Anyone else have nightmares about their impending suicide?

[Close_to_freedom]

Then I wake up with intense regret and sadness. If it wasn't for the childhood abuse, subsequent health problems that have resulted from it, and current health problems, I would live.

I've already tried to get better with countless doctors and therapists.

 

[SpottedPanda]

Strangely enough, as I've been more set on delivering myself to nothingness, I've had more good dreams, non suicide related.

 

[I screwed up]

Yes its weird though becoz I never end up succeeding and I get up

 

[TheRaul95]

Too much hope can partially kill you at the end. Like hoping that doctors can cure everything, but was soo wrong...

 

[KibblesNBits]

Too much can partially kill you at the end. Like hoping that doctors can cure everything, but was soo wrong...

You too? That's what happened to me. It was a shock to the system to realize just how little the so called "health care system" can actually do for you.

 

[Evermore]

Yep . I'd definitely call them nightmares because everytime i dream of suicide it's always a failed attempt. When my method was drowning I'd dream of trying to drown myself and being rescued now I dream of failed CO method in a tent and it either doesn't work or I set fire to something.

 

[LetzteAusfahrt]

No, absolutely not, on the contrary. I am so looking forward to it that I already had a very nice dream when I died. When I woke up it was a disappointment that it was just a dream

 

[KibblesNBits]

I dream anxiety dreams like where my teeth fall out. Life is much scarier than death.

 

[AnxietyAttack44]

I have suicide dreams alot too, but they make me feel happy and calm. They bring me comfort. Waking up and being alive makes me cry early in the morning

 

[DetachedDreamer97]

I won't say nightmare. But it was something.

In the dream, I was alone in the house I used to live in and I decided to try out my 2M2B and I accidentally took a lethal overdose. The only thing bad about it was that I was doing it prematurely. I panicked a little going "oh shit... I wasn't supposed to do all that yet... it's not that month yet", but that quickly passed and I accepted it. So, I went to my room (now in the place I currently live in) and laid on my bed. I was getting increasingly drowsy and I've spent the rest of the dream sequence thinking about this next world.

That was pretty recent.

 

[Emily123]

I had two nightmares . In one them i took N and I got up peacefully after a few hours . There was another nightmare that i was death but I was feeling everything but I couldn't response . The doctor who announced my death used a needle to test if i was death .i was feeling the pain but i couldn't tell him that i was still alive

 

[Borabora]

Not really 'nightmare' but had a dream where I was on a trip. In my dream I looked out the window of the hotel & saw a graveyard with tombstones.
It was so vivid. I remember thinking in the dream, "Why would a hotel be next to a graveyard? So odd. When I woke up, I still remember the dream.
Also, in waking life, I remember thinking, "Universe, please give me a sign that I will ctb successfully." Next day, I found by accident a photo of my dear friend - C, who died 10+ years ago. - I take that they are both signs from Spirit that I will ctb soon & successfully. My friend C will be there to meet me.

 

[rhiino]

I dreamed that I took my N and the first thought was: What have I done? But then I was at peace with it and was happily drifting off, knowing that my pain will be over soon.