Discussion Anyone else feels like there isn't much time left?

[Rn110bg101]

I've been having this feeling lately, like… There isn't much time left.
Not that 'impending doom' feeling, but "I'll probably get to catch the bus soon".

Does anyone else feel it?

 

[pete_x]

Yes. Soon. But not doom. It's more a giddy sense of relief.

 

[Blackpoolbootz]

I feel as if waiting for something to happen if that's the same thing?

 

[nerve]

I'm getting there, I think. It's kind of like "oh okay!" Sort of pleasantly matter of fact.

 

[Rn110bg101]

I feel as if waiting for something to happen if that's the same thing?

Not exactly. I've been waiting for something to happen for forever now... But now it feels like it's coming soon, if that makes sense?

 

[NekoNomNom]

I definitely feel like I'm teetering. Unfortunately I have to go to a specific place to ctb, so I can't just do it whenever it feels to be too much...which is a lot as of late.

But hopefully I'll have the courage when the time comes. Two, maybe three weeks.

 

[MaybeSoon]

I jump between thinking my time is running out to thinking I have more time almost constantly. I keep buying time by setting news goals or waiting for certain things to pass but deep down I feel like I'm definitely on borrowed time. Mental torture.

 

[TheSoulless]

Yeah, I get that. A bittersweet feeling, it's kind of sad but primarily happy, since I feel I get to leave this shit world. Haven't had it for a while now, though.

 

[NekoNomNom]

I jump between thinking my time is running out to thinking I have more time almost constantly. I keep buying time by setting news goals or waiting for certain things to pass but deep down I feel like I'm definitely on borrowed time. Mental torture.

This.

This is exactly what I've been putting myself through.

Sigh.

 

[TheSoulless]

I jump between thinking my time is running out to thinking I have more time almost constantly. I keep buying time by setting news goals or waiting for certain things to pass but deep down I feel like I'm definitely on borrowed time. Mental torture.

This is accurate.

 

[Blackpoolbootz]

Not exactly. I've been waiting for something to happen for forever now... But now it feels like it's coming soon, if that makes sense?

Sort of like end of a old tape machine before it clicks off? You know it's going to happen even if you can't see the machine?

 

[Rn110bg101]

Sort of like end of a old tape machine before it clicks off? You know it's going to happen even if you can't see the machine?

Something like that, yeah…

I jump between thinking my time is running out to thinking I have more time almost constantly. I keep buying time by setting news goals or waiting for certain things to pass but deep down I feel like I'm definitely on borrowed time. Mental torture.

I get the feeling, I used to do this.
Now it feels more like I'm just waiting for the right moment, I'm waiting for when I'll be brave enough to just step in that bus.

 

[Blackpoolbootz]

I've got a place set in my mind not realy a method times been it has been a day away that I can't see past. I get the feeling for some reason I will just drop down of natural causes instantly recently.

 

[TJuk]

More of a relief knowing that soon I can end this suffering. Got a few things to do first

 

[Kassender]

Yes

Ive never been in such states of mental anguish and rage before.
I feel i will be catching the bus soon because im really starting to go insane.

 

[Emily123]

I have this feeling but I can not do it

 

[Pan]

Agreed. For me, the door has been opened; thoughts of ctb pervade the atmosphere; it truly is the elephant in the room. The clock is ticking; I count the minutes, which could just as easily become hours/days/years. Where did it all go? And for what? FUCK THE AMERICAN DREAM.