Anyone else feel that each day gets worse?

[Lra888]

I feel like each morning that I wake up I feel worse and worse. My mind is even more broken down by depression and anxiety, I'm less able to concentrate or memorize things, less able to interact with others, less ability to prepare food eat maintain self, no ability to have any enjoyment at all. I'm determined to ctb so everything else seems secondary. The pain of depression makes forcing myself through a day near impossible. Hoping that I can reach a level of enlightenment so that I can calmly exit this life. This site has been quite helpful to me and I appreciate having people that I can relate to, communicate with and who can understand my situation - I surely do not have that irl. Thank you everyone.

 

[Lra888]

Absolutely thankful that understanding people such as yourselves exist. We're all in pain but know that there is a way out. Peace to all.

 

[Lunar]

I feel similar due to depression and anxiety. My memory feels shot, difficulty concentrating, lack of motivation and anhedonia makes trying to enjoy things incredibly difficult. Various medications over the years I feel have made it worse. I have almost everything I need to ctb, hopefully I'll be gone before the new year.

Thank you as well. I also wish you peace when you decide to exit.

 

[throwaway777]

i know it's not helpulf but i feel the same … and this place is a rare gem for me :3 love everyone here<3

 

[Schopenhauer]

I have bad days, and awful days. It does seem to be getting worse. Each bad day is a little worse than the preceding one, same for the awful days.

 

[Throwaway563078]

Absolutely thankful that understanding people such as yourselves exist. We're all in pain but know that there is a way out. Peace to all.

I wish that way out wasn't so difficult

 

[wanttodie]

yes

 

[millefeui]

They certainly don't get better. I can say as much.

 

[Life sucks]

Life is a brutal time machine and everyday gets worse by time effect. And many things comes and goes

 

[Trashcan]

Yes. There's not really any days I look forward to other than the days I'm dead.

 

[oldgray]

everytime i think it can't get anymore worse, life find a way to fucking do it anyway.

 

[Lra888]

everytime i think it can't get anymore worse, life find a way to fucking do it anyway.

I feel that too. I'm already finished with life. Just total depression and anxiety 24/7. But I manage to sink lower some how.

 

[AndyCurious]

Absolutely thankful that understanding people such as yourselves exist. We're all in pain but know that there is a way out. Peace to all.

I appreciate you, and thankful that I met you and everyone else here, you all are truly amazing

 

[deathoverlife]

I feel like each morning that I wake up I feel worse and worse. My mind is even more broken down by depression and anxiety, I'm less able to concentrate or memorize things, less able to interact with others, less ability to prepare food eat maintain self, no ability to have any enjoyment at all. I'm determined to ctb so everything else seems secondary. The pain of depression makes forcing myself through a day near impossible. Hoping that I can reach a level of enlightenment so that I can calmly exit this life. This site has been quite helpful to me and I appreciate having people that I can relate to, communicate with and who can understand my situation - I surely do not have that irl. Thank you everyone.

This is hoe exactly i was till yesterday..am at peace now..am prepared well to cbt..every thing set..trial run is done..waiting for the right time...will do it the week..

 

[worldexploder]

Defiantly. I have been getting progressively worse for years. Each year worse than the last.

 

[Angst Filled Fuck Up]

Life has become a pure endurance test for me. It's not that I simply feel worse year after year, it's that every year my life takes a tumble even from a very objective standpoint. Just when I think I've hit the bottom, the rug is pulled out from underneath me and I'm subjected to a whole new level of shittiness, by things that are more often than not completely outside of my control. I'm beyond sick of it.

 

[BaconCheeseburger]

This weekend in particular has been a downward progression. And if the amount of time I spend on this site is anything to go by, then yes each day is just getting worse.

 

[bunny]

it gets worse and it never ends if i don't do anything to stop it

 

[Dog Food]

Everyday I have less memory left. Everyday i get more afraid to go outside.
Everyday I get skinnier. I now have a bmi of 10.8.
Everyday I suffer more. I don't understand why people think I should keep on living.