I mostly feel anxiety, cant relax when im out , l feel observed , judged, on my limping leg and unkempt look, ragged clothes (I almost always look like a bum,), unless i'm "disguised" as a "normalI human being", whatever that is, but then i stress out feeling so fake just to fit in ,
Im like a walking house in ruins, you can paint on top of it, make it look presentable, but the pillars are rotten at the core and collapsing
I feel lonely when i see happy looking families , groups if friends, couples, they all feel like a different species to me.