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lonerclown666

Mage
Dec 1, 2020
541
when i wake up i feel very sad because is other day living in this terrible existence another day in pain another wanted to never wake up
 
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mediocre

trapped here
Nov 9, 2019
1,441
yes I do and I also have anxiety attacks. Feeling trapped in your body and your life is terrible
 
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StarryStarry

Cat Lady
Oct 25, 2021
750
I love nighttime. It's dark and quiet and I can slip under the comforter. When I wake up, it's overwhelmingly sad. I hate mornings - it's a reminder of what a loser I am, that I don't have a job, that I didn't die during the night. If only ....
 
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faex42

faex42

Experienced
Oct 19, 2018
213
When I wake up I'm confronted with my feelings about my life full force. Sleep is a wonderful sanctuary. I rarely have nightmares. The more depressed I feel the more I hate waking up.
When things are going well, it's not a factor.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
37,176
Yes, I find waking up to be very depressing and dreadful. It is a horrible feeling knowing that I have another day of this life ahead of me. Everyday is so miserable and my existence is very empty. I hope for an eternal dreamless sleep as only then, nothing can hurt me.
 
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allesistgut

Experienced
Jan 22, 2022
275
i definitely have a lot of days when i'm just so exhausted and sad when i wake up.
 
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ArtsyDrawer

Enlightened
Nov 8, 2018
1,440
Not necessarily sad. Not unless a seizure happens right at morning.
I'm more of a zombie: I exist, I can hypothetically end it right now, I can't because I have to outlive certain people so that they don't be in pain because I ctb.
It's a kind of neutral feeling.
Also, time moves really fast if I let my zombieness take over.
 
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forgotten15

forgotten15

Specialist
Aug 24, 2021
332
Yes, for me its horrible because I know I am forced to live yet another day on this planet because I am to weak to overcome SI and ctb. It's horrible having to go through this life with so much pain inside, having to fake a smile and go to work, interact with people at work, have deadlines and responsibilities when I feel extremely depressed and empty. I honestly wake up wishing the day will go fast so I can sleep again and not feel anything.
 
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......

Member
Oct 25, 2021
48
Most days I wake up with an intense feeling of dread and a heavy chest
 
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whywere

Visionary
Jun 26, 2020
2,897
Yes, for me its horrible because I know I am forced to live yet another day on this planet because I am to weak to overcome SI and ctb. It's horrible having to go through this life with so much pain inside, having to fake a smile and go to work, interact with people at work, have deadlines and responsibilities when I feel extremely depressed and empty. I honestly wake up wishing the day will go fast so I can sleep again and not feel anything.
You are NOT weak ever period. Reading your post, it is so very clear just how kind and wonderful of a soul you are. I spent 29.5 years doing the same routine as you at work, yes it can be tedious at times, BUT there is where SS and this awesome group of kindred souls comes into play to brighten your days.

Having no family nor friends, except everyone on SS, when I read posts like yours, it makes me reach out and say HI!! and tell you that you are cared about and so loved.

You are family to me, and I send you lots of well wishes, hugs and the knowledge that you truly make a difference each and every day!


Walter
 
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forgotten15

forgotten15

Specialist
Aug 24, 2021
332
You are NOT weak ever period. Reading your post, it is so very clear just how kind and wonderful of a soul you are. I spent 29.5 years doing the same routine as you at work, yes it can be tedious at times, BUT there is where SS and this awesome group of kindred souls comes into play to brighten your days.

Having no family nor friends, except everyone on SS, when I read posts like yours, it makes me reach out and say HI!! and tell you that you are cared about and so loved.

You are family to me, and I send you lots of well wishes, hugs and the knowledge that you truly make a difference each and every day!


Walter
What an amazing human being you are, Walter!
Your kind words brought tears in my eyes. As you already know, you are so much appreciated here and even if we didn't directly interract I see you and your pure heart that shines through every post you leave here. I definitely agree with you, SS forum always gives me comfort and makes my day better. I am so grateful for being part of this community.
You too are much loved and cherished!
I wish you nothing but best, I am here anytime 🤗
 
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Unicornsrnot4dislife

Not meant for this world…….
Nov 12, 2021
128
I haven't woken up feeling anything positive for a long time
 
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Someone123

Illuminated
Oct 19, 2021
3,876
Yes, almost every day I wake up in the middle of a dream where I have chances to make my life better and then when I wake up all the way I realize those chances are long gone.
 
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elfin

elfin

Member
Feb 8, 2022
80
yeah, every night i wish that i won't wake up in the morning but it always happens and it's always disappointing.
 
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anxious_depressive

I'm in despair
Dec 21, 2021
225
I wake up with a feeling of fear and anxiety.
 
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inanimate

Member
Feb 9, 2022
56
always, i feel so heavy. my heart starts beating heavily. it's like the dread fills me up within minutes.
 
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whywere

Visionary
Jun 26, 2020
2,897
always, i feel so heavy. my heart starts beating heavily. it's like the dread fills me up within minutes.
Hello! I so understand where you are coming from as somedays for me it is a mountain to climb to get my move on. But I hop on here and feel the warmth of so many caring and loving souls that my day becomes better.

I consider you a great friend to have in this thing called life and I care about you and want the best for you.

Sending you lots of well wishes, hugs and the knowledge that every morning when you open your eyes you are cared and loved as one faces a new day.

Walter
 
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inanimate

Member
Feb 9, 2022
56
Hello! I so understand where you are coming from as somedays for me it is a mountain to climb to get my move on. But I hop on here and feel the warmth of so many caring and loving souls that my day becomes better.

I consider you a great friend to have in this thing called life and I care about you and want the best for you.

Sending you lots of well wishes, hugs and the knowledge that every morning when you open your eyes you are cared and loved as one faces a new day.

Walter
thanks walter :) best to you as well
 
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motel rooms

motel rooms

Survivor of incest. Gay. Please don't PM me.
Apr 13, 2021
7,086
No, I'm relieved the nightmares are over.
 
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Sherri

Sherri

Archangel
Sep 28, 2020
13,794
I fell a mix of emptiness and sadness. Each morning when I open my blinds….
 
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Leiden

Arcanist
Sep 1, 2020
431
I immediately wish I was dead the second I wake up.
 
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Toonloon

Toonloon

Experienced
Nov 17, 2020
253
Yes. Every fucking day and moment.
 
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Ringo

Ringo

Rabbits on the Moon
Dec 3, 2020
1,699
Usually I have nightmares, then I wake up and I have to deal with reality, I'm pretty screwed in that aspect, more than sad I wake up feeling miserable and tired.
 
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Nolan96

Mage
Feb 12, 2022
506
when i wake up i feel very sad because is other day living in this terrible existence another day in pain another wanted to never wake up
It takes me so incredibly long to get up and ready to start the day in the mornings. I've resorted to chugging energy drinks the second I wake up which gives me anxiety and makes my heart race, and even then I'm still somehow sluggish and morose for an hour or two. Also the mental time-calculating begins literally the second my head lifts from the pillow. 15 hrs 45 minutes to go until bedtime again!
 
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Life sucks

Visionary
Apr 18, 2018
2,136
Waking up is the worst, I don't die, I return to this terrible life and the beautiful dreams end.
 
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Feeding Pigeons

Feeding Pigeons

Warlock
Aug 5, 2021
776
Waking up is the worst part of my day.
 
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Passersby

Passersby

Trapped in space and time
Aug 29, 2019
1,628
Yes. Wake up and repeat the same suffering every day. Repeat the same struggles and continue to suffer and keep doing this like an idiot.
 
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fatefulstillness

fatefulstillness

ghost.
Oct 24, 2021
151
I find it difficult to wake up a lot of times, it's like my body doesn't want to do another day. I don't feel sad, but mornings feel harsh and I never feel well rested.
 
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Disappointered

Disappointered

Enlightened
Sep 21, 2020
1,284
Yes, absolutely. Sometimes it's just having to start another non-day in a non-life but sometimes it's also heavier, as though maybe I dreamt of something sad. I can't remember my dreams most days but sometimes it also feels like I dreamt of something that made me happy and the realization that it was a dream is what makes me sad.
 
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TheSoulless

TheSoulless

I'd like to fly but my wings have been so denied
Jan 7, 2020
1,055
I dread mornings. Often I have dreams so pleasant I would rather stay in them forever. There's nothing good about waking up.
 
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