Discussion anyone else have problems with rage?

[itsamadworld]

Hello. My name is (nevermind:) and I am a Rage-aholic C-nt. I am the type of buzzword, that would have probably been healthy, but for the years of raging. But the thing is, Rage, it's like an invasive species, it's difficult to eradicate! Especially without the proper resources...The downfall starts when the amygdala gets triggered into fight or flight mode! That's when i have a meltdown! Thankfully, when i'm in meltdown mode, I isolate, because I don't wanna be arrested...Then the adrenal glands secrete stress hormones like cortisol, adrenaline, and noradrenaline; serotonin levels deplete, and then I'm really unhappy....Just like me, the body keeps score, and over the years the aches and pains increase, which some may think i deserve!... I'm kinda open about my crap now: I have BPD-female Aspergers-and I'm well aware that I am a raging C-word who has mommie issues! Thanks for your time!

 

[toomuchtimetodie]

I have terrible anger due to the fear existence is a trap. When people wrong me or anyone I care about it's a bad situation for all parties. The rage I experience is an objective formed of fear and hate whilst confronting these situations

 

[Nem]

I can somewhat relate and sorry to hear. I was screwed around badly to have ended up on this site (which I am thankful for), last year I punched the windshield when I was in my car so hard it cracked the whole windshield, I have smashed my phone over my head so many times that I have had to replace my phone at least three times. Punched a hole throw the wall, head butted the wall numerous times. Broke plates and glasses over my head and punched myself in the head so many freakin times I had to stop because my head was getting swollen.
Punched my car and left a fist mark on the fender, the only thing I haven't broken Is some music equipment but that's about it. So yes, I understand your frustration can cause rage, it's all traced back to being with a sociopath for a partner. I am so angry with myself for being a freakin idiot and not paying attention to the red flags
Peace/hugs

 

[Darkhaven]

I have had these fits of rage and agressiveness, when i'm exposed to certain triggers, every since i was a kid.
Usually it gets triggered either by certain thoughts that make me get angry and rageful or by external triggers like movies, musics or simply by listening or seeing other human behaviour that irritates me.
I start to grind my teeth and get restless.
Fortunately for me, it never caused me trouble as i am alone most of time and when i'm with people, my crippling social anxiety serves as a counterbalance, making sure these rage attacks always stay inside my head. One cannot know the future, though.... MUHAHAHAHA

 

[toomuchtimetodie]

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Punched my car and left a fist mark on the fender,

On a quick lightnote. You must have some shaolin monk knuckle conditioning going on there mate.

 

[bpdandme]

Being self-aware is such a positive trait to have and is the first step to changing something, a lot of people who are self aware of behaviours which is beyond their control (such as rage from BPD - I sympathise as I have it to) are not bad people. Bad people are the ones in denial and oblivious. I have problems with rage too and also isolate so I don't take it out on other people.

 

[Nem]

On a quick lightnote. You must have some shaolin monk knuckle conditioning going on there mate.

That one hurt, knuckles were swollen for quite awhile after that one. At the time it didn't hurt, was too ticked off
Peace/hugs

 

[FreedomInDeath]

Yes I have rage. For me it is all due to pain and fear in the end. Resolving/accepting some of the issues has helped me some. Sorry you have rage issues. I despise being in that state, some enjoy it and feel powerful but for me it just feels like physical pain and more powerlessness.

 

[Notwinnernotawin]

Yes, but it's mostly because of what things are like. And sometimes I'm angry at every single thing, even the sound of my own breathing will piss me off.

 

[Lost in a Dream]

Yes(x1000)! I've ruined friendships and lost jobs because of this rage. I have broken things at work and at home, thrown small furniture, and I have destroyed at least one of my phones from this as well. It's been better recently due to having less stress in my life currently. I don't know how long it's going to last, but things do seem to be gradually improving. The biggest thing that seems to trigger this intense anger is when other people pretend to care about me and try to take advantage of me. I've had times when I have been surrounded with people like that, but thankfully I've gotten all of them out of my life for the time being.

I intentionally go out of my way to avoid getting involved in new relationships because of the likelihood that these people will end up pissing me off and causing more problems. Since I am a loner, I am most at peace when people just leave me alone and I can do my own thing without having to deal with them. Once in a while I make exceptions, but avoiding others seems to do the trick, to keep the rage away.

 

[Soulless_Angel]

I can often feel anger building in me, i cant stop it, which angers me more, its like its out of my control, knowing in a few hours ill be fine and people will be treating me like, well what was the anger for attirude towards also eats into the building anger. Its so stressful, its like the original anger times 3! I wish there was a way to stop it but often there is no trigger, i just snap.
My home is full of holes, normally i kick the shit out of stuff. I was told years back that everyone has a anger release point, some use hands, some use feet and so forth, mines mainly via my feet.
I have recently started reself harming though, angry so fucking angry at myself, that i just want to rip into my arms, but the glass is too blunt

 

[SuicideBoys93]

I suffer from intermittent explosive disorder. Long story short I'll blackout rage. It still blows my mind that I don't remember certain parts of my anger episodes. I don't drink anymore, because I get extremely aggressive. I usually get some pretty intense headaches once I come back to reality. My worst episode was I remember one morning my wife was going at it with me, and I snapped. The last thing I remember was slamming the door to my bedroom, and in the blink of an eye I skipped a whole thirty minute drive to work found myself sitting in the parking lot. I feel like I turn into the hulk every time I get an episode. Crazy how powerful, but how flawed the human brain can end up.

 

[K-O]

OOHOHOHO!! YES! KILEM AAAAAAALLLLLL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
COUNTLESS VIOLENT FIGHT ENDING ALLAYS WITH ME DOWN (NOT V STRONG)..
MOSTLY CAUSE I CANT STAND BULLYING, AND LIVE IN A WAR ZONE..
MY RAGE BUTTON IS A NEEDY BABY.. PART I GUESS FOR THE REASON I AM AN ADDICT.. TO KEEP MY SELF UNDER WATER.. OUT OF TROUBLE.. ETC..
SEVERAL TIMES ALMOST DIED..
ATTRACTED TO IT LIKE A MOTH TO FIRE!
FLAME ON MF!!!!!!!!!!!!
USED TO RAVE A LOT AND GET THAT ENERGY OUT..
ALSO LED ME TO SEMI PROSTITUTION..
AND OBVIOUSLY SOME VIOLENT PARTNER CHOICES..
AND YEA IT HAS HAVE ITS TOLL ON ME.. PHYSICAL HEALTH, LOOKS, SOCIAL ZIGZAGGING ETC..
BUT TBH NOTHING FEELS BETTER THAN RAGING ON!
ANGER MANAGEMENT ASAP!!
BUT HEY.. IM A CUDDLE ADDICT AS WELL
X

 

[GoBack]

Yup. Constant loop of anger at myself and other people. It's consuming me, have no outlets for it anymore. I used to be able to manage it but as my health gets worse the anger gets stronger.

Won't be long before I hurt myself really badly
Yup. Constant loop of anger at myself and other people. It's consuming me, have no outlets for it anymore. I used to be able to manage it but as my health gets worse the anger gets stronger.

Won't be long before I hurt myself really badly

 

[porfin1234]

I have always had horrible rage even over the smallest things. I've become more self aware and it's disturbing to me how I can physically feel the rage coming on like a rush in my body over the dumbest perceived slight. I was diagnosed with BPD, ADD, bipolar II, and self diagnosed NPD. Although I finally told my therapist at the end of one of my last therapy sessions: Fuck labels, I've come to the conclusion I just have spoiled little brat syndrome.

I finally tried being more spiritual and meditating etc. But after calming myself down after listening to Eckhart Tolle only to losing it in a public park moments later after my friend made one comment over getting involved with a man that was not good for me (and he was just looking out for me and spoke from a place of caring- he simply said I did not love myself enough to not get involved with someone toxic for me) I think I'm pretty much a lost cause. Putting the pieces together, people ive lived with telling me in always in a bad mood even when I was not aware or there was no reason, I just hate being in this body and mind. I can also be extremely happy and loving and fun but discovered too late and that side of me just wasn't enough to counteract the negative. I am sick of the emotional roller coaster and ready to pull the plug.

 

[K-O]

I have always had horrible rage even over the smallest things. I've become more self aware and it's disturbing to me how I can physically feel the rage coming on like a rush in my body over the dumbest perceived slight. I was diagnosed with BPD, ADD, bipolar II, and self diagnosed NPD. Although I finally told my therapist at the end of one of my last therapy sessions: Fuck labels, I've come to the conclusion I just have spoiled little brat syndrome.

I finally tried being more spiritual and meditating etc. But after calming myself down after listening to Eckhart Tolle only to losing it in a public park moments later after my friend made one comment over getting involved with a man that was not good for me (and he was just looking out for me and spoke from a place of caring), I think I'm pretty much a lost cause. I am sick of the emotional roller coaster and ready to pull the plug.

"SLBS"! U GOT THIS GIRL X

 

[porfin1234]

"SLBS"! U GOT THIS GIRL X

Thankies.. pardon my ignorance but what is "SLBS"?

 

[K-O]

GIRL U SAID IT INNIT?-
spoiled little brat syndrome.
HEHE

 

[porfin1234]

GIRL U SAID IT INNIT?-
spoiled little brat syndrome.
HEHE

Hahaha.. love it.

 

[Final Escape]

At times I do, but I suppress mine I guess. If I stay away from people I'm less angry I've noticed lol!

 

[Deleted member 1465]

I'm angry. I have a tendency towards hot rage that I have learned to channel into cold meticulous anger. I use it as best I can to my advantage. Anger may not be good, but it is better for me than despair. It motivates.

 

[muffin222]

Yes! I struggle with a lot of rage and anger that's bubbling up to the surface more and more lately. My rage oftentimes gets triggered by minor, inconsequential events and inconveniences because I suppressed my emotions for the majority of my life. I read the depression is "anger turned inwards"...that's definitely been the case for me