suffering
Too p*ssy to end it, too suicidal to leave
- Aug 17, 2018
- 398
I just can't overcome my SI. Sometimes I think that even if I had that magic instant button, I would still be unable to press it. This is not some hidden desire to live or other stuff, it's simply the irrational lizard brain. I consider all life worthless and futile, especially after one's body begins to decay.
Anyway, I feel like I should stop posting on this forum, as I am not considering suicide anymore due to its difficulty, but this is the only place where I feel fine, while the whole world feels like a madhouse.
I am trying now to live a normal life and to put effort in staying healthy and so on. Anyone else in the same situation? I feel like we require a new word in the dictionary for us, something like 'the trapped ones'.
Anyway, I feel like I should stop posting on this forum, as I am not considering suicide anymore due to its difficulty, but this is the only place where I feel fine, while the whole world feels like a madhouse.
I am trying now to live a normal life and to put effort in staying healthy and so on. Anyone else in the same situation? I feel like we require a new word in the dictionary for us, something like 'the trapped ones'.