Painless_end
Life is too difficult for me
- Oct 11, 2019
- 794
I just spend my every current waking moment in a lot of unhappiness and mental agony.
Deep down, objectively speaking, I should be dead. I know what suicidal people are like and I am definitely one of them.
But due to SI, I am unable to CTB. Instead, whenever a situation arises that pushes me over the edge, I just tell my parents that I have mental problems and sit away in the corner somewhere. My mother thinks it is anxiety and depression, but actually it is the overwhelming nature of life being what it is, and me being what I am that makes the whole thing horrifyingly difficult for me to actually find a way out of.
I am just extremely unhappy that I am not able to CTB.
Deep down, objectively speaking, I should be dead. I know what suicidal people are like and I am definitely one of them.
But due to SI, I am unable to CTB. Instead, whenever a situation arises that pushes me over the edge, I just tell my parents that I have mental problems and sit away in the corner somewhere. My mother thinks it is anxiety and depression, but actually it is the overwhelming nature of life being what it is, and me being what I am that makes the whole thing horrifyingly difficult for me to actually find a way out of.
I am just extremely unhappy that I am not able to CTB.