class.
But what i would like to know is how do these problems carry on to adult age. What makes you different from the other people? What makes you less desirable to interact than the others?
If someone whithout Asperger's would meet you for the first time would he/she notice right away that you are different?

 

[beatenghost]

My social skills are terrible. I'm very self-conscious, weird, and cringey.
I got bullied when I was younger because I was different.
My behavior is strange, and my looks can't compensate for it. If you're good looking and strange, then you're viewed as mysterious, and sexy. If you're average looking or ugly, and you're strange, then you're seen as creepy, and stupid.


What most people (especially girls) think about him: oh, he's so cute. I love bad boys.
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What most people think about this guy: man, I hate criminals, they are the scum of society.
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Both are criminals, but they get treated differently by society based on their looks. This is called lookism, and it's omnipresent in our current society.

It is deeper than "looks." The man in the top photo clearly takes care of himself, he bathes, he has put thought into his appearence. He looks like he is a gangster aka committing crimes to make money, rather than being a sadist (whether this is the case or not i don't know, but that is the impression most people would get) A man born into a bad life and just continuing it. His facial expression and eyes convey that of someone who is not spinning out of control, just someone caught up in some bad shit.

The man in the lower photo however looks terrifying. His facial expression is psychotic, his face is covered in tiny scratches from god knows what... he looks like a serial killer. His skin also looks rough. He looks like he isn't killing rival gang members, he looks like he'll kill YOU! It is not "lookism" its if someone is walking down the street naked, smeared in shit and screaming "the world is ending" you bet your ass theres something wrong with them.